“I Always Felt Like I Saw Things Differently. Saw Things Other People Didn’t.”

I don’t even want any of this, but I have to deal with all this failure which is a result of me being alive. And that just makes it a million times worse. I fail at everything, I can’t do one thing right. Yeah I failed but I don’t have the motivation or the will to work. I’m not being lazy. I just don’t know how to work towards anything when my end goal is to be dead

I don't wanna do this anymore

Just please...

Let me die

Let me end all this pain

i don’t know why i feel sad, but i’m tired of feeling this way

If I could stop living right this second without hurting anyone I’d fucking do that shit

Don’t tell me I’ll find someone else. Don’t tell me someone will love me someday. Please don’t give me that hope. I want to believe it more than anything. Knowing me, I’ll give in and try again. But heartbreak is inevitable. And I don’t have it in me to have my heart broken again. I won’t make it if it happens again. So let me stay safe, doesn’t matter if I’m alone. At least I’ll survive.

So please don’t say it. Because I’m doing everything I can to never believe in it again.

Fuck. Everything hurts and, oh god I wish I was dead.

“Everyday, suicide moves higher on my list of ways to solve all of my problems”

-Thoughts I’ll never speak out loud

if you can’t handle me at my worst that’s understandable cause i can’t either