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8 Months of Living to Please My Soul
[8 months on testosterone warrants a face reveal for the blog]
mac mcdonald is trans and you can fight me on this idc
my boy by csh was specifically made for boyfriends that went home for winter break and are now long-distance for a month
troy from community is so aggressively bisexual why are we one in the same
jesse pinkman is so sexy and transgender
trans ppl are so mfn cool bc we are all such different people from each other but we have common ground on our identities
all my best relationships have been t4t but at the same time i have MAD beef with the other 2 trans guys from my highschool
we are all unique complex people and some of us dont get along very well but there is a mutual understanding of who we are
the transmasc urge to look like billy idol
there is something so beautiful about a man that is both transgender and a boy kisser
i got the copper iud today!
honestly, it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be, but it was still pretty awful. the insertion was painful but i wasnt nauseous, didnt pass out, i was kinda thirsty and tired afterwards tho.
my nurse was also a trans guy too!! his name was pete and he was so nice and made me a million times more comfortable.
around an hour or so after the insertion was when i started getting really really bad cramps. typically, my period cramps are like a 5 or 6 but these were like an 8 in my opinion. the only thing thats helped so far has been tylenol (cant take ibuprofen for medical reasons) and heating pads--cant stress that enough: heating pads were the only things that helped. a couple hours after the insertion the pain was too much for me so i took so melatonin and slept it off.
biggest piece of advice, drink water and eat something beforehand, bring some water and a stuffed animal with you for support, and have the doctor talk you through the procedure. afterwards make sure you have a heating pad, some tylenol or advil, and if you can, sleep it off. call some friends to take your mind off the pain as well.
sam and suzy from moonrise kingdom are t4t and transhet
mickey milkovich has done so much for the transmasc community
like honestly when he says liking what he likes doesnt make him a bitch in response to a jab about him bottoming, being a short king but everyone still takes him seriously, showing how to be queer you dont have to be soft or flamboyant, how queer people can look and act like anybody, i could go on and on
Feeling really dysphoric so I vent a bit. I’m not the best at anatomy especially arms and hands but yeah. It kinda help to get it out and calm myself down. Idk if it’s really apparent in the drawing but my binder doesn’t always help because my chest is large and yeah.... Idk what to put here so have me screaming in text form. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Could you write headcanons abt gaeul with a transboy reader? Only if u feel comfortable with it, obviously. Have a great day/night/afternoon <33
Gaeul Dating A FTM Reader Headcanons.
Trans (FTM) Reader.
Requested.
Masterlist.
Request Rules.
I tried my best to be respectful and did some research on the FTM and how they deal with their daily life as transman, so if anything I put in here was offensive, please let me know so that I can change it or put it down. I hope you enjoy.
Gaeul hadn't known that you were trans, even after the two of you were dating.
It scared you, thinking that if you told her the true then, she would break up with you.
So, she didn't know about it for months until you finally mastered the courage to speak to her the truth.
When she found out, she was shocked to say the least but nevertheless, supportive of you.
She really didn't mind.
And when you got your top surgery, Gaeul was there for you the entire time.
Making sure you were comfortable throughout the days.
Anything you need, Gaeul would be running to get that thing you needed.
And if you were a streamer, there was a lot of backlash after people finding out that you were transgender.
People purposely mispronouncing your pronouns and to some extent, some people protesting outside of your house.
The backlash was really bad to the point where V-Hit and other channels, who you were friends with, came to your aid and defended you.
It made you not leave the house for weeks, as Gaeul did her best to cheer you up.
Cuddling you, calling you "good boy" and etc.
And eventually, you were able to come out of your house, not minding the haters anymore and continuing to be yourself as there still a lot of people who still admired you.
And when the V-Hit team found out that you were transgender, there were a lot of questions.
Mainly from Hobin and Snapper, and the others not minding it all.
And whenever you two are out on a date and someone mocks you, you bet Gaeul is ready to beat their ass up.
But you always held her back, telling her not to mind them but of course Gaeul, would always find them and teach them a lesson on not to do that to their partner.
When she introduce you to her dad, her dad didn't mind at all.
He doesn't care if you are transgender even though he may seen like he could have some old saying or is transphobic. He is not, he doesn't care how other people will live as long as other people aren't hurt by it.
Whenever you two get into an argument, Gaeul does look like she's about to cry but always held it back, not wanting to make the argument any worse.
When you are in the wrong, she gives you some time before you finally apologize to her.
When she is in the wrong, she needs some time to clear her head and realize her mistakes before apologizing to you.
But if both of you aren't at fault, then Gaeul would sometimes apologize first or you apologizing first but it would always end with you coming to terms.
When you are experiencing dysphoria, Gaeul would always calm you down. Hugging you, whispering sweet things to you.
And Gaeul get's jealous very easily, just one flirtatious look directed at you can cause he jealousy bubbling inside of her as she would then cling onto your arm while pouting towards the person who flirted with you.
Whenever you get jealous, you would smile menacingly and wrap your arm around her waist as the person who was flirting with Gaeul, sweatdropped. Thank that looks couldn't kill because it would, they would 6ft underground right now.
