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【XIV】 TRIGGER FINGER

a criminal, red-themed docs. this is, unfortunately, NOT MOBILE FRIENDLY as it uses drawings and has many images in all the odd places. it includes four pages that are rather vague as to what it is for you can write almost anything in this.

do not get rid of credits — if you don't know how to edit already: file > make a copy — after copying, go to share > settings (top right icon) > uncheck "viewers and commenters can see the option to…" — to replace images: right-click image > replace image — to replace images in drawings: right-click drawing/double tag drawing > right click image > replace image — dm me if you have any questions

This is what happens everytime we open the book

I'm sorry it's just so fun lolol

just one psychotic episode will change your life, forever. it'll alter your self perception beyond recognition. you'll remember who you were before, back when you were (relatively) sane, always been sane, and you won't recognize her anymore. she'll feel more like a sister. you're still the same, you are--but you aren't. you're different, you know you are. You're different in ways you cannot articulate, in ways your loved ones cannot truly grasp. you've experienced something most people believe is impossible to experience. likely because it is. it was something impossible, grand, and terrifying. the most scared you've ever felt in your life. God looked down on you and laughed, and finally, finally you know what it feels like to be that small and vulnerable. you can't go back to before, when you were naive, ignorant to your size. but it's okay. you're okay, now. it's over and you're safe. and you've always been safe, really, it wasn't real, but the trauma is. the trauma is real and it's lasting.

and it's not real. and you know it's not real. but sometimes you get scared again. so, so, so scared, because it was traumatizing and now you're left with flashbacks to a time when the world didn't make sense, when you weren't yourself, when you were small and confused and lost and could not understand yourself let alone be understood--and it feels real again. but you don't believe it, not really, you know you don't. you know it's not real. it's not psychosis round 2, but you're still so so scared--scared that you're wrong, that it is real, scared that you'll go back there--that you'll lose the sanity you grappled for. fought for. but you don't. not yet, at least. the flashback passes, same as any other flashback. but the fear lingers. you'll fear losing control like that for the rest of your life. years of sanity, remission, and you're still afraid, because you know what that felt like and it was scary. it's weird to believe again, when you don't really believe, it's weird to relive unreality while knowing you're within reality. you can feel your sanity, you know it's there, because it's saying "this isn't real and we know it's not real. we know this. but I am so so so scared anyway. I am so scared of experiencing it again. I am so scared that I was right and now I'm wrong."

psychosis is traumatic and trauma leaves you with flashbacks. and sometimes it feels like you're there again. like you've slipped away again. and it's scary. but you'll be back, I know you will, because I'm back, I'm okay, and you are too. I love you. I love all of you. love yourselves for me.

self-care advice: need vs. deserve

This isn’t my original idea, I think I first saw it on twitter. But self-care really has become easier ever since I started thinking of things in terms of what I deserve to have/feel vs. what I need to do

I need to shower/brush my teeth —> I deserve to have good hygiene & I deserve to feel clean and fresh

I need to clean my house —> I deserve to live in a clean home & I deserve to feel like my environment is habitable

I need to exercise —> I deserve to have a healthy body & I deserve to feel healthy and strong in my own body

I need to get more sleep —> I deserve to have a healthy sleep schedule & I deserve to feel refreshed and energized when I wake up

I need to eat better —> I deserve to have a balanced diet & I deserve to feel well-fed and nourished

I need to be more positive —> I deserve to have a positive mindset & I deserve to feel happy and uplifted

I need to be mentally stable —> I deserve to have a good mental well-being & I deserve to feel mental clarity, happiness, and stability

Etc.

a guide to hearing voices

(Note: this information was given to me by my therapist and is not my original writing. The information provided in this post comes from the UK based mental health charity known as Mind, and is paraphrased by me.)

What are voices?

A hallucination is a perception you may have that is not shared by those around you. Hearing voices is a type of auditory hallucination where you hear voices when no one is present, or that other people cannot hear. Some examples of voices you may hear include:

Hearing your name called when no one is around.

