Oh My Gosh, This Is The Same Idea I’ve Had Since A Long Time Ago!!

had to share this note i woke up and wrote in the dead of night

I get that they think they are bringing me up by saying that, I do. But all I can feel is them dismissing the fact that I have ADHD and I cannot work the way I’m apparently supposed to. By saying this, they’re saying that I just have to keep pushing onwards the same way I always had to because I was able to do it before.

Going back to that car engine analogy thing…

My car engine is not working as is standard. It randomly shuts off. Trying to get it to turn back on is a pain. Sometimes, it manages to stay on for a while and I can get the car to move for a few miles, or kilometres or metres. But sometimes, it keeps shutting off as soon as I manage to turn it on. Or sometimes, it wouldn’t turn on at all, no matter what I try.

But I have to get to my destination. No matter what I have to get there. So I keep trying. I keep worrying about if I’m even going to make it there on time. Or at all.

Okay, I don’t know where I’m going with this but I feel like I have to write this for some reason

I remember when I was a teenager and kept insisting to my parents that there was something wrong with me because I couldn’t make myself study or do homework when I should and I was so stressed and anxious because I kept procrastinating, they kept telling me that I just need to train myself.

They compared it to a car engine for some reason, saying that when a car hasn’t been driven for a long time and you try to drive it, there are issues with the engine running, but if you drive it everyday then it runs smoothly. And that it was the same way with motivation and productivity, apparently.

Then I finally got diagnosed with ADHD

And somehow they have either forgotten or brushed aside all the times they’ve scolded me and argued with me, and now they are saying, “But you were able to do it! You should be proud!”

Wind down doodle from last night

He's festive 🎃🕸

Literature references in Tokyo Ghoul & Tokyo Ghoul:re

Authors referenced include;

Franz Kafka - Metamorphosis and Crossbreed

Osuma Dazai - Setting Sun

Hermann Hesse - Demian

Hakushuu Kitahara - Black Sheep & Ode to an Old Ainu & Blue Dragonfly

Nankichi Niimi - Gon, the Little Fox

C. S. Lewis - The Screwtape Letters

Ernest Hemmingway - The Old Man and the Sea

If I missed anything, please feel free to add!

Thanks to kanekuinke for pointing out the The Old Man and the Sea.

Thanks to makyun for pointing out Blue Dragonfly.

And thanks to saezutte who pointed out I spelled Dazai wrong in the freaking headers (－‸ლ) (I got it right in other places. I’m dyslexic).

Just a warning - this is a looong post.

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