“I Laughed And Said, ‘Life Is Easy.’ What I Meant Was, ‘Life Is Easy With You Here, And When

“I don’t want to die, I just don’t want to exist any more” sounds mild if you’ve never experienced it, but it is in fact a horrible, violent way to feel.

i am hurting very badly and i just want it to be over

I’m trapped. I desperately don’t want to live, I desperately need to die. But I can’t do that to my loved ones. So I live everyday and I suffer. And I suffer, suffer so so much.

― Mieko Kawakami, Heaven

“Nothing better than memories, and there is nothing worse than them.”

— Anton Chekhov

it’s scary how when i think of the future my mind immediately jumps to “youre gonna kill yourself soon anyways so you dont have to worry about it”