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Playing a variant of Azure (known by Luna's nickname for her, Little Star) in a Pathfinder campaign as an awakened animal. So here's her but as a much more normal talking horse.

Chroma Shell! Changeling Queenling and first bug-horse student at Azzy's school, recruited after helping take down her mom. She adores Romance novels and Manga, and has already started to help with shipping students with each other. She'll be a true Skittlebug before she knows it

My brain's wandering around some contrived Meta level plot or other around my poor Azure Star and why they are probably fundamentally incapable of fitting into the wider Multiverse (including broader Fandom) because of what they are rather than who, and discovering that their entire "multiversal presence" is limited to like… a handful of variants of herself always in universes that have something kind of fundamentally wrong with them, at least compared to the "ideal" (IE Original) universe she discovers exists out there.

Just considering how it'd feel to find out you're just so fundamentally "weird" and "wrong" because of your origins that you've effectively been branded an outcast from all "proper" realities that exist and pushed out to only show up in the dregs, and what that must do to your self esteem

I missed Monday because of Stress. Have Night Crawler as compensation.

Celie is getting closer to a heart attack every day the games go on. Azure's powers of persuasion continue to evolve to the borderline supernatural. It's probably not a great look to pass out on the roof of a hotel with your mentor, but she's been causing controversy the entire week, why stop now?

Azure finally dispelled the Nightmare, and while the question of where it's gone now is a problem of its own, it does mean she can just... hang out with Luna in dreams now, without fear of the spirit trying to push her away.

Almost missed today catching up on College work. Have Sky Writer, another classmate and my partner @sol-red-rose's OC for their Birthday

Starfield! 3/7 mysterious special horses done.

Are you sure? She seems normal to me

You know what? It's my Tumblr I can do what I want with it. But truth be told I don't even know where to start! Contextually there's so much about this to explain it's kind of hard, so this will end up more a stream of consciousness than an organized post, but so be it.

First is the basic premise that this character and much of the art I've done surrounding them is derived from a sort of collaborative writing with my partner, a project that I'm working to fanfic-ify slowly in the background. Obligatory warning that there's some inappropriate relationship dynamics going to be mentioned here. First of which is the dreaded Canon x OC. I joke, I joke, but that's unpopular with some people. The OC in question is Azure Star! Failed Alicorn clone made by some supervillains, technically inbred little disaster, and student at a school designed to fix the problems of a dysfunctional but not entirely hopeless AU Equestria. The canon is the local variant of Twilight Sparkle, who is generally a much less... functional person.

I'll start listing all the ways this horrible ship - which isn't in any way official in-universe at this moment but is set in motion with a horrific inevitability - is something that by all means should not have been pursued but was chosen to be anyways, in no particular order

Twilight is her instructor at the impromptu school to train up diplomats and "heroes". She's not substantially older than Azure, only a few years, but there's still a strange imbalance of power that would make it inappropriate from a modern context, even if nobody cares in the near-feudal society they live in.

Azure was adopted by one of her Biological "parents"/genetic donors (Celestia) after they figured out what she was. This wouldn't be so bad in theory if Celie hadn't used her student as an emotional surrogate daughter to deal with the stress of losing Sunset, who in this universe was all but adopted in everything but paperwork and titles. Being unhealthily emotionally involved in the life of a student that actually still has living, loving parents is definitely on her, but it does leave her mentally screaming while watching her unhealthily attached student get flirted with by her new new kid.

The entire previous point is made more complicated by the fact that, due to AU shenanigans, Twilight never left or made friends, despite the timeline being slightly advanced. She still managed to ascend despite this, through a yet to be uncovered means. This made her unhealthy attachment far worse as it effectively gave her an excuse to stick around the palace indefinitely even well after her mentor realized the mistakes of letting her get so dependent and tried to start pushing her out on her own. This has left her with a general lack of experience with friendships in general, let alone anything more than that.

Azure is already in a committed polyamorous relationship, and basically admitted to flirting with someone else in front of her current partners devoid of shame. Not an open relationship mind you, but one they agreed after that was more democratic and universally inclusive - meaning Azure is effectively tasked with not just the task of seducing an instructor who doesn't care much for socialization in general, but somehow convincing her that her girlfriends are great too and she should join their bizarre coven.

