It's Completely Normal To Have Conversations With Yourself Every Day For Your Entire Life. "who Are You

very cheesed to see someone else acknowledging the pervasive hypocrisy in anti-endo spaces. another big one is how they claim their stance is to "protect the community from fakers" or some other insistence that endos/related are bad actors, and proceed to.. you know. exclude other disordered systems from osddid spaces on the basis of supporting endos. a la the very blatant implication of "you're fake if you believe in them because a Real System wouldnt believe in them". like dude. seriously? where am i

yeah, also like... claiming endos are "fakers" is always so weird to me because... in order to fake DID or OSDD-1, wouldnt you kind of need to claim that you HAVE the disorder??? endos dont claim DID or OSDD-1 to begin with LMFAOO so how would they be faking it

schizophrenic horror fans are gods strongest soldiers

👉👈 hi... you guys seem cool...!! :3 ive been wanting to approach y'all but didnt know how AJDJFJ also, i saw that you have a witch tag? :0 (i consider myself spiritual and do some witchy practices but i dont really call myself a witch)

- nova

OHH THANK U!! also yes! i am an eclectic pagan :3 also a witch!! we also love making friends so if u want to be friends feel free to DM us anytime!!

TW // RAMCOA brief talk //

Hello! I apologize for popping in like this, i know its a heavy topic. I know what RAMCOA is, and i was wondering if it was okay to send in questions ( i can do it off anon if it helps you feel comfortable, just lmk if you prefer another ask, dms or comments /gen ) because i heavily wonder if i am a RAMCOA system.

Well partially at this point. I know it'll have heavy discussions, so i do truthfully understand if you wouldn't feel comfortable talking about it. If it helps i don't plan to ask anything personal, just general questions. If you know someone else who would be willing to answer or if a commenter wants to help i would appreciate anything, i am desperate. /lh

yes that is fine! i am not really comfortable saying for certain if you have / havent experienced RAMCOA... but i am a RAMCOA survivor myself and i am always happy to help others and discuss experiences! feel free to DM me, ill answer questions as well as i can :)

made a meme for anyone else out there who gets stuck in the "it wasnt that bad!" or "maybe im not traumatized!" loops because trauma denial sucks ass!!! you all are valid!!!

i love dressing in alt fashion. currently thinking about the time this like 4yr old boy walked by me in the mall and pointed and went "WOAHH" and his dad was like shh we dont do that. like yeah kid. become emo. i support u.

happy autism awareness day to all the girls who had “ friends” growing up who were actually bullying them . to the girls who always sat alone in the grass and wondered why nobody wanted to talk . to the girls who spoke to animals like they were listening . to the girls who created a little world in their room . to the girls who always felt ashamed for how deeply they love things and how passionately they enjoyed media . to the girls who covered their ears when they were overwhelmed by everything . to the girls who carrying a special thing around to feel safe . to the girls who never understood what they did wrong to feel so lonely . to the girls who were diagnosed later in life because they weren’t little boys who liked trains. you are so special and beautiful and you’re not worse for it, you love deeply and that is so wonderful please never try to push that down . I LOVE YOU !!!!!

auhhh your blog is so pretty. basic template, either dealers choice headmade or a dsmp fictive of your choosing if that's okay!!

cutter+alex, he/him

YEAHH thank you!! i will do my best to do the dsmp fictive, but ive never actually watched it, so it may be a little off LOL i hope its okay though!! i read a wiki page for it LMAOO feel free to take what fits and leave what doesnt :) also SORRYY if any of this doesnt fully fit! i had a hard time thinking of some stuff...

name: ranboo, boo, ran, ender, allium / allie, quill, rainbow, raine, riley, vinyl, clue, mystery, seeker, sage, asher, lucas, eugene, cedar, charlie, olive / oliver / oli, crypt, grim

pronouns: end/ender, end/ends, love/loves, red/reds, green/greens, heart/hearts, kind/kinds, trance/trances, walk/walks, peace/peaceful or peace/peaces, dual/duality, purple/purples, pur/purple, boo/boos, book/books, page/pages, particle/particles, eye/eyes, glow/glows, tape/tapes

age: ageless, appears as young adult

role: protector, emotional regulator, insomnia holder, dissociation holder, anxiety holder, conflict resolver, caretaker

genders: genderfluid, nonbinary, enderwalkic, cryptidcatgender, liminalic, vimemorin, reidrovex, lostpoeic, panicgender, endposgender, lossgender, endrian

orientation: asexual panromantic

species: half enderman, enderwalker, cryptid

personality overview: loving / caring towards friends, can be assertive when needed and usually in the defense of close people, likes to talk things out whenever possible and resolve conflict, protective of anyone considered close, forgiving, honest, wants to help others, forgetful at times, i could also see this alter taking up poetry / writing as a hobby :)

notable traits: insomniac, hard time making eye contact, dislikes being in water, verbal stims when stressed, likes to fidget with random objects and potentially collect things, loves animals... maybe has innerworld pet?

general aesthetic: softer, black and white, glitchcore maybe? or darker cottagecore / dark nature

add ons: ranboo introject

I HOPE ITS OKAY! sorry it took a bit, i was doing like actual research LMAOO

Yeah you could say I’m doing numbers on tumblr. And that numbers? One

gonna get a bit syscourse-y here, but... recently noticed kind of a weird hypocrisy in anti-endo arguments and wanted to point it out to see if others agree

for extra context, i have DID and im pro-endo id say?? my mindset is basically just "i dont get it personally, but live ur life dude(s), its not my business and im not gonna tell u what u are / arent" because like. i find it super hard to believe that DID and OSDD-1 are the ONLY possible causes for systems LOL... also i will be using the terms endo / endogenic as umbrella terms for all plurality outside of DID / OSDD-1 throughout this post

ANYWAYS THOUGHH... most harshly anti-endo spaces (or at least those that are pro-recovery) really emphasise that DID and OSDD-1 are more than just "alter disorders", which i absolutely agree with! DID and OSDD-1 are both complex dissociative disorders that include identity alteration (alters) as a SYMPTOM, but the disorders both fundamentally involve dissociation and impairment in daily life to some extent

BUT... then they are also so quick to say that endos MUST have DID / OSDD-1 if they have alters... but what about all the other symptoms? most endos i have met do not experience dissociation or other DID / OSDD-1 symptoms. claiming someone MUST have DID / OSDD-1 because they have alters would kind of be reducing the disorders down to just "alter disorders", right?

plus, it seems to be entirely ignoring the fact that you can have a symptom of a disorder without having the disorder / being disordered... lets use ADHD as an example here since its the first thing to come to mind LOL, someone can have a short attention span or be distracted easily without inherently having ADHD. it would depend on the presence of other symptoms as well as degree of life impairment. this logic also applies to any other disorder ever... so why dont we apply the same logic to DID / OSDD-1?

most endos i see dont claim DID / OSDD-1, and the ones that do are generally mixed origins. if we apply the logic that symptom ≠ disorder and that DID / OSDD-1 are more than just "alter disorders", why would someone not be able to have alters without a dissociative disorder?

IDK i hope this makes sense. feel free to reblog with any comments or anything i want to see others opinionz