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the way i would give up my life and my soul and my entire being for Samira Wiley should be a little concerning-

I'm sad.

I'm walking around the house braless and my grandma was whining about it and I asked her - in a very jokey/teesy tone - why she had a problem with it when I didn't, and that it was my body anyway, she was like I don't like you staying here, what about that then - what will you say to that. And I'm so fucking angry and upset and so, so done. I hate adults. I hate adults. I hate adults. They're insensitive, cruel and self centered.

I feel so POWERLESS. I feel so fucking powerless. I'm not in control of ANYTHING in my life, absolutely NOTHING. I have a goddamn fucking bed time, a wake up time, I'm told what I should wear and what I shouldn't, everyone has unnecessary opinions on every tiny little thing I do. I've to go where they tell me to, stay where they tell me to, talk when I'm asked to, lower my voice when ordered to. People make me feel bad for asking for things, well, they had for a long time. And now whenever I ask for even the tiniest little favor, I feel like a burden to people, an inconvenience. I've been told stuff like - when I stay at my grandparents' place for a long time, I'm adding on to their stress, they have to make food which I like, do stuff while keeping me in mind and that just inconveniences them.

I basically have no control over anything and on top of that I feel like I'm a baggage to people and I feel like breaking away, I feel so overwhelming emotions because I feel like nothing I say, none of my choices matter - that my voice doesn't matter. But I can't talk to them about this, if I do it's ALWAYS going to be "it's for your own good" // "if you don't want us to tell you things, then fine, you don't care about us, you'll understand when we're no longer here and you have no one to tell you" // "if you were more responsible and knew how to take care of yourself we wouldn't have to do this".

AND THAT'S NOT THE FUCKING POINT! THE POINT IS THAT I FEEL LIKE I CAN'T DO THE TINIEST THING WITHOUT ASKING FOR PERMISSION, I FEEL LIKE I'M A FUCKING INCONVENIENCE TO PEOPLE IF I ASK SOMETHING OF/FROM THEM, I FEEL LIKE I'M JUST FOLLOWING PEOPLE IN LIFE AND THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO ON MY OWN and now it's so fucking difficult to change things and I feel so empty and de-motivated inside, I don't feel like putting energy into anything. I can't do anything on my own without an external push. And this "just be determined and you can do anything" is FUCKING BULLSHIT, THAT'S WHAT IT IS! I CAN'T BE DETERMINED BECAUSE MY BRAIN ISN'T WIRED TO BE. YOU THINK I HAVEN'T TRIED? YOU THINK I STOP DOING THINGS I LOVE, THAT I LOSE INTEREST IN THINGS I LOVE OR I'M PASSIONATE ABOUT BECAUSE I WANT TO?! I HAVE NO FUCKING CONTROL OVER ANY OF THIS! I don't know why I'm this way, but I genuinely, legitimately cannot.

And now, I just want to rebel and disobey people, but there's always this guilt that drowns me and I hate it but I want to go against people, I want to be a bad child so I wouldn't feel so bad about myself, I want to lie without choking, I want to all this without my fucked up head thinking thoughts of death and disappointment and killing myself and running away and guilt, so much guilt and cowardice.

I feel so suffocated, so, so bad.

Kristy is aroace. No I'm not taking any arguments.

I feel like I'm wasting my life doing

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Ace/aro books coming out this year that I’m looking forward to!

Is Love the Answer by Uta Isaki - stand-alone manga about a college girl who discovers she is aroace. The same mangaka also did ‘Mine-kun is Asexual’ a couple of years ago which I liked, though it was much shorter, so I’m happy to see a full length release from them. This came out just last week, so I’m super excited to read it when it gets here!

I want to be a wall (Vol.2) by Honami Shirono - manga series - releasing 17th Jan. I already posted about how much I enjoyed Vol 1 of this series, but for recap it’s about an aroace woman and her lavender marriage to a gay man who is unrequitedly in love with his best friend. I’m really excited to see how their non-conventional relationship plays out :) it’s very slice of life and cozy!

I am Ace by Cody Daigle-Orians aka Ace Dad Advice - releasing 21 Feb 2023. I’m glad to see a book about a sexuality actually written for an ace audience, because I feel like a lot of aspec books/articles are aimed at raising awareness with allos. I’m excited to see how this one goes!

Sounds Fake But Okay: An Asexual and Aromantic Perspective on Love, Relationships, Sex, and Pretty Much Anything Else - by Kayla Kaszyca and Sarah Costello - releasing 21 Feb 2023. I’ve listened to their podcast a bit over the years and I’m curious to see what they come up with in this book!

If you want to see a fuller list of all the ace and aro books coming out this year, check out this list HERE!

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