It Makes Me Kind Of Sad To See How Many People Online Make Fun Of Autism Depictions In Media... Even

✶ ﹒ intro.

eight. 19 years old.

any pronouns. genderless.

mixed indigenous. disabled.

DID system. OEA survivor.

ASPD. NPD. schizospec.

blog will contain triggering content including posts relating to / showing weapons, posts about mental illness, posts about trauma, and more.

i plan to get started making NPT and BAH posts! might also coin xenogenders eventually, you can send requests in if you want, i may decline if i feel uncomfortable for whatever reason.

below is my tagging system and NPT + BAH request rules!

✶ ﹒ requests.

i will do any themes requested unless i find them too difficult for whatever reason, or feel uncomfortable with the theme.

my npts will include names, pronouns, and genders. i can add titles if requested but i am not too good at them! i can also include system names if requested.

all bah posts will come with some basic information, and any additional information can be requested with add-ons!

a basic bah will include names, pronouns, age, role, gender, orientation, and species. it will also include a personality overview, as well as any noteworthy traits or features, and a general aesthetic or style description.

add-ons include faceclaim, typing quirk, sign offs, image aesthetic / moodboard, music taste, source, kins, and anything else requested! please specify if you would like any of these included in your ask.

bah template will look something like this...

names:

pronouns:

age:

role:

genders:

orientation:

species:

personality overview:

notable traits:

general aesthetic:

add ons:

✶ ﹒ tagging.

system tag — ✶ ﹒ sys.

trauma tag — ✶ ﹒ trauma.

aesthetic tag — ✶ ﹒ aesthetic.

vent / rant tag — ✶ ﹒ vent.

music tag — ✶ ﹒ music.

media tag — ✶ ﹒ media.

disability tag — ✶ ﹒ disability.

mental illness tag — ✶ ﹒ mental.

coining tag — ✶ ﹒ coining.

bah tag — ✶ ﹒ bah.

npt tag — ✶ ﹒ npt.

witchy tag — ✶ ﹒ witchy.

misc tag — ✶ ﹒ misc.

reblog tag — ✶ ﹒ reblog.

asks tag — ✶ ﹒ asks.

TW // RAMCOA brief talk //

Hello! I apologize for popping in like this, i know its a heavy topic. I know what RAMCOA is, and i was wondering if it was okay to send in questions ( i can do it off anon if it helps you feel comfortable, just lmk if you prefer another ask, dms or comments /gen ) because i heavily wonder if i am a RAMCOA system.

Well partially at this point. I know it'll have heavy discussions, so i do truthfully understand if you wouldn't feel comfortable talking about it. If it helps i don't plan to ask anything personal, just general questions. If you know someone else who would be willing to answer or if a commenter wants to help i would appreciate anything, i am desperate. /lh

yes that is fine! i am not really comfortable saying for certain if you have / havent experienced RAMCOA... but i am a RAMCOA survivor myself and i am always happy to help others and discuss experiences! feel free to DM me, ill answer questions as well as i can :)

dear professor i cant seem to lock in. its so over

not endo myself but these questions are cool and i want to talk about my system so weeeee here we go

🦴 - thatss a good question honestly... as far back as i remember? i know i discovered DID by watching some youtube videos at like 11 and relating to them, but didnt think much more of it until my diagnosis at 15

🪽 - around the time of my diagnosis, i realized i couldnt ignore it anymore, so instead decided to learn to function together

🪐 - uhhh i believe luci? or maybe lexa... luci is one of our gatekeepers, and lexa is the primary protector. they were the most active in communication when we first discovered the DID

🔭 - roughlyy around the time of first discovery?? we had a list of names in notes app, we later swapped to simplyplural around the time of diagnosis (it had just been released, i think?)

