pr0-dollie

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I'm logging out for a few days but I won't be quitting, but also usually when I log out and I try to come back I get banned, so... if that happens I'll make a new account (^ー^) <3

fictional reliance disorder (FRD)

> when one is heavily impacted by or heavily reliant on works of fiction. this includes;

holding views or beliefs that are mainly present in fiction/mainly based in fiction.

having unrealistic expectations of certain experiences.

relying heavily on works of fiction to function or prefering to interact with fiction over reality.

experiencing confusion or upsetness when something turns out different from the media they consume.

maladaptive daydreaming, if not daydreaming is still prevelant.

have an interest in creative arts such as drawing or writing.

Hamsterz Life ✰ 2006

Hello radqueerblr! We+ got termed last week, and took our+ sweet time making a new blog lmao (in case anyone is curious, i'm almost certain it didn't get termed because of radqueer stuff but because of sideblog shenanigans)

Please help us+ find our+ old mutuals!!

Hot fandom discourse take but framing dark content as only being acceptable if its a vehicle for exploring personal trauma is just giving ground to the puritan segments of fandom.

Simply liking dark content for its own sake is perfectly fine.

Tw: vent

I deserve all this pain and trauma and i deserve more and I deserve to suffer in silence for being born and causing my siblings neglect by being born, idc if it's not my fault, MY birth stil caused it.

I got more them and they were children, they didn't ask for that.

reasons to write fanfiction (I'll start):

share a cool scene that popped into your head

evoke a particular emotion the canon makes you feel

song made you think of a character or idea from canon

make people feel the same way about a character you do

make dolls kiss for fun

explore ideas the canon hints at but doesn't do anything with

traumatize characters and make them suffer

coddle characters and let them rest

had an insane idea for a crack ship and now everyone needs to know

the author of the canon was wrong and must be fixed

use familiar characters to explore your own ideas and plotlines

canon is too short and you need to wallow in the universe of the story

I am here for the "bad" survivors.

I am here for people who don't perform perfectly as they recovered from their trauma and abuse.

I am here for people who weren't believed.

I am here for people who went back, who reached out, who were unsure about what was happening to them until they were.

I am here for people who behaved chaotically and uncharacteristically in reaction to their trauma.

I am here for people who screamed, yelled, or hit back.

I am here for people who froze, stayed silent, or couldn't fight back.

I am here for people who couldn't get their stories straight, because their own memories of what happened were so fractured by the trauma.

I am here for people who's boundaries became rigid and impermeable as they tried to create a new sense of safety in their life.

I am here for people who lost all boundaries, who felt unsafe setting any boundaries in the wake of having them violated.

Whatever happened that makes you feel like you were a "bad" survivor, I am here for you.

There are no "bad" survivors because there are no "good" survivors. Surviving is hard.

᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼ trans hellenistic

᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼ a transid for all those who identify as being hellenistic (whether nationality or religion) altought they bodily arent ᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼᲼

designed by me

Having a following of antis on tik tok but being a proshipper and shotacon on tumblr is wild

Would anyone be interested in a discord server that simulates a school?

With different grades for transage, age regressors/dreamers and trans-school folk, like a pre-school/kindergarten area, elementary, middleschool, highschool, ect. With different education and worksheets. A transid nurse office for help transitioning. Clubs that cater to certain interests. Events and contests.

Do others see my vision???????? Please, I think I'm a genius for this.

shiftid !!

when someone identifies as something due to being it in their dr (desired reality) :3

Know what! Shout-out to age regressors who's regression IS somehow sexual in nature. You aren't any less valid

And no, the reason doesn't matter!

if ur transautistic ily

if ur transpots ily

if ur transpara ily

if ur transdisabled ily

if ur transtics ily

if ur transvictim ily

ur real. ur valid. ur seen.

signed, someone with autism, tics, disability, pots (questioning this), para, and a victim<3

Guys, today is Jeffrey Dean Morgans sons(Gus) birthday and like a month ago was his daughters(George) birthday !!

I GOT T WORDED AGAIN TS PMO

ITS ME ZOMBIESINMYSALAD

i got t WORDED, I'm a radqueer pro para comp c leaning towards pro, I'm cisharmful cisschizophrenia cisAudhd seminulllatina transchinese and transjewish and transcaneuser plus other stuff

im a "cartographer" w a Chrono attraction and I have lots of other transids, I made coining posts, I coined communeid/community id

PLS REBLOG SO I FIND MY MOOTS

I don't like this world anymore. no one is kind, but your valid. no seriously (if you have don't have mainstream trauma your still valid!)

Know so many people have probably said this but, Something that will always make me giggle is how most antis talk about how they’re “supporting victims” and such then send death threats and dox a teenager for coping in a way **THEY** find icky, and also prioritize the safety of a fictional charater then a real ass person who went thru real ass shit.

