Thesemidnightthoughtss - Midnight Thoughts

“you’re so distant” you literally made me feel like i wasn’t important

I'm just so tired of this. my body is tired, my mind is a mess. I just really want to lay in bed and never get up. I'm just so tired of life.

Perhaps the fact that I chased a boy who ripped me to shreds says a lot more about me than it did about him.

Michelle K. — Lessons Learned

I don’t want to hurt people with my death

Instead I hurt myself with my existence

Mental illness took so much away from me, sometimes I wish it would have taken my life as well

“Don’t be a fool. Don’t give up something important to hold onto someone who can’t even say they love you.”

— Sarah Dessen, Someone Like You

I’m so sensitive and I feel things on such an intense level. I can’t do moderation. Pain and happiness is something we all experience, it’s a part of life . But there is so much more pain than the happiness. And that little happiness is no where near enough to mitigate the pain. And thinking that I have to fight this battle everyday for the rest of me life is exhausting. I can’t do it. I feel tired down to my bones. Talking myself out of killing myself everyday. Scared of triggers. Struggling to do basic things. Feeling hideous and unworthy of love. So much self hate. How can anyone do this for their entire life.