Hearing things as you fall asleep.

Feel as though you can hear other people’s thoughts.

Threatening voices that tell you to do dangerous things.

Friendly voices that encourage or support you.

Multiple voices arguing or talking with one another.

There are many reasons why you might hear voices. Some reasons include lack of sleep, hunger, physical illness, being under the influence of drugs, grief, abuse/bullying, physical illness, trauma, spiritual experiences, or mental health problems such as psychosis.

How can I help myself cope?

Understanding your voices and how they relate to your past may help you feel more in control, recognize when voices cause problems, stand up to your voice, or develop a better relationship with your voices so they don’t interfere with your life.

Some questions to help you think about how your voices relate to you are:

What was happening when I first heard voices?

Where was I and how was I feeling?

What did the voice say?

What did they sound like?

Do they represent a person or a problem?

Are there any patterns to the voices?

What do the voices want me to do?

What do I want to do?

It may be helpful to keep a diary and record when you hear voices or what they say. This can help you identify patterns and understand how they affect you over a period of time.

Here are some suggestions to help you feel more in control of your voices:

Ignore them, block them out, or distract yourself.

Give them times when you agree to talk to them and times when you won’t.

Tell them to wait.

Stand up to them, ignore their commands and threats. They have no power over you.

Try to ignore the voices you don’t like, and focus on the ones you find easier to listen to.

Use grounding techniques, like taking note of the things you see, hear, smell, etc.

The recovery approach

This helps reframe the way we see recovery. The main principles of the recovery approach are:

Live the best life you can have the you can with your experiences and the consequences they’ve had.

Focusing on what you can do, not what you can’t.

Making your own choices and being your own person.

Seeing recovery as a journey, not a destination.

Seeing setbacks as ways of learning more about yourself.

Maintaining hope.

How other people can help

If someone you care about hears voices, you might find it hard to understand what they are experiencing. But there are many things you can do to help support them.

Accept that their experiences of voices are real, even if you don’t understand it.

Try not to make judgements about what hearing voices means for them.

Learn their triggers.

Remember that they are still the same person you’ve always known. Hearing voices doesn’t change who they are.

Ask them what would help, and avoid making assumptions.

Reassure them that they are not alone. There are lots of reasons why people hear voices.

Encourage them to talk about their experience. To you, to a doctor, or to a support group.

Learn more about the experience of hearing voices and fight the stigma.

Help them seek treatment and support, if they want it.

ten ways I cope with psychosis

Grounding techniques — Make use of the five senses: Listen to your favorite song. Run your hands under cold water. Taste your favorite snack. Smell your favorite candle. Look at beautiful artwork. Be mindful about the sensations you feel while engaging in these activities.

Listening to music — My go-to way to deal with auditory hallucinations. I recommend listening to instrumental music, if you are prone to ideas of reference.

Creating art — A good creative outlet takes the focus away from my psychosis and towards whatever it is I’m creating. Plus I can make something that symbolizes how I feel while psychotic.

Taking a walk — This can be hard to do if I’m psychotic, as the paranoia makes me think people outside are watching or following me. So what I like to do is pace the hallway in my house. It helps me keep my mind off things.

Journaling — Writing out what I’m feeling can be an immense relief, especially when I’m experiencing delusions. Also I can also look back at these thoughts and reflect on them.

Identifying triggers — Discovering what makes you psychotic can help to prevent future episodes. (Be mindful about who you share this info with as others could use it against you.)

Breathing exercises — When I’m psychotic my stress and anxiety levels ramp up. Just one minute of deep, steady breathing helps to keep those levels under control.

Spend time with pets — Pets don’t judge you for being psychotic. They’re perfect for snuggles, and running your hands through their fur reduces stress and anxiety, and makes for a good grounding exercise.

Asking for reality checks — Sometimes I have trouble telling what’s real and what’s not. When in doubt, asking a trusted person for a reality check can be very helpful in dispelling delusions or paranoia. If you’re alone, recording with your phone can help to verify if you’re hallucinating.

