Two Doodles For The Next Chapters Of My Fics

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...........okay... I've enjoyed a lot of the SM/DP series. Pretty much all of it.

I'm a fairly trusting and optimistic guy and I very rarely poo-poo on stuff that is unfinished, because you never know how things will turn out.

And while I wasn't expecting things to turn out the way I wanted as the series was being cancelled, I was at least expecting.... something? A conclusion? Some kind of resolution to at least one character arc? .... possibly just less pages of event covers as the advertised "double length" volume.

... I'm not mad. It's not my story and it's just a comic, but as a fan and defender of the series I really felt kind of uncomfortable with the delivery of that ending. It kinda felt a bit bitter??

Dunno. Anyway, it's over.

As soon as I finish moving (end of June) and get my drawing tablet back and set up, I think I'm going to continue this series on my own. Just for shits and giggles and because Peter and Wade deserved better.

Debating on where to start up.

1. End of the Itsy Bitsy Arc

2. The Roadtrip

Depends on how much I want to keep canon-compliant.

Suggestions?

The Castiel Complex

So I found this while sifting through old stuff.  I apparently was plotting out a destiel fic around the beginning of season 7, just a short one shot.  I wrote it out in mostly just dialogue and some action captions and never really got around to actually writing it and turning it into an actual fic and I probably never will.  It's called "The Castiel Complex" so here ya go! :)

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::Sam and Dean are at a bar talking and sharing a drink when a busty asian beauty comes up and comes onto Dean::

BAB: So, what do you say?  Wanna get out of here?

Dean: ::smiles a bit and seems to contemplate it with the table in front of him::  ... Nah.  Not tonight, sweet cheeks.  ::he takes a swig of his beer::

BAB:  Okay, your loss.  ::she seems mildly put off and leaves the table::

Sam: ::watches the girl retreat and looks funny at Dean, eyebrows squinting::  ... What was that?

Dean:  What was what? ::looking straight ahead, in his own mind::

Sam: Are you okay? ::he leans forward towards Dean a little::

Dean:  Woah, little close there tiger.  Wait till we get home. ::he winks and takes another swig and leans back::

Sam: ::rolls his eyes::  Cute.  Seriously, man.  You okay?

Dean:  Seriously, Sam.  I'm fine. 

Sam:  Then tell me what that was about. ::he takes a sip of his own beer and looks over Dean's head at the BAB who is at another table now::

Dean:  It's nothing Sam.  Just not in the mood.  I'm friggin' exhausted if you can't tell.  We just ganked a nasty son of a bitch and not to mention we've got all the crazy Hexus-like spawn slipping around trying to gank us in return.  ::he looks a little firm::

Sam:  ::raises an eye brow::  Fern Gully?  Really?

Dean:  Shut up, Krista's hot.

Sam:  ::he huffs:: Dean, even if you were tired-that.  That right there?  ::he points at the BAB::  That is your dream girl.  And I, unfortunately, know that if you were really okay I'd be renting out a second room for myself right about now.  So now tell me.  Are you okay?

Dean: ::he pauses for a minute and stares at his bottle::  ...  I'm fine, Sam. 

Sam:  ::he gives him the pitiful puppy stare and then turns away  as they fall under silence, neither speaking nor drinking.  Suddenly Sam gets a look on his face as things have worked out in his head and he turns to Dean with an epiphany on his face::  Oh my, God.  He broke you.

Dean: ::he looks puzzled::  Come again?

Sam:  I mean...  I knew you were more upset about Cas'... death, than you were letting on.  But I didn't think it was this bad.  He broke you.

Dean:  ::he looks like Sam is batshit crazy::  In case you haven't noticed, I haven't brought out the Hershey's and popped in Dirty Dancing.  Sorry to disappoint you, princess.  He didn't friggin' break me. 

Sam:  ::he is about to start his long winded explanation that consists of he is right::  Look-I.  I didn't mean it like that.  But don't get me wrong ::he points at Dean::  I know you're being a big girl about this on the inside, Dean.  ::Dean shoots him a look and takes a drink::  But let's face it.  I know at first Cas wasn't exactly on our gold star chart in the beginning, but then...  You trusted him.  Hell, you probably trusted him more than Bobby, than-than, me!

Dean:  I trust you.  ::looks slightly offended::

Sam:  Come on, Dean.  I can barely go to the bathroom on my own before you start thinking I'm going to crack out the crazy and bolt.

Dean:  ::takes a sip of his beer and overts his eyes::

Sam:  ::he continues where he left off::  ...  So when Cas let slip that he was working with Crowley the whole time...  When he didn't listen to you to break it off... and then became a God so bad that we actually tried to enslave Death so that we could get rid of him?  ::he pauses to let it sink into Dean who just stares straight ahead, bottle poised to his lips, but not drinking.  Sam takes this as a sign to go on::  When you had so much faith in him as our friend- as our family- he betrayed your trust.  ::he lets his hands drop to the table and leans back as everything starts to make sense in his own head::  He broke you, Dean.  He broke you so bad you can't even trust your version of the perfect girl to give you a good time.

