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Little Kagehina comic I did based on @th3_crow_flies fanfic on twitter!
link for it: https://twitter.com/th3_crow_flies/status/1463195933974441985
so apparently the haikyuu fandom is actually???? active on tumblr? so here’s the kagehina animation i made a few months ago that took me five hours lol
piece from a few months (?) ago that i never posted
i die a little bit inside when i realise they never do this again
why does kageyama lowkey look good as a redhead
» IDIOTAS AMAM INTENSAMENTE (20/11) — futura doação (!) » categoria: Haikyuu! » personagens: Kageyama Tobio & Hinata Shouyou » recursos: psds por @.colour-source & @.navh (deviantart)
meimei's note: gente, fiz essa capa ainda agora e eu estou deverá apaixonado nessa capinha rosa com preto. Foge um pouco do que costumo fazer mas ainda deixo ao meu estilo e confesso que não esperava que ficasse tão gracioso como está :3 não me toquem! Kkkkkkk fazia muito tempo que não editava com kagehina, e confesso que senti saudades, eles são dois bobos muito gays que vivem de birra na minha opinião (e só ela importa kkkkk) enfim, mais uma capinha pra doação <3
» INÚTEIS PENSAMENTOS — capa teste
⟅09.02.2024 — entrei em uma crise existencial enorme esses dias e pensei: vou capar! E assim eu fiz. Eu estou meio que completamente na vibe de cadernos, planners, diagramação (que ainda sou muito ruim como podem ver), colagens mais sutis e livros em geral, pensando nisso, eu peguei o máximo de material para chegar nesse resultado, que me fez criança de novo. No geral, estou contente com essa capa e acho que a inspiração da capa em si é responsável por isso (Isaac Dunbar em scorton's creek é uma das minhas músicas favoritas e morro de ciúmes dela) e enfim né galera, apenas atualizando meu port com mais uma capa que me deixou triste por motivos de que tem plot angst, amo e é isso.
» SENTIMENTOS QUE FLORESCEM DE CONVERSAS BOBAS — pedido pessoal
⟅01.12.2023 — eu me sinto muito bobão com essa capa pq ela está muito pitchula e eu não sei reagir (ToT) bem, eu meio que queria dar uma presente especial para a @.chanyouchan e eu bolei uma ideia de capa (sem plot) para dar esse mimo pq amo ela e é isso ( ˘ ³˘)❤ sobre a capa, eu queria que fosse rosa pq rosa e chany é a mesma coisa MAS eu não consigo fazer capa com rosa já tem um tempo e eu tive que bolar um bem bolado pra capa ficar mais fofa. Queria fazer uma kagehina pra chany pq