It's worth noting that while the world overall is more friendly to this "herding" behavior and more varied orientations overall, Canterlot, the place they actually live, is one of the more staunchly conservative medieval societies that does not exactly approve of such things, especially from its royalty

Despite this all, they actually have become friends and have enough genuine chemistry that it could theoretically work out, assuming that all the above is addressed. Despite the awkwardness Azure's bluntness has led to her feelings being an open secret, and admitting to flirting wasn't totally rebuffed but softly pushed away with a reminder that they haven't known each other that long and that she'd like to get to know her better before even thinking of anything past being friends. But wait? That's all very weird and maybe problematic, but it's not exactly Toxic, is it? Well that was all the status quo until one vital change, one crucial moment. See Azure had been working on ripping the Nightmare Spirit off of Luna (who is still, presently, in the moon due to the timeline of that whole event shifting slightly) before she even came back, ever since she found out it was a separate entity at all. And despite the odds - she succeeded. Unfortunately, the means used meant she was the perfect living bridge for it to get out of the moon and back into the world, and while she was able to resist and prevent it from sticking with her, it was let loose into the palace and the Royals present failed to capture it before it faded into shadows.

Azure does not know where it went. But I do. Of all the royals present there was a chance for any of them to be vulnerable, but Twilight was the one who failed to resist it completely, who only merely thought they repelled its mental invasion. And that has led to a strange present and a tumultuous future. For while the spirit hasn't been able to take control and cause a total transformation yet, it is able to amplify negative emotions in its unwitting host, and feed off of them to recoup its power.

Since it has taken root poor Twilight has been pushed to the brink of a meltdown with continuous feelings of Insecurity - rooted in issues that existed beforehand. Yet despite this she has grown more friendly, even openly affectionate in a mostly platonic way, with her confused but perhaps too happy to question it student. All because of a toxic feedback loop.

Twilight had confided a great deal of insecurity to her student already. Despite being an Alicorn she didn't feel she really had a clear role or purpose to serve in life, and felt aimless. At the same rate she is boxed in by the expectations of royalty - there are certain things she can and cannot do now, different ways that others treat her, and responsibilities she didn't exactly want to deal with. And while she actually found herself wanting friends and socialization sometimes, she has never been exceptionally good at understanding it.

Azure however has done nothing but fail upward and seemingly succeed at everything she has set out to do since showing up. Helping others on missions, easily making friends, pursuing the political side of being royalty as soon as she had gained it, getting some of Celestia's precious time all to herself, and even pursuing relationships that most would only speak of in whispers with a cavalier openness and fearlessness.

While much of this is admired it's clear that there's also a layer of envy in those feelings. Azure to her side of things is also not entirely honest - she more than admires her mentor as a personal idol and hero, but sees something else in them that hasn't been spoken - a guarantee for the future. While she is still, in her own eyes, an "unfinished" Alicorn Azure intends to and is actively training to rectify that so her parent's don't have to outlive her, but she is acutely aware of the consequences. Beneath her positive demeanor is a deeply traumatized and codependent personality - nothing is so horrifying to her as being alone. Given that she's the only current Immortal within so many years of her that isn't already related to her somehow, Azure doesn't have much choice but to pursue her if she wants to find someone who can truly understand her that she can keep Forever without fear of losing some day. She would do literally anything to somehow secure her eternal affection.

Together these two facts make the foundation of the Nightmare spirit's perfectly toxic natural habitat. By just boosting and loosening up on negative feelings in the right moment it can stick them in a loop of horrible codependency and insecurity that it can feed on, directly or by proxy, pretty much indefinitely. Twilight will never be allowed to feel fully secure in herself in Azure's presence, always comparing herself negatively, a trait that will only be magnified over time as Azure no doubt continues to succeed while she runs in place, getting stronger but never finding something meaningful to do with it. Brief moments of lessened pain together will encourage them to stay close, but only so that the shadow cast is that much bigger. Azure's sheer obsessive willingness to please will be exploited as Twilight's hunger for knowledge and the power to be meaningful is pushed until they're both hard at work to find ways to make her stronger (and a stronger host later) no matter what ethical lines are blurred or crossed. Azure's optimism is kept at bay with always being led on with teases of approval to keep her around and subservient, but never so much as to become confident, leaving her forever hungry and trying to prove herself as "good enough", and turning one of the few threats to the spirit in the future into a dependent lackey that will be unable to stop them when the time finally comes.