Finding a community online — One if the worst parts of psychosis is feeling like you’re completely alone in this. But you’re not. I found communities of psychotic people on Tumblr, Reddit, Youtube, and more. I find that being around people like me helps me feel less alone in my mental health journey.

Cryptidcore Starterpack

Anything vintage, old Polaroid Cameras, newspapers, old photos, cds and tapes, iykyk

Keeping a book of your research, with sketches, notes, details, newspaper arrivals pasted in the book is just-

Okay- lock picking??? Like- it’s such a specific hobby but it GIVES

BROOO- FLANNELS???? Like- Especially orange or brown flannels. It’s so basic but on brand

A denim jacket or bag with Cryptid patches are simple but nice

Having books on paranormal research, folklore, mushrooms, amphibians, ANYTHING about mystery solving, etc. will do

Cavetown, Mother Mother, Penelope Scott, Nirvana, are good for cryptidcore

Knitted/crocheted sweaters and socks okay-

Being interesting in coins, gardening, mushrooms, amphibians, 90’s tech, drawing, any nature based interest is also great for starting

Cuffed jeans, band t shirts, converse,

I cannot stress this enough… GET👏MORE👏INFORMATION👏ABOUT👏YOUR👏LOCAL👏CRYPTIDS👏

Cryptidcore Starterpack: The Guide

Notes: I'm gonna be leaning into Cryptozoology with this one, just a heads up :)

Enjoy part two!

I cannot stress this enough, GO OUTSIDE. How are you gonna track cryptids if you don't actively look for them?

Get a binder so you can add pages to your research journal

KEEP TRACK OF LOCAL EVENTS. Cryptid sightings, paranormal sightings, local mysteries, ect.

Find a hagstone near a body of water, it's a stone with a natural hole through it. In Celtic folklore, when you look though the hagstone(also known as a witchstone), you can see fae folk and other worldly entities. (I did not write all the info here, please do research for yourself if you'd like to)

Explore abandoned places and look for clues. Also in forests, but be safe about it.

Also- just going on a flat roof and making blanket forts with the FLUFFIEST blankets with a lantern is just- 🤌🤌

Moths.

Finds some books on this, "The United States of Cryptids- J.W. Ocker", "Cryptozoology A to Z- Loren Coleman" and "Cursed Objects- J.W. Ocker" are some good ones

Maybe find some friends who are into Cryptidcore too

But remember,

Most weird shit happens in Ohio

Update: Please check out my most recent post it's very important

✬ wacky cryptidcore-ish stuff i do/watch !! ✬

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•im chronically outside, in the woods searching for stuff, even if ive been there a hundred times something could be there, istg:(

•spending every night watching youtube breakdowns of cryptids, sam n colby, and other ghosthunting crap !!

•i watch horrific amounts of gravity falls, paranormal activity, fear, ghosthunters, scooby doo and random creepy indie movies :]

•spend all my time listening to folkpunk, expecially ajj and tfb !!

•read lots of old books on local ghosts and cryptids in my town:)

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teehee plzz check out my lil cryptidcore playlists, theyre what i jam to while ghosthunting, ect.

Welcome to The Society of The Exploratory

What do we do here?

We explore. We discover things. Mysteries, anomalies, new things, old things, anywhere and everywhere.

What are we looking for?

Everything. (But especially rocks. We love rocks. So shiny.. so so very good. All of our many many eyes searching for good rocks.)

Who can join?

Anyone. One condition, you have to be up for adventure. Whether you explore in wooded forests, concrete tunnels or the liminal sidewalks of suburbia, we want you to join us.

(Actually we have one more condition. You need to find rocks. We love rocks, and we want you to love rocks as much as we do. Collect them, store them, sort them, observe them, make sure they don't move too much on their own.)

How can you join?

Technically, you're already in it. But we don't know that.

We need members. Our advisors say that we can find them here. We have found you here. Join us. Join the society.

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