Negative Affirmations

We mostly joke around on this blog but can someone unironically mail me prescription amphetamines

(so mad i can’t see straight) Yeah i just don’t think chat gpt is a good classroom tool

I am splitting so hard that I'd happily kill the person I am splitting on 💕

Luckily for them, they're a stranger on the internet.

i wish you wanted, craved and needed me the way i need you.

i wish you could also feel your organs writhe when we're not talking,

when we're not together,

when we don't exist in the same space and at the same time.

Grieving someone who’s still alive is a nightmare

so glad you have an entire fucking polycule to lean back on while im drowning for your fucking attention lolololol

i hate snapchat memories lol. just saw some pics from 5 years ago of me and my friends on call when we started online school during the pandemic and it fucking stung way more than i anticipated. these people don't talk to me anymore. they've all moved on with their lives and im still drowning in the past by myself, wishing they'd come back to get me. they have partners and new friends in our old city, and i got forcefully pulled away to a whole new province without my permission. i get to start all over again with friendships and family i don't want in my life.

i miss my friends.

okokok so

its been almost 2 weeks????? since me and my fp last had an actual conversation. i tried reaching out but they just ignored it and keep sending me fuckin memes and instagram posts and ignoring my message 🙃

i feel like i've already gone through the fucking 7 stages of grief with this mf and now i don't know if i care what they choose to do, so now im just wondering:

do i attempt to reach out again somehow and if so what the fuck do i say? OR do i just abandon ship and give up the entire friendship and see what happens-

need to meet someone as unhinged and hypersexual as me with an equal capacity to be completely obsessed and romantically deluded who also likes to smoke weed, be in nature and watch violent movies...or i will pass away...

Grahhh fuck!! I have this stupid desire for human connection!!!!