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Questa sera ho provato il profumo 🙊

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Ci fai qualche prima e dopo?

Tipo questo?

Che dite? ha funzionato?

Ho comprato questo body ma mi sta grande.. 🥲 forse dovrei usare ancora un po' di quella crema

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Ho comprato un profumo e una crema che promettono di far crescere le tette ma ora non so che fare 😳 Ho sempre desiderato non essere piatta 🙌🏻 ma non so se fidarmi

Blinded By Shadows 🌑⚡🌕

If one looks into the light

And instinctively turns away

In fear, with aching eyes,

It might have been 

That one has stood 

In the darkness

For a long time

Own up, understand your feelings and listen

or your feelings will own up your vision

obscure your whole view with a dense fog

and completely take over your future decision.

I'll find my own voice

Find myself again

I'll pick up the pieces

Pick up the remains

I'll decide when to leave

Decide to carry on

I'll learn how to speak up

When it's getting tough

I'll stay true to myself

And learn how to love...

                                       ...Myself

Found a secret garden

Hidden in plain sight

With scions growing

In a yellow-pink light

Give yourself a fighting chance!

for so long I have fought myself, being an all or nothing girlie. I am a perfectionist and if I couldn't do it perfectly then guess what? it wasn't getting done and that was that.

fast-forward to now and I don't swing from one extreme to another. I have found things that help me. find ways to make whatever is holding you back work for you!

I don't let my perfectionism hold me back. if I see that I want to quit something because it's not going the way I want it to or it's not turning out exactly as I want it to- I have stopgaps in place instead of giving in to my tendencies.

if I have a goal, I will research and break it down to the nitty gritty. I will do all the due diligence. I will take it step by step. I would rather "waste my time" researching and planning, I would it takes me longer to achieve a goal thar could be achieved Ina lesser amount of time, I would rather feel like it's tedious at the beginning. but this is much better at ensuring I follow through. and taking a year to achieve a goal I could've achieved in 3 months is way better than quitting cold turkey and never finding out.

embracing my quirks gives me a fighting chance. embracing ≠ giving in to them

so instead of quitting or procrastinating because I want whatever to turn out perfect I 'perfect away'. I give myself a fighting chance.

I'm also trying to unlearn the conditioning and trying to change my beliefs around it. in the meantime I do the best I can.

Tonight, I let go.

Of all the pain, despair, misery, and images that haunt me on this date. I release them to the wind, to the rain, to the earth and let them become nothing but distant memories of my youth. I move forward holding the love, the warmth, and the joy that those years with you brought me. I will celebrate the life of all of those I hold dear. I will not dwell in death, but I will flourish in the gifts you all gave me.

This day has held me hostage for my entire life, but I felt you today. I felt you in that moment where the rain picked up and you cried with me. I felt your acknowledgement of me, my love, and my promise to surrender my grief. I stood lighter, the world felt brighter- my ears even popped, and I could hear more clearly!

I will carry forward the happiness we created.

Earlier this week I hit 150 days straight on my goal app. This little app has helped me so much when it comes to getting things done and reminding myself to take time for me. 150 days isn’t too many when it’s over the year, but I haven’t missed a day since I started using it. Finch has really given me a sense of consistency and success. (Not sponsored, I just really love this app.) So congratulations to me! I’m making so much progress and doing well.

I am rediscovering how to love

The way I used to when I was five. Before Love

Was swept under the rug and 

Freedom became the only prize. 

Fear runs rampant, dominates—Panic is seeds sown by a 

         careless farmer—

But here, in this moment, without distraction, 

        without fear, 

I am rediscovering what it means to love despite 

       the flaws we hold. 

Here in this moment, 

I am redefining who I choose to be.

If one thing must come from this living, 

barring death, 

let it be the choice to love again, 

despite Love’s faults in the past. 

.

—in the space between here and then (y.c.)

Storms

Amidst the storms and thunders

The battles that you're fighting in silence

getting deep and healing yourself all on your own

uncovering every trauma and insecurities within you

In this journey of letting go of grudges and bitterness

My dear, I know it's hard and painful

But I hope you know the latter is a relief,

All the burdens you piled onto yourself

When you let go of it all and forgive yourself

What a relief and peace it brings to your soul

So in this journey of uncovering that you're going through

A journey that you need to take alone

don't give up! think of your past self

keep pushing forward for your future self

And have faith for your present self

By Adia

My final piece for my first project at uni, which is a book cover for a story of a girl, on the left, moving on from her dystopian reality to a peaceful, natural world.

Bad News :

You're growing & it's Uncomfortable..

Good News :

It's uncomfortable, but You're Growing... !

I came here to try and understand who I was. To see if I, if I was the monster. And now I know the truth. It is not me. It is you. You are the monster. 

STRANGER THINGS (2016-)  Season 4, Episode 8 - “Papa”