Though I Feel So Human At Times, It Feels As Though There Is A Fundamental Part Of Being Human Missing

DMT saved my life. If you're going through turmoil of any nature and you're thinking about trying DMT or ayahuasca this is just my endorsement for whatever it's worth. I'd be dead or in prison if it wasn't for trying DMT. I'm making this post and I will continue to make a similar post at least once a year just in case it helps anyone. I had a lot of issues but one of the biggest ones was that I was addicted to heroin. I literally couldn't go a day without it for years....one day I couldn't get it and someone gave me DMT saying it would help. It was 3:33 in the morning when I took that inhale alone in my bedroom later that night. I was desperate and honestly didn't think it was going to do much. That was 5 years ago, now. My whole life changed. I stopped using hard drugs literally instantly. It felt like my brain had been reprogrammed and improved. Keep in mind I haven't mentioned anything about the experience. I won't because it's just too much but ill say this: it lasted a matter of minutes, it was the most intense experience of my life, and afterwards I thought about it and personally prayed for 2 hours straight in awe of how much I had learned and experienced in such a short yet unmeasurable amount of time. If you're afraid of the experience, all I can say is it's worth it.

I am drunk.

This picture was taken the day I recorded "I See Love" in the studio.

It's been a crazy fucking journey coming back to life after quite a long and dark battle with heroin and fentanyl. Throughout it she's been on my mind everyday. At all hours of the day and night I'm haunted by the thought I'll never be with her, again. I try to let go but I can't. I can still see her in the back of a memory somewhere smiling back at me with all the love in the world. She refuses to talk to me, now.. I fucked up everything :(

“In A Bath Of Blue” photo series taken of me by @arielernaphotography

SADDERDAZED IN DREAMLAND [full album]

chapter 4 from Kingdom Of Nowhere

1. Wake Me Up (Covid-19) 2. Sweet Desire 3. Myself To Blame 4.Birthdays 5. Paradise Lost 6.Thinkin' About Her 7. The Truth About Regret 8. A Balance Of Love and Hate 9. Looking For Heaven On A Blurry Day 10. Strangled Angels 11. Jump 12. Help Is On The Way 13. My Hallelujah 14. Good Day (For Sure) 15. HAPPY! JOY!

When in doubt, eat her out. 😋

"Your Life, Our Life" music video from my album "Of Life & Death"

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rainy day porch vibes *sadboy baggy eyes*