Happy Autism Awareness Day To All The Girls Who Had “ Friends” Growing Up Who Were Actually Bullying

✶ ﹒ intro.

eight. 19 years old.

any pronouns. genderless.

mixed indigenous. disabled.

DID system. OEA survivor.

ASPD. NPD. schizospec.

blog will contain triggering content including posts relating to / showing weapons, posts about mental illness, posts about trauma, and more.

i plan to get started making NPT and BAH posts! might also coin xenogenders eventually, you can send requests in if you want, i may decline if i feel uncomfortable for whatever reason.

below is my tagging system and NPT + BAH request rules!

✶ ﹒ requests.

i will do any themes requested unless i find them too difficult for whatever reason, or feel uncomfortable with the theme.

my npts will include names, pronouns, and genders. i can add titles if requested but i am not too good at them! i can also include system names if requested.

all bah posts will come with some basic information, and any additional information can be requested with add-ons!

a basic bah will include names, pronouns, age, role, gender, orientation, and species. it will also include a personality overview, as well as any noteworthy traits or features, and a general aesthetic or style description.

add-ons include faceclaim, typing quirk, sign offs, image aesthetic / moodboard, music taste, source, kins, and anything else requested! please specify if you would like any of these included in your ask.

bah template will look something like this...

names:

pronouns:

age:

role:

genders:

orientation:

species:

personality overview:

notable traits:

general aesthetic:

add ons:

✶ ﹒ tagging.

system tag — ✶ ﹒ sys.

trauma tag — ✶ ﹒ trauma.

aesthetic tag — ✶ ﹒ aesthetic.

vent / rant tag — ✶ ﹒ vent.

music tag — ✶ ﹒ music.

media tag — ✶ ﹒ media.

disability tag — ✶ ﹒ disability.

mental illness tag — ✶ ﹒ mental.

coining tag — ✶ ﹒ coining.

bah tag — ✶ ﹒ bah.

npt tag — ✶ ﹒ npt.

witchy tag — ✶ ﹒ witchy.

misc tag — ✶ ﹒ misc.

reblog tag — ✶ ﹒ reblog.

asks tag — ✶ ﹒ asks.

it makes me kind of sad to see how many people online make fun of autism depictions in media... even the "stereotypical" ones. i often see people make fun of media with autistic characters (either canon described as autistic, or heavy implications and autistic traits) and then say its because its "inaccurate" and "stereotypical" and "overexaggerated" like... are we ignoring the fact that some autistic people do present that way?

my personal example of this is the tv show the good doctor, i watched the first couple seasons when i was like 14ish and first coming to terms with my autism diagnosis (before that point i had done everything i could to ignore it, and my mom had hidden the fact that i was diagnosed from me for a few years because she didnt want me to feel bad... i was diagnosed around age 10 and really would have benefitted from support, but never got any)

i am aware that the show doesnt have the best representation and isnt the most accurate, and i do wish the actor who played the character had been autistic, for better representation as well as promoting autistic actors... but i still loved the show, medical science is a special interest of mine and i have wanted to be a surgeon ever since i was very little, so i really liked to see a show about a topic i love that shows someone like me being successful! i was very happy!

later on i ended up going online and searching the show, all i saw were people making fun of the show and making fun of the character for autism things... all done under the "nobody actually acts like that" argument... it really did hurt me a lot, because i actually act like that. a lot of the struggles the character had are real struggles i face as an autistic person, even if the show doesnt always represent them the best

i struggle with making friends, i struggle with physical touch, i struggle with saying the "wrong" thing and not really knowing how to converse (especially in emotional situations), i am monotone, i need rigid routines, etc etc... so i was very happy to see a show with someone like me!! and it makes me sad how many people make fun of it with the excuse of "nobody is actually like that" because yes! people are! i am!

