Unfortunately, I Am An Attention Whore.

I’ll never be pretty enough

I’ll never be skinny enough

I’ll never be capable enough

I’ll never be funny enough

I’ll never be enough.

“Where do you see yourself in the future”

Bb I don’t. I do not. I do not see myself. There is no future.

it seems impossible

what you don’t realize is that if i get “embarrassed,” my first thought is “kill yourself.” i’m not like.. “oh haha silly me my mistake..” NOPE.. my initial reaction is “i deserve to rot in hell.”

One person's tone is off and suddenly I'm incapable of moving or feeling anything other than feelings as extreme as grief for hours on end and I'm unable to communicate or talk to people to be able to ask for help or reassurance to fix the problem. Why does my brain have to react this way

I am a masterpiece of contradictions: too much and not enough, fragile and fierce, desperate for love but terrified of it

People really think I'm joking when I say my emotions get so intense that I believe the only way out is to kill myself.

It's painful when your presence is merely tolerated, not cherished.

“I’m not going anywhere”

“you won’t scare me away”

“It’s okay to lean on me for support”

“you’re my closest friend”

“I don’t think you’re too much”

“I’m not going to do what they did”

“I want to be with you and only you”

“I love you”

“I’m sorry I just can’t do this anymore, I hope you can understand”

Always end up back here when I need to feel something