For the spirit, this cycle is nothing but a victory. Finally that silly abstract idea of "love" is not a weakness, but a poison to be wielded like a weapon until two of its greatest threats have been reduced into nothing but puppets. And while the conclusion has yet to be written... I can only be certain the climax of this strained loop will be painful for more than just them.

Driving myself mad with recent developments in my silly collaborative Pony story that I long to ramble about. I'm not even building up towards Toxic Yuri at this rate, this is going to be nuclear accident that scars the planet for centuries to come Yuri by the end of it. I'm ready to infodump about my gay little tire fire for hours at any who'd listen.

Driving myself mad with recent developments in my silly collaborative Pony story that I long to ramble about. I'm not even building up towards Toxic Yuri at this rate, this is going to be nuclear accident that scars the planet for centuries to come Yuri by the end of it. I'm ready to infodump about my gay little tire fire for hours at any who'd listen.

Bright Blaze - she'd be the most arrogant, self-righteous, stubborn, insufferable know-it-all Canterlot had ever seen if she wasn't just like her mothers. May she pay them back 10-fold what they did to their own parents.

More potential future stuff like Forest from 2 weeks ago. Look forward to more...

Victory For Cackle Crane! Local teen mom witch achieving her goals, seduced the not-so-innocent.

...or are they her "patron"'s goals? There's something wrong about that horse's mark....

Twilight Forest! Not a currently existing horse, more a... potential future ship child. One of several that have already been planned. What's a fire emblem inspired adventure without S Rank children rewards?

And yes the name may partially be a Minecraft mod reference, sue me

I cannot even begin to contain the hours of rambles I could share of how complicated the Royal family has gotten in my writings in the span of a month. Sunset hasn't even been properly adopted (yet) and already Celestia's up 2.5 children, with an in-law situation that will only get more absurd as

time goes on. And yes the prep-goth balance is kept immaculately.

Ah the dichotomy of the Celestia family... The preps and the goths

I've tried so hard working on a silly thing with my SO to make something unrecognizable to that silly, uninspired school. Houses? Yeah they have them because the idea is rooted in real practices but they're undermined almost immediately and became totally irrelevant to any story beats. Magic system? Explored by a protagonist who's actually curious about how it works. Why would you not also be teaching classes like math and literature just because magic is part of the curriculum? Why should you have death-traps and bury ancient valuables in a place of learning?

Also it allows trans students so, you know, incompatible with that work on principle

if you are a millennial in the medium of storytelling and you are making a magical school setting, there is going to be a little worm in your brain that is telling you take make harry potter references. what you need to do is gently coax that worm out with treats and then smash it to death with a hammer and do literally anything else.

The Equestria Games have begun, but the new "Princess Star" is playing a much more dangerous game of her own. Not even Apollopolis interrupting and showing off their fancy death ray could break her poise - she just saw it as a chance to take control of the situation and impress someone else.

Of course she could have killed everyone here in the process if she ticked him off too much, but she's much too crazed by hormones to respond to fear rationally...

idk what this is i just wanted to give yu guys something rq before school consumes me againnnn and i cant just do nothing and pass anyway like ive always done the past few years, its getting serious now </3 Please bring me back to kindergarten. i cant do this. why cant i have "i love studying and math" autism instead of mlp autism.

On Second Thought

I really like teasing out bits of my silly horse AU but watching people actually analyze things about the original show (and spinoffs) has sort of reminded me to know my audience. Tumblr is ultimately a largely clean place now, and I can only be so weird on main.

I think I'll keep it to the basic level of little lore teases I've done so far but full Ask-Blog plans for the future are better spun off into its own blog so I can have a warning about the... weird, uncomfortable, and frankly problematic parts of their universe that would probably alienate those that aren't as immersed in it.

