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I feel you around me. You’re everywhere and I can’t get you out of my mind. I love how red your face gets all the time. I love it. The only thing I admire most in this world. I was out with my friends, one of them was all red in the face because of the cold weather but the first thought that came to my mind was exactly you, with a red face. It’s so unique to me.
I don’t know if this is love. I don’t think so. I’ve never even talked to you.
You stare at me. You continuously look at me. But I don’t know why. You don’t talk to me. You don’t dare make the first move. You observe me from afar.
And I think: “What if he’s only curious about me? What if he’s only looking absentmindedly?…”
But I know too well that none of that is true. He isn’t curious.
But I don’t know how to define this.
I attempted making the first move. But he turned it down immediately.
And the next day. I see him again. I had left my glasses in my class, I was having a terrible headache and I just wanted to go meet my friend. So I go downstairs and walk towards my friend’s class. He comes close to me, I stare quickly at him and then I avert my sight to the other side, avoiding him at all costs.
I’m talking to my friend, and she tells me: “He was looking at you!”
I bewildered look at her.
I need help. He is making me go out of my mind. Can’t God help me with this. Or remove him from my life to stop tormenting me, or just make him do something that makes me at least have a talk with him, so I know what his intentions are.
I can’t live like this.
He makes me anxious. Conscious of myself. Before I get out of class, I fix my hair and my makeup. And while going to my friends, I always look around for him. Even if i’m blind. I find him somehow.
It happened again. Girl is bitching about her boyfriend and I respond "wow what a dick move" and she proceeds to yell at me for agreeing with her about her dick boyfriend