Latest Posts by synfulrants - Page 2

trick me once shame on you. shame on you. shame on you shame on you i hate you. i ltierally trusted you.

It smells and sounds like spring 

my anhedonia is eating me alive so i’m making these mental illness memes to cope

i wanna talk about this shot

I wish I could talk about my system stuff more but system Tumblr scares the shit out of me...

Jesus X-man Christ

This panic happens like every few months.

I can be shaped by more than the things that hurt me

when it’s time for your favorite character to show up

hecate

Honestly bizarre that tomatoes get all the flack for “not being a vegetable” because they're technically a fruit when:

A) There are a ton of fruits that get categorised as vegetables. Like this also applies to pumpkins, squashes and cucumbers.

B) The fucking mushrooms are standing there at the back of the crowd in this witch trial, trying to look inconspicuous because they somehow got into the vegetable club with no fucking controversy despite the fact that they're not even plants.

Go piss girl

You're passing through Wonka's factory and through a doorway you see what is distinctly the body of Christ being fed into a big wacky machine

It's time for the next pope to be a gay autistic trans woman who does not believe in god. Share if you want a DEMON in the vatican. The hat will look funny on me

the spirit is unwilling and the flesh it feels not so good also

i suppress my headmates / mask their behaviour & then im surprised when i feel like im faking because i dont notice switches and we dont have major behavioural differences in public… hello??

not to mention im a control freak host who needs to be forcefully ripped away from front or else i dominate front 99% of the time

conversations with my sisters cat

dissociative amnesia haver: wow i wish i remembered shit

dissociative amnesia havers when they remember:

dissociative amnesia havers when the memories then get taken from them:

not what I was going to write . but fine

Common things in DID that no one likes to talk about

- switches that feel like you’re turning into someone else rather than them taking control (non-possessive switching)

- being unable to recognize amnesia until something requires you to remember something you forgot

- staying in the front for weeks at a time

- being unable to communicate with alters internally (this is so common why does everyone act like this is weird?)

- feeling like you don’t have any problems because you feel disconnected from them

- constant denial

- rapid identity, label, and appearance changes

- comorbidities, particularly personality disorders, anxiety disorders, and the schizophrenia spectrum

- autism (there is science pointing towards autistic people being more susceptible to trauma)

- disliking your system

- wanting final fusion

when you grew up as a lonely uncool girl it will never stop haunting you by the way. you will meet a cool person at a bar or the train station or at a friend's party and you can wear your most stylish outfit and striking eye makeup and you will swear that they can see through all of the facade and see the lonely terribly insecure teenage girl you used to be who desperately wanted to connect and you will swear that they know that there is like an insurmountable gap between you. this will happen forever

Carrie White 🩸👑

They’re having fun

“The old magic persists thanks to it’s unfathomable power.”

No, the old magic persists because the new magic can’t run the legacy spells I need to do my job, and keeps trying to install spirits I don’t want or need onto my orb.

weird as fuck living in a culture where it's considered more impolite to speak up and defend yourself against someone treating you unfairly than it is for someone to be rude to you in the first place