This place will at least host a safer, more sanitized version of events played out through art until I find a better way to put the whole ugly story out there. Just hope I don't lose anyone in the process.

I noticed a reference image for an unrelated D&D campaign had MACHINE ART that slipped through last session unaddressed. so I scrambled to replace it with a cruder but human-made facsimile

I'm doing my part to fight the robot war

Azure's mane looks good from approximately one side. The other is... complicated

Apple Swimming event at the Summer Harvest Parade & Fair!

Azure and Cog tried their best, Dusk went full Jaws and stole apples from under others, Golden Feather flagrantly cheated by creating new Apples from nothing, Night stayed out of the sun, Litter got dragged away by her own confused dogs, and Vitae had a nice conversation with that sweet little filly they rescued from the Chessmaster's schemes the other day!

Nobody even knew Crown was also there until after the fact.

I didn't miss a week, this just took longer than normal to finish. I'm not used to big ensemble pieces.

Autistic headcanons: Fluttershy (My Little Pony)

“Sometimes we all just need to be shown a little kindness.”

I think Opaline was kinda supposed to come across as a pathetic villain to be honest.

She really acts like a washed-up celebrity that still walks around like they're hot shit, unable to accept that their peak is far behind them.

Cool, you successfully divided all races in Equestria and forced Twilight to vanquish all magic to stop you, all for what? Nothing.

No one knows who the hell you are anymore and your magic is near obsolete.

You have so little magic that you can barely pick up stuff with your horn without issue. Which is just fucking embarrassing.. you're an alicorn about the same age as Celestia and without dragon fire your magical abilities can be outdone by a common unicorn.

Fucking wow, bitch.

And deepdown she knows it too. I saw that little hesitant look on her face when Misty told her off; saying she felt bad for her.

Opaline's barely a villain. She's just a lonely, bitter, angry, old mare that takes her feelings of ineptitude out on those that are weaker than she is.

As soon as her power was taken away it threw her into a tizzy and she chased it to her demise. Because without it she's nothing and she knew it.

That's why she was so confused about how Sunny could be happy without being in her alicorn form all the time. Because that's how much worth she sees in those without power.

Including herself.

Part one of four (in theory) of a thing inspired by @zoeyhorse 's big eyed style and silly humor. Honestly not 100% confident of how things came out so apologies if it's a poor showing of the style.

Manually drawing text on a touchpad is awful, honestly I know I should make proper fancy reference sheets for all the students, funfacts and all, but these will at least get them all out there in some capacity. At least enough to maybe inspire an ask or two!

Nightmare Star. No not that one.

Despite all the art otherwise here, Azure Star is (at the time of this post) still canonically a Unicorn, albeit one working diligently to change that. The only solid visions of possible futures where she's ever actually seen that she really could become one for certain are actually of timelines where she fails to save Luna and instead takes her place by Nightmare Moon's side upon her return. But that's not the only way for her to do it, right?

Fanfiction?

I’ve been considering adapting the text-based RPG adventure I’ve been doing with my partner where Azure and the other horses I've drawn here into a proper "fanfiction" for a while, complete with cleaning things up for consistency and snazzing up the language a bit.

But there’s still a few things I don’t really know for certain. Would it be better to keep the script-style dialogue tags and lean into that as a format, or do I need to put in the hours to adapt it to more literary “he said, she exclaimed”?

Would it be better to be honest and include uncomfortable and not entirely safe for work implications in it from the outset, or should those bits be separated as optional content in side stories?

I suppose I’m really just looking for advice on how to get the full story out there without alienating the few people that might be following along with it already.

Even if it's hard to see or feel progress in the day to do day, the longer it goes the easier it becomes to look back and see how much things have changed.

I'd like to make a point that *specifically* because of your cute art of them, (Horse) Celestia accepting she should have done it long ago and adopting Sunset after she is dragged (kicking and screaming if need be) back to the proper universe by her would-be-sibling has become something of an "inevitable future plot point" in my silly little Trauma Horse Adventure AU.

MOM FIGHTS

is there a possibility that you are a horse

There is a very strong possibility! I have, however, heard unsubstantiated rumors about ponies supposedly being "basically cats". I would like to put these rumors to bed with the attached proof!