Being a system is so weird like my mummy and daddy didn't like me so now I'm sans the skeleton

auhhh your blog is so pretty. basic template, either dealers choice headmade or a dsmp fictive of your choosing if that's okay!!

cutter+alex, he/him

YEAHH thank you!! i will do my best to do the dsmp fictive, but ive never actually watched it, so it may be a little off LOL i hope its okay though!! i read a wiki page for it LMAOO feel free to take what fits and leave what doesnt :) also SORRYY if any of this doesnt fully fit! i had a hard time thinking of some stuff...

name: ranboo, boo, ran, ender, allium / allie, quill, rainbow, raine, riley, vinyl, clue, mystery, seeker, sage, asher, lucas, eugene, cedar, charlie, olive / oliver / oli, crypt, grim

pronouns: end/ender, end/ends, love/loves, red/reds, green/greens, heart/hearts, kind/kinds, trance/trances, walk/walks, peace/peaceful or peace/peaces, dual/duality, purple/purples, pur/purple, boo/boos, book/books, page/pages, particle/particles, eye/eyes, glow/glows, tape/tapes

age: ageless, appears as young adult

role: protector, emotional regulator, insomnia holder, dissociation holder, anxiety holder, conflict resolver, caretaker

genders: genderfluid, nonbinary, enderwalkic, cryptidcatgender, liminalic, vimemorin, reidrovex, lostpoeic, panicgender, endposgender, lossgender, endrian

orientation: asexual panromantic

species: half enderman, enderwalker, cryptid

personality overview: loving / caring towards friends, can be assertive when needed and usually in the defense of close people, likes to talk things out whenever possible and resolve conflict, protective of anyone considered close, forgiving, honest, wants to help others, forgetful at times, i could also see this alter taking up poetry / writing as a hobby :)

notable traits: insomniac, hard time making eye contact, dislikes being in water, verbal stims when stressed, likes to fidget with random objects and potentially collect things, loves animals... maybe has innerworld pet?

general aesthetic: softer, black and white, glitchcore maybe? or darker cottagecore / dark nature

add ons: ranboo introject

I HOPE ITS OKAY! sorry it took a bit, i was doing like actual research LMAOO

hey guys, ive been trying to look for information on NPD and ASPD comorbidity but the only things i can find online are ableist "narc abuse" articles LMFAO...

i am questioning if i may have comorbid NPD and ASPD, but im not entirely sure how this comorbidity might look... so i figured id ask and see if anyone with the comorbidity could explain

made a meme for anyone else out there who gets stuck in the "it wasnt that bad!" or "maybe im not traumatized!" loops because trauma denial sucks ass!!! you all are valid!!!

romeo is crazy as a guy’s name bcuz it’s famously one of the most well known love stories between a man and a woman in history but if i were to meet a dude named romeo id probably assume he’s gay

it bothers me so much when "mental health advocates" are only supportive of the "acceptable" symptoms and disorders...

people who "advocate" for depression but call others disgusting for having trouble showering, or people who "advocate" for trauma survivors but say you shouldnt express your trauma in art or talk about it because its "triggering"...

people who "advocate" for BPD but demonize NPD and ASPD as if they arent in the same cluster...

people "support mental health" until it isnt relatable. people "support mental health" until it cant be romanticized. people "support mental health" until symptoms disrupt life. people "support mental health" until symptoms are noticeable and not easily hidden.

you are not an advocate if you do not advocate for us all. you cannot be a mental health advocate while also talking badly about people with personality disorders, including ASPD and NPD. you cannot be a mental health advocate if you make fun of autistic people who are visibly autistic. you cannot be a mental health advocate if you call the police on someone with psychosis for talking to themselves in public.

if your entire "advocacy" revolves around demonizing more "severe" symptoms or disorders, and romanticizing the "good" and "relatable" symptoms or disorders, you are not an ally. you are feeding into stereotypes.

i have ASPD and NPD. the amount of hate i see in "advocate" spaces is honestly shocking. if your entire advocacy revolves around "helping depressed autistics escape evil narcissists!!!!", you are not an advocate, you are ableist.

people with stigmatized disorders or symptoms should not have to water down the way they experience life and describe their personal symptoms and experiences just to avoid being called bad people. by demonizing some disorders while romanticizing others under the guise of "advocacy", you are spreading misinformation and reinforcing stereotypes. you are worsening the stigma for people who already struggle. you are harming everyone with struggles, because a lot of society does not see a difference of "good" vs "bad" mental illness. to ableist neurotypicals, we are all bad.

you hurt the entire community by excluding your own.

you advocate for all of us, or you help none of us.

plural lawyer call that a justice system

Bro doesn’t even know I’m a we