Dean: ::he sits there, still staring ahead while Sam hazards a pitiful glance at him from the corner of his eye::  ...Hey Sammy?

Sam: ::he shifts a bit in his seat, anticipating some big girly admission::

Dean:  ::he gives Sam a small smirk::  Can I trust you to shut up about it? ::he downs the rest of his beer and let's out an "aaah!" as he lets it sink down his throat, placing the bottle on the table and raising his hand to have someone drop off the tab::  Ready to head back, Jolly Green?

Sam: ::he gives a small smile and shakes his head and finishes his beer:: Yeah, sure.

  ::It's later that night and the boys are sleeping::

Dean: ::he's having a nightmare with Cas lying dead on the ground and he's torn between feeling relief that Godstiel is gone, but now Cas is dead too.  He shouldn't feel sad though, Cas betrayed him, but he can't help it.  Then Cas' wounds heal and he sits up alive and he can't hold back the surprise and happiness in his voice as he bends down to help him.  Cas responds in a very Cas like manner and he can almost feel himself feeling like this is going to be okay, they'll get past the whole betrayal thing when they get out of there.  Then suddenly it's Levia!Cas and Cas entering the lake and Cas' trench coat and he wakes up sweating.::

::He breaths heavy for a minute before looking over at Sam who's still asleep and calms down and flops back and stares at the ceiling.  He rolls to his side and squints his eyes shut, not crying, but looking damn close to it.  He opens his eyes and looks skyward like if he did he might see Cas there somewhere and he silently prays::

Cas...  'm so sorry...  You were being a gigantic child, but...  I should've found a way to stop you, before it got all out of hand.  Should've been able to protect you...   ::he is scolding himself now, but then his face turns sad::  Cas...  what am I supposed to do?  I need things to be right again...  "You friggin' bastard...!"  I can barely keep it together, man.  I don't know how I'm supposed to deal with this... Cas? 

::he looks up again and there is nothing but Sam's snores and he knits his brows one more time before rolling on his back and rubbing his eyes with a sigh.  He’s about to fall asleep when he hears the flutter of wings and he sits up and looks around.  He doesn't see anyone, doesn't feel danger.  He thinks it must just be is imagination and he hesitantly lays back down, reaching for his knife under the pillow and closes  his eyes as he feels just a bit better after admitting shit.  Sleep comes easy after that::

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So like... what is happening in next weeks finale?? I almost wouldn't be surprised if they made a 2 hour alternate universe ending to satisfy us lmao

He Just Wants to Be An Angel

"I just want to be an angel." This to me sounds a lot like Cas is regretful that he wasn't able to stop Dean's death.  ie.  If only I had been an angel this wouldn't have happened.  If only I had been an angel I could have saved Dean.   Cas thinks Dean is dead.  Would you really want to see the dead body of the person you love?  You may want to get there, but then won't you hesitate outside the door anyways?  Deans' body isn't going anywhere just yet and Cas doesn't want to see it right this second so he's just tying up loose ends in Heaven.  He'll go to see him I'm sure.   But that statement just sounds like a broken person who is frustrated that they couldn't do more, that he didn't have more to give and be more useful to Dean and Dean is now "dead."   He just wants to be an angel, to be useful again...  Back when he could just simply help, when he had more to give and sacrifice to Dean.  But he has to learn that his angelic powers aren't his only way to express his love to Dean and isn't just the only thing that can help.  Just his love and acceptance of Dean I think is what is really going to help Dean out in the end.   Honestly I think Cas when he sees that Dean is alive is just going to be relieved and hug demon!Dean and then try and help Sam figure out a way to get Dean back to being human.  

throwing some things together to post uwu

Cas As Dean's Romantic Interest

Reasons why I personally think Cas is a perfect choice to be Dean's romantic interest!  :)

These are MY PERSONAL OPINIONS!!  Don't take them to heart if they don't agree with yours!  :)

1.  The Playing Field

Originally Dean was drawn in by the apple pie life with Lisa and Ben and he loved it and them (I shipped Lisa and Dean when they were together :P).  But, it wasn't made to last, because it just wasn't who he was.  He wanted to keep saving people and being a hunter.  So, Dean needs someone who already knows about the things that go bump in the night.

Cas is/was an angel so we can all agree that Cas knows Dean's playing field.

2.  Ability

Dean is like a mother hen as we have all seen time and time again with Sam.  He would need someone who can take care of themselves if trouble came around.  If he were with someone who wasn't a skilled hunter or badass, he would definitely be fretting about their safety.  

Cas is/was an angel and while he is human now, that doesn't mean that he has forgotten how to throw a punch or kick an ass or two, just that he can't teleport or smite.  I think given time to adjust to being human, Cas will be about or just as formidable as the Winchester brothers.  Dean wouldn't have to worry about Cas and trust that he can take care of himself.