🕸️ - nonee, we dont intentionally create alters, but we do have TBMC trauma if that counts ?? like yes they were created kind of on purpose but not by us lol

🫀 - we do! i honestly dont know if any of it is intentionally built or not but uhh it is pretty large and only some of us can access it

🌙 - wedont create alters, but our new splits like looking at ID packs and stuff! we dont use bah blogs though hinestly im not sure what those are

🦇 - gonna use "created" to mean split here, we recently did split but the new split doesnt have a solid identity yet

🍂 - ithinkk ᏩᏯ was the first host?? at least to my knowledge

🌿 - usually ID packs or just searching around, sometimes we ask friends for suggestions

🐚 - none of us really? unless you count kylo, he types like a myspace teenager lol so "to" = 2 and "for" = 4 sometimes, and many "xD" "lolz" and similar. he only types like that sometimes though

🪶 - yes! some of us have accents we picked up from media or people we grew up around

🪦 - a former therapist, i think? we would occasionally join system discord servers before that point, though

🕸️ - i usuallyyy dont, i generally only tell people i consider very close! for general strangers or not close friends, ijust say i have a disorder that impacts my memory, since thats the most noticeable symptom i have... for close people though i generally just tell them that i have a DID diagnosis, most people have been very understanding

🕷️ - not reallyy?? unless you count alters cutting off people lol, but generally anyone we have told has been understanding :)

🔪 - yes! my 3 closest friends all know (one is also a system), as well as my boyfriend (he is plural as well, i remember when i first told him his reaction was "oh my god... me too" it was really funny since i had been genuinely nervous to tell him LOL)

plurality ask game !

targeted to endos , but anyone can use ! post made by an endo :)

— start .

🦴 : when did you first start feeling plural ?

🪽 : when did you finally accept your plurality ?

🪐 : who was the first alter your system found that wasn't the host ?

🔭 : when did you start keeping track of your alters ?

— creation .

🕸️ : how many of your headmates are created ?

🫀 : do you have a headspace ? if so , how much was built ?

🌙 : do you use bah blogs to help create alters ?

🦇 : who's your most recently created alter ?

— general .

🍂 : who was your first host ?

🌿 : how do you find the names of your alters ?

🐚 : how many of you have typing quirks ?

🪶 : do any of you have an accent ?

— friends .

🪦 : who was the first person to know about your plurality ?

🕸 : how do you tell new people about your plurality ?

🕷 : have you lost friends over your plurality ?

🔪 : are you out to people irl with your plurality ?

Here’s my metaphor for systemhood that I tell my singlet friends.

Imagine you’re playing a first person video game. You have the controller, you control your character. It’s a normal first person game. You are an alter, the character is the body. This is fronting.

Other people live with you. Sometimes, they come into the room and sit and watch while you play. They sometimes try to guide you, give you advice on what to do next. They don’t always agree, and they can argue with each other. Other times they scream at you that you’re doing everything wrong and you suck at this game. This is co-consciousness.

Imagine how distracting it would be for people around you to tell you what to do, or to scream at each other or at you, even if they have good intentions. It wouldn’t be easy to focus on your game, would it?

Then sometimes, something happens in the game that prompts you to hand off the controller to someone else so they can play and you get a break. This is (some types of) switching. This can be good.

Other times, someone rips the controller out of your hand or fights you for it. This is (other types of) switching. And sometimes, six other players hook up their controllers, but there’s only one character to play as. So all of you have your controllers, but you’re all trying to play the same character. This is cofronting.

Imagine how difficult that would be. Imagine how hard it would be to try and play a game while someone is trying to take the controller from you, or while six other people are trying to play too.

There are also times that nobody is playing, or you can’t decide who should play. What’s happening to the character in the game? What are they doing if no one is playing? This is dissociation. The character is doing nothing. They’re stuck.

This is the best metaphor I have come up with for being a system. It’s something a lot of people get because they’ve played games before.

new favorite kind of guy

schizophrenic horror fans are gods strongest soldiers

happy autism awareness day to all the girls who had “ friends” growing up who were actually bullying them . to the girls who always sat alone in the grass and wondered why nobody wanted to talk . to the girls who spoke to animals like they were listening . to the girls who created a little world in their room . to the girls who always felt ashamed for how deeply they love things and how passionately they enjoyed media . to the girls who covered their ears when they were overwhelmed by everything . to the girls who carrying a special thing around to feel safe . to the girls who never understood what they did wrong to feel so lonely . to the girls who were diagnosed later in life because they weren’t little boys who liked trains. you are so special and beautiful and you’re not worse for it, you love deeply and that is so wonderful please never try to push that down . I LOVE YOU !!!!!

Being a system is so weird like my mummy and daddy didn't like me so now I'm sans the skeleton

saying "who said that" at the end of a sentence is a lot funnier when you're plural. who DID say that