So in all honesty, the two of you were good.
notes/replies on that last post (about Florida moving to ban all HRT for adults) suggest it was struck down by a judge, which is a relief obviously. but i do wanna pick up on the response being "set up DIY networks for HRT! organise and help each other!" which is cool and all but... as the latest reblog comment points out, T is a controlled drug.
some quick and dirty googling confirms testosterone is a Schedule III controlled drug in the USA, with most legal sources suggesting possession and/or distribution of Schedule III drugs is a 3rd degree felony. conviction can mean up to five years in prison and a $5,000 fine. crucially, in Florida (where this law was intended to come into force), selling or distributing a Schedule III drug to minors pushes it up to a 2nd degree felony with a harsher fine/sentence.
i make this point because the response to HRT being restricted is often some variation of "mutual aid DIY network" or just flat suggesting DIY to people as the solution. which is cool if you're on estrogen, but possessing testosterone without a prescription is a literal felony in the USA. T is also a controlled drug in the UK, where trans people face long waiting lists for HRT - it's not illegal to possess T for personal use, but it is illegal to get them sent to you from abroad (importing a controlled drug) and to give them to other people (supply). to legally get T you need a prescription from a doctor.
in a hostile transphobic environment there is no guarantee that prosecuters will decide not to charge trans people for DIYing HRT. "set up DIY networks" for transmascs basically translates to "set up an illegal drug ring".
this is a form of transphobia that affects transmascs but does not affect transfems. it also affects nonbinary and intersex folks seeking or using testosterone HRT. in fact it could potentially impact some nonbinary trans folks worse because the medical gatekeeping around trying to transition as nonbinary is already an uphill struggle.
it is not easy for those of us on T to just DIY it and fuck the system. without a valid prescription our HRT becomes a banned illegal steroid that can land us in serious legal trouble if we get caught, especially if we're distributing it to other people as part of a mutual aid setup. i know we're all very "be gay do crime" for the memes but we are talking about an actual factual go-to-jail-irl crime here.
the fact that our HRT is an illegal drug unless prescribed by a doctor is a form of transandrophobia that affects trans men, transmascs, nonbinary people on masculinising HRT, and intersex people who want or need testosterone. it means that:
we cannot DIY transition without committing a crime, and have to weigh up that risk when considering DIY as an option
setting up a mutual aid testosterone DIY network is even more of a crime, especially if you want to use it to help trans teens
we are thus more dependent on placating medical practitioners and convincing them to prescribe us HRT
we will always be more impacted by any moves to restrict or delay access to HRT because we don't have an easy, legal DIY option
when access to HRT is limited for transphobic reasons, the DIY option comes at much higher risk
where access to HRT is severely delayed (as it is in the UK by years-long waiting lists), it is easier for transfems to start DIYing while they wait than it is for transmascs to do the same thing. in fact in the UK they've started selling estrogen HRT over the counter for menopause, so here if you want to start estrogen DIY all you have to do is get a cis lady friend to ask a pharmacist for menopause treatments. if you wanna start T you have to go on the fucking dark web (I'm exaggerating but... not a lot)
none of this is intended to suggest that transfems don't experience medical transphobia or gatekeeping and this isn't a "trans men have it worse universally across the board" post. there are undoubtedly some areas where it's harder to be transfem. however, this is one area where it is clearly and demonstrably harder to be a trans man. i am pointing this out because i keep seeing people saying that transmascs have it easier or there's no systemic or structural transphobia targeting trans men or we only ever experience misdirected misogyny or whatever. here is your proof that that is not true. this is a form of structural and systemic transphobia that impacts trans men and not trans women. and there is no possible world in which you can argue that testosterone being a controlled drug is somehow misogyny.
We need to talk more about the transmasculine suicide rate.
There's a common saying that every transgender suicide is a murder, because it is the lack of acceptance in society that leads transgender individuals to commit suicide at such a high rate, this is true of trans men who have the highest suicide rate across all gender identities:
Trans men are not receiving the support they need, and many of them are not surviving because of this. We need to make sure that mental health support and suicide for transgender individuals is as inclusive as possible for these transgender men who are at the highest risk.
We need to ensure trans men feel safe and welcome within the queer community as isolation is one of the more exacerbating factors on one's mental health. We need to make sure resources for victims of sexual violence are inclusive of transmasculine individuals, who face the highest rate of sexual abuse and yet often have to recloset themselves to find support. We have to love trans men because society shows them nothing but hate.
Check in with the trans men in your community, you may just save a life.
when you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy! then, send to your last ten people in your notifs (anonymously). you never know who might benefit from spreading positivity♡
:0 oh I didn't think I'd get this. Cool! My first ask!
Uh let's see...
Anything orange or peach (both color and flavor
The fact the my mom just let me buy my first pack of boxer-briefs without ridicule
Men with long hair
Wearing hoodies and basketball shorts as pajamas :)
SNOW. SNOW STORMS FJFJCJJ
SSSSSSSSSSNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOWWWWW
one time i was in an olive garden bathroom and my packer fell out of my shorts and this ten year old boy just looked at me with absolute terror and without thinking i said "that's what happens when you don't eat your vegetables" later i saw him eating salad at a speed no human should be capable of
I have came to the realization that if I ever get on T, I will probably look exactly like my father. What the hell