Me And The Loml If I Had One

yk what’s crazy is before i found my love for writing again, i used to read books (romance books specifically) and think to myself:

“wow, authors/writers are some of the most creative people out there. to create an entire ensemble of characters and give them such distinct personalities/backgrounds/upbringings, and to create an entire world of storylines for them is truly something magical.”

i used to wish i could do that. i never thought myself capable of such creativity. i used to wish i could be capable of creating an ensemble of characters i could write and have fun with. a fictional world i could create and find some escape in, and now i do.

i love the little world of characters i’ve created so much. can confirm: it is truly magical✨

oh and happy late new year💛☺️☀️

happy one year anniversary to what has become my go to album as a mentally ill girly who has literally never gotten over anything ever: the tortured mental illness- i mean the tortured poets department🖤🤍

easily a top 3 taylor album for me!

and a special shoutout to my favorite songs on the album:

peter (HUGE fav, probably #1), who’s afraid of little old me? (another HUGE fav), so long london, the prophecy (SAD fav), my boy only breaks his favorite toys (UNDERRATED fav), the bolter, guilty as sin, fresh out the slammer, loml, down bad, cassandra, i hate it here, how did it end?, so high school, i can do it with a broken heart, the alchemy, chloe or sam or sophia or marcus, the smallest man who ever lived & i look in people’s windows

Writing love stories like how I used to play with Barbies: Insane lore, the craziest breakups, smashing the characters faces together to make out. It’s the best honestly.

i’m a writer, of course my love language is words of affirmation

(say you melt at the touch of my hand, tell me how your desire burns with the heat of a thousand suns, make me feel like you could remember me even if our paths crossed in another life; if i had different eyes, would you recognize me?)

does anyone else struggle with making their characters imperfect? or making them have imperfect moments? i find myself scared to do that sometimes. i blame cancel culture😭

the ones that truly do have hearts of gold, anyway. there are a few of my characters that do deserve a couple lashings.

maybe i’m the problem? i tend to care too much what people think sometimes.

just tried to outline future chapters and my brain nearly short circuited. my creative mind is not meant to be confined to the chains of bullet points and organization she simply isn’t

being a romance writer has truly warped my perception of love and romance irl in a sense that i have *such* high standards and expectations of what i want in a relationship.

i want a love that sweeps me off my feet and nothing less! it’s too bad basic romance feels like some unattainable holy grail these days🫠

where are the men who yearn and court??? where are they????????!!!!!!!!!

a reminder to all writers out there, you’re a human, not a machine

it’s okay to be frustrated with your works

it’s okay to be exhausted

it’s okay to have a writer’s block

it’s okay to just want to take a break for a while

it’s okay if some days you can only write one paragraph

it’s okay if some days you can only write a sentence or two

it’s okay if some days you can’t write at all

every single writer has gone through all of these challenges, but the thing is that it passes. none of these struggles last forever. so be kind to yourself. you’re doing fine, I promise.

If you’re writing something that has a difficult topic in it, FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, PUT A TRIGGER WARNING AT THE START.

Your viewers can then make a choice to engage in your work. If they don’t, they are simply looking out for their mental health so they don’t get triggered emotionally. Which could be damaging. You actively lay out to the viewer what to expect going in.

A trigger warning also shows that you have respect for the topic you’re discussing. It also builds your follower’s respect and trust in you. Trigger warnings show that you are respecting your audience and putting them first.

You also respect mental health by doing this, showing that you understand the impact the topics are. You show empathy to the people you write your work to.

It promotes respectful writing. Writing that is mindful and humble.

You will not only get respect, but also keep some people safe mentally.

is this a safe space? i hate writing sex scenes.

that’s like the one thing i try my hardest to include very little of. but it’s hard bc i know some people enjoy reading those scenes when it comes to romance stories specifically, (which is completely fine! no judgement whatsoever!) i just hate writing them😭

i much prefer alluding to it or transitioning into a scene break/cut. but like i said, i know some readers enjoy reading those moments so i force myself to include some crumbs of it. which is fine, i guess. i’ll survive how awkward i feel, no big deal