Something I Keep Experiencing

Tw: venting, pet loss, death, brief mention of contemplating self-unaliving

So, I don't even know where to start. I know this is FAR from my usual posts but honestly I have no idea what to do. It feels like my brain is still processing. On January 23rd, I lost the cat I've had every since I was a toddler. We've had her since she was just 3 days old. I remember waking up that morning and she seemed perfectly fine. She sat in my lap while I waited until it was time to leave for school. The whole school day felt perfect, in hindsight too perfect. Like the universe was giving me one last happy day. I remember I forgot to say goodbye to her like I always too before school. That night I had a bowling meet after school, so I didn't get home untiled 7:15 pm. I walked up the stairs, knowing she'd be mad at me for being gone so late without tell her. She always was. I opened the door and she was, laying on the floor, already dead. I couldn't even sleep in my own room that night and I felt terrified to go back in. Terrified that I'd still see her dead body there even though my mom had already moved her. I had always planned of taking her to college with me as an emotional support cat. She's the only reason I got through 4 years of depression, the only reason I never contemplated suicide during those horrible 4 years. She’s the reason I finally clawed my way out of that disgusting room. Now, 3 months later, and my mom thinks this is my childhood dogs last weekend. We've had him since before I was even born. I'm 16 now. He hasn't been eating and he barely gets out of bed anymore. Twice yesterday he got up and sat in the middle of the hall and just. Stared. At nothing. He can't even see anymore. He's so skinny and light and his fur isn't as soft as it was before. He nose is completely dry. He used to love liking me and my mom, you'd have to litteraly force him to stop. Now he barely does. I don't even know what to do. I don't think I can losing 2 pets I such a short period of time. I thought 2025 was going to be my year. Turns out it's far from it.

expect the official ad and invite sometime tomorrow!

Im working on a Wings of Fire roleplay server called Emporer of the Sun that's based on my apocalypse AU and I'd like to know if anyone's interested? There will be a prophecy and plot, however I'll have a bunch of other stuff for people not involved in the prophecy.

Here's the prophecy and concept

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When the days grow long and nights grow shortWhen ancient ice begins to melt

When dragons of night the moon they lost

And dragons of snow the heat they felt

May the sun never set on the SandWing kingdom

Dragons of sand shout

Their cry an animus did relate

Promised the sky, his mistake he learned much too late

The moon now gone

And the arctic lost

The ice now without their frost

A city formed by ruthless claws

Five dragonets alone can destroy his cause

One of sea found in the deep

One of night found far from friend

One of sand to wake from sleep

An ancient ally to defend

One of sky meant to depose

And one of ice found far below

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80 years ago, the kingdoms lived in peace. The SandWing kingdom had a motto, "may the sun never set on the SandWing kingdom". This was the kingdoms pride. One hot evening, SandWings gathered at the palace to attend the official inauguration of the tribes forst animus in years as the royal animus. This animus was young and foolish. His name was Helios. He had no experience with animus magic and never knew hust how strong his magic was. Noone at the time knew. None would know until it was too late. Helios held his talon up amd declared towards the sky "May the sun never set on the SandWing kingdom!" As the crowd clapped and cheered, Helios immediately knew something was wrong. He felt an indescribable shift in the hot evening air and a course of power through his claw tips. By the time he realized what he'd done, it was too late. The sun would never set again. The NightWings were the first to notice something was wrong. They noticed within less than a day since they're nocturnal. The queen was able to react fast enough and evacuated the entire tribe underground is less than a week, as they already had an emergency response plan and a basic settlement underground incase of any wars or disasters. The IceWings were next. The oppresive heat quickly melted the arctic and they evacuated much too late. Many died on the migration south and only a handful still survive. Most dragons believe them to be extinct and theyve lost their frostbreath abilities. The SeaWings quockly moved into deeper water to escape the heat. Now they live in the dark depths of the open ocean. The RainWings immediately cut off trade and shut their borders. Not many dragons know what goes on in the once prosperous rainforest anymore. The SandWings however, saw this as a blessing. They all united under Helios, now Emporer Helios. Helios took over the scorpion den. He views all who are weak, sick or injured as useless and only allows in survivors if he deems them useful. The remaining tribes, SkyWings and MudWings, dispersed. Mass histeria and panic lead to riots against their queens who acted irrationally and the kingdoms are no more. Now, all thats left of the 7 tribes are scattered survivor groups, along with 3 clans, the biggest of these groups.

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this is insane that this is the first I'm hearing of other countries protesting in solidarity

What the media won't show

Not exactly sure what to post but wanted to post something, so have some payment art I did recently

Character is Anubis, who belongs to aries.the.thing on discord

About Me

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✦Your Local Arsonist (Arsonist or YLA for short)

✦She/Her

✦Minor (15-17 range)

✦My Fandoms: Wings of Fire, Percy Jackson, Kane Chronicles, Magnus Chase, Fourth Wing, Arcane, Warrior Cats and DnD

✦Toyhouse: YourLocal_Arsonist

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✧Feel free to repost my art as long as proper credit is given! I would like to be credited by either "art by Your Local Arsonist" and/or a link back to the original post

✧Please ask to use my art as a pfp, unless the art is made specifically for you or you're a mutual. I still need credit though!

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Go check out this awesome artist they need more recognition <3

@yla03 's sick oc Solaris!!.

His design is so intriguing I can't wait to read about him on aO3!!!!.

Flat colours under the cut because they're a secret.

I'm Back!

I dissappeared for a while mostly because I simply forgot I even had an account here lmao

Have one of my most recent drawings.

It's of my WoF oc, and edgy RainWing named Devil. His original names was Passionfruit but he hated it so he changed it to Devil

Created a cover for my book, Seeing Stars!

the first chapter can be read here

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64337542/chapters/165158104