Exactly here's a prime example ☝🏽

Here's another anti who thinks it's okay to imagine a child being abused as long as I a proshipper

Antis are EVIL

Cw: talk of trauma + trauma dysphoria + kinda long lol

I did not feel comfortable reblogging this person at all.

- Melody[host]

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[This is more tri-harmed thing at first but I do bring up, full trans-harmed things like no trauma at all.

Also these feelings I'm talking about is for me and not for everyone]

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I actually want to feel this /srs /gen

I'm already traumatized but it isn't enough? People always and will forever undermine my [cis]trauma, and my [cis]trauma is already unseen or not as important and I've internalized this for so long that words of reassurment doesn't help.

My dysphoria gets to me so bad and if this is the only way to be valid is to live ashamed, uncomfortable, emotionally unstable and with nightmares I would do it, no questions asked, the only way I can be valid if I go through my trans-trauma.

But also identifying as my trans-trauma is kinda euphoric because if not all then most trans things are valid.

Also, not all people's trauma responses is like this, that's stereotypical responses[not saying if you have stereotypical responses you're invalid, you are completely valid <3], there a different responses to trauma.

Also I would feel special if I did go through my trans-trauma.

And then people with absolute NO trauma, maybe not all but I know some of them just want trauma because it's the only way for them to be seen or heard because people make trauma a competition and badges.

So if you actually feel that strongly about this, then let's go to the root issue and stop the glamorization of trauma, stop saying one trauma is worse then the other, stop making people feel special for their trauma, stop blaming people for feeling like they need more trauma as a result of trauma and then already invalid feeling people seeing other people get seen and heard while their unseen especially if they dont have a 'normal/big trauma/'everyone has it''/mainstream trauma, make ALL trauma seen, stop it all <3

But you won't. and you'll continue blaming it on rq's and transx's even though most of the time their trying to cope from society's doings.

And since you and most people won't try to stop or spread awareness to the main root of this all + it's already too far in how society and people see trauma/not normalized/not seen trauma for it to be reversed, transharmed people will always and will continue to use these labels to cope, for fun, and ect.

And you'll continue blaming them when it's not their faults.

[Also reminder not all transharmed's feel this wayz this is just my take on it]

- Melody [host]

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[Off topic/short talk about my tri-harmed-ness]

Also I might just refer all my cis-harmed ids as trans-harmed ids, idk why but it makes me feel better, when I don't refer it as my cis-trauma, makes me feel normal or something, like I said before I have contradictory feeling and in contradictory to myself lol (-ω-｡).

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trauma is NOT an excuse for harassment and censorship *logs out*

Guys, we're gonna start signing off our posts now cause, We're a system(transplural system) and we might be posting things related to that so yeah like alter intros <333

- Melody [host]

lolis with tooth gaps <3

lolis with messed up and jagged teeth <3

lolis with braces <3

lolis with stutters <3

lolis with lisps <3

lolis with speech impediments <3

Y'all, I have a boyfriend now (〃ﾉωﾉ)

(dw, I still love Jeffrey Dean Morgan, but My bf is my priority but I'll still post about Jeffrey and yah)

The opposite of “manic pixie dream girl” is “depressed goblin nightmare man,” and, judging by this site, it’s just as attractive to some.

— idenlock

when an individual still identifies/feels connected to a term because they have identified with it before !

— ex : identify / feel connected as gay even if that term no longer fits you !

— i will make specific versions later !

my twitter feed is full of people trying to cancel ao3??? Someone was like "Oh so they allow pedophilia fanfictions but not my cooking recipes!"

...yeah. its a fanfiction archive.

I even saw "they delete free Palestine posts!!"

BECAUSE ITS A FANFICTION ARCHIVE. NOT A SOCIAL MEDIA.

Tiktok got tired of bullying proshippers and has moved on to objectums and I hope they're two communities learn to appreciate eachother as objectums now get the comments saying "get help" "delusional" "something seriously wrong with you" "pedo" "*some form of encouraging self harm/suicide*" and ofcourse assume everything about the label is inherently sexual when it's not.

It's all happened to proshippers, you're just next on the chopping board. Good luck! You're gonna need it

does parasocial other exist yet? if not, can you make a flag for one?

— parasocial other / p / o

when an individual has a p / o !

— i like these colors (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) . . its simple but i like !

UHHH, I JUST FINISHED ARCANE AND WHAT THE FUCK???

Mini spoiler below

At least Sevika and vi is alive <3 😔

Trauma didn't make me nice, I consciously made me nice because I don't want anyone else to suffer like I did. Trauma didn't make me strong, I made me strong. Don't you dare ever tell me my trauma made me anything but scared, broken, and confused. Don't give credit to the abusers for me being a good person. They didn't make me good, I made myself good.