3.  Sam

Now, let me start off by addressing the issue of concern that "destiel going canon would draw the brothers apart" and become the "Dean and Cas" show.  Supernatural will NEVER become the "Dean and Cas" show.  The show writers and actors won't let all their hard work in developing this story and the familial bonds of the brothers to devolve into a common soap opera with monsters and a suddenly estranged brother (have some faith in the people that have brought us 8 amazing seasons!!! :D)

Now this applies to not just Cas, but anyone being romantically interested in Dean (or Sam).  No one wants the brothers with anyone, because of this (except their ship lol).

With Cas though, this wouldn't happen.  Cas has been involved pretty heavily in both the Winchesters lives (leaning more towards Deans') for 4 seasons now.  And he has had zero effect in driving them apart.  They already have a profound bond and love for one another.  

Please, don't argue with that last statement.  You know they do even if you don't see it as a romantic love.  Dean himself said it, he said that Cas was like family and a brother to him.  Dean loves his brother and he loves his family (Bobby, Ellen, Jo, John, Sam) so being family, Dean loves Cas.  He stated he would die for him, that he needs him.  Dean LOVES Cas.  That is CANON.  How you interpret that love is completely up to you though :)

As I was saying, they have had 4 years together of love and bonding time and this has not effected the brothers relationship.  If anything, it makes them talk more.  Like consulting with each other to stop Cas when he went of the rails and all Godstiel on everyone or discussing Deans' motives for praying to Castiel, etc.  

Cas becoming something a little more to Dean isn't going to drive the brothers apart and will help keep true to the story.  

Another randomly introduced person will most likely not get positive fan reaction as we have seen in the past with other potential romantic interests, and there would have to be a considerable amount of time put into Dean interacting with said character to build up a bond strong enough for the fandom to believe in it and accept it.  THAT would take time away from the brothers, because I'm sure we can agree that we hold high standards for these boys in their relationships :)  We love them!

4.  Sam

Although Dean doesn't need approval from Sam, I'm sure he would want it.  Why?  Sam is Dean's everything and Dean would want to make sure he is with a person that his baby brother gets along with, because Sam is for life and if this person was for life too, they would need to get along or else that person is going to get canned.  

Good news!  Sam likes Cas.  He is quick to defend him and considers him a friend, even if he finds him a bit awkward at times.  He even entrusted his brother to Cas and told him to keep Dean out of trouble!  Problem solved!

5.  Sam

Sam is a huge part of Dean's life and will always come first (just like he said in the finale).  Dean's potential partner would need to really understand this and accept their unhealthy co-dependence on one another.  

Good news again!  Cas has been watching these brothers for years and understands their devotion to one another and even  used it against them once by cracking Sams' gourd.  He gets their relationship and would never put himself before Sam for Dean.  In fact in the S8 finale, he brought Dean to Sam first before bolting and doing what he felt he needed to do.  

I feel another person could do the same, but most would probably feel jealous about it.  Even, Lisa with the patience of a saint knew that she couldn't have Dean if Sam was still alive.  She was kind enough to not make Dean choose, but a lot of people need that kind of commitment that he can't give.

Cas gets it and goes along with it.  Why?  Have no clue, but it's what he does.  

6.  Perfection

Dean has incredibly low self esteem as we've seen countless times.  If Dean was placed with someone who was perfect, I can't help but feel he might compare himself to them and feel that he wasn't worthy of their love.  Dean isn't perfect and he can't be with someone who is perfect.

Luckily, Cas is also not perfect.  Cas has made a TON of mistakes and Dean has seen most of them in action.  He knows Cas isn't perfect now, but he chooses to keep reaching out to him despite this.  

Dean also needs someone who knows his imperfections and accepts them wholely.  Someone who finds out that Dean mutilated souls in hell moooooost likely will turn tail and run from all his guilt and self worthlessness issues.  Cas saw him in action with that and pulled him straight out.  Despite seeing Dean at his worst, Cas keeps coming to him and reaching out as well.

Those are MY main reasons I think Cas makes a good candidate for Dean's romantic interest.  I mean there's all the usual things like their bond, eye sex, subtext, etc.  But I feel these are the core things that COULD make him a candidate.  

Not saying that there are reasons why he wouldn't, but hey!  Every relationship has some bumps yeah?  

I don't think I want to see them be all mushy and gooey, because that isn't either of them.  I think I just want at the end of the show to see Dean hop into the Impala with Cas in the front seat and they drive off together to hunt some monsters and be together forever while Sam lives a beautiful life with his own family that allows Dean to visit him as much as he wants.  :)  

Spn Finale

All I’ve heard about it is that Jared cried, it’s supposed to be worse than Swan Song, and that it will be really depressing.  And “They go there.” All I can think is that by the end of the finale Dean has completed the MoC cycle and killed Crowley, Cas, and Sam.  Snaps out of it somehow and then kills himself and at the end of the season EVERYONE is dead....  then Season 11 takes place somewhere other than Earth lol 

Nice invader zim art, it’s really neat. Is it ok if you can draw zim as an irken elite.

sure

some more stuff I haven’t posted yet 

Something I made while dealing with my own stuff and hoping drawing this would pick me up somehow. Maybe it worked.

FT my cat. His name is Mischief