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i love the rain. especially listening to it.

im living the lesbian/pansexual dream. sitting under my veranda, in a rocking chair, listening to the rain on the roof.

pitter patter, pitter patter.

quiet

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everything will be fine.

усе буде добре.

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my place

You know what helps me when i'm anxious? Or to get me out of an anxiety attack? Painting a whole ass page full of one colour. For no reason what so ever. Am i going to paint or draw something over it? ....maybe in the future. But for now it's just one solid colour. I don't know why but just painting one page in one solid colour without an ulterior motive calms me more than any breathing exercises could ever do. Right now i have a whole sketchbook page painted black. Full black. With nothing on top and no plan to add anythig for the foreseeing future.

Just puting this here maybe it will help some other person out there.

Take me back 🏞️

⋆✴︎˚｡⋆ Cleansing. ⋆✴︎˚｡⋆

Breathing in,

Breathing out,

I discard doubts,

Shut them out.

Meditated,

Breath not baited,

Crystal shards,

Relieve my scars.

Scenic view,

Drips like dew,

I can breathe,

I can see.

Floats like magic dust,

Holding on, I must,

Peace injected in,

A warm bath, I swim.

Elements tune it out,

The world, my fear, my doubts,

I forget as birds sing,

This, dear, is my cleansing.

A life-changing epiphany.

A complication.

A trepidation

that even in 

the insurgents,

the ones with 

bottles and bottles 

of red pills,

the Mavericks.

Within them,

lies those 

still 

enslaved by 

the very fruits of their rebellion.

Unpopular opinion of Marcus Aurelius – and highly thought-provoking:

“In comparing sins (the way people do) Theophrastus says that the ones committed out of desire are worse than the ones committed out of anger: which is good philosophy. The angry man seems to turn his back on reason out of a kind of pain and inner convulsion. But the man motivated by desire, who is mastered by pleasure, seems somehow more self-indulgent, less manly in his sins.

Theophrastus is right, and philosophically sound, to say that the sin committed out of pleasure deserves a harsher rebuke than the one committed out of pain. The angry man is more like a victim of wrongdoing, provoked by pain to anger. The other man rushes into wrongdoing on his own, moved to action by desire.” © Marcus Aurelius, “Meditations”.

Meditation before going to bed continues in the sleep state.

Meditation before going to bed continues in the sleep state.

I have practiced meditation or affirmations before going to bed, and I have experienced many times that when I wake up in the morning, the state I was in before going to sleep continues.

However, this effect is limited to the "state", not the "action". The "state", not the "action", continues. For example, whether you feel something or meditate and are in a meditative state, it continues.

Repetitive thoughts and actions, etc. quickly disappear in traces and form due to various distracting thoughts during sleep.

The important point is that in order to create a "state", you must go through the default mode network state called Big Kalpa, a state where various distracting thoughts and ideas arise and disappear. This is also why we feel calm during meditation and that state continues.

A Simple Bus Ride

Its was 1:02p.m. I usually go to school with my father in his Royal Enfield. Unfortunately, he was busy today so he told me to take a bus and go to school. I travelled to school alone several times, but today something was different. I was standing near the bus stop when a "D-32" bus came and stood there. I usually travel in "81/1 Bus" but I was getting late to school so I took that bus.

The bus was spacious and it lacked chaos. I made myself sit in the last seats of the bus as most of the front seats were occupied. I put my earphones on and started listening to "Prem Dot Com Season 4" audio story and the name was of the story was "Ami Achi Toh".

When the bus stopped near Barrackpore station, the passenger occupying the window seat got down and now I was occupying in the window side seat. I was listening to the audio story carefully when suddenly sun kissed my cheeks and my eyes. I thought to click a picture of mine but I would be of no use. The whole bus ride my quite and calm.. I was viewing the regular scenery but today I was seeing things differently from the bus window..

The whole ride felt like I am having a solo trip. The story was accurate, the bus was good, I was well dressed, looked good and I felt...... siren....

Thats all