i’m the problem. i’m draining to be around. i turn everything good into something toxic. i can’t stop myself from ruining everything, no matter how hard i try. i’m the only one to blame. i’m poison to everyone around me, i destroy everything i touch
I don’t know who my first heartbreak was. Maybe it was all of them, maybe none of them. Maybe it was my father when he became the first man to refuse me his love. Or maybe it was hurting someone else that made my heart ache.
- C. H.
“If I’m isolating myself, shutting everything and everyone out, it’s a sign it’s getting bad again.”
— (via devouring—despair)
“And I knew it. That’s the worst part: I knew it.”
— Marguerite Duras, The North China Lover (via wordsnquotes)
my brain saw the slippery slope of unhealthy coping mechanisms and grabbed a fucking sled
Live, not just survive
I don't wanna do this anymore
Just please...
Let me die
Let me end all this pain