I Am My Own Worst Enemy

It feels like no matter who I mirror, no matter how hard I try to please people, no matter how nice I try to be— no one fucking likes me enough to stay or just return my energy equally. It’s so exhausting but I keep trying and trying to get this love and attention but it’s not sticking.

I will always be so fucking angry for what they turned me into

i support MAGA: make america gay again

How am I supposed to live after I've hurt the person I love the most?

I dont see my therapist again until school starts and I've just unlocked a new trauma. I can only talk to one person about it and I'm freaking out. I hate this. I hate life. I'm so uncomfortable and upset and disgusted by everything. I was just starting to like myself.

I honestly shoulda just killed myself the day I first thought about it. Would have saved me a lot of trouble and mental breakdowns

i feel like the longer you have depression n r suicidal, the less people care

bc its like~ hes depressed rn?? he always is

he hasnt eaten?? he will at some point

hes sh again?? they're never deep anyway

he's gone missing again?? its fine he'll come home

he overdosed again?? he never takes enough tho

he tried to kill himself?? thats okay the attempts have never worked~ so it wont this time

I just want him to love me again.

I feel like an awful person.

I keep doing things wrong and making people (the ones I care about) unhappy.

I don't deserve anything good on this life

feeling like a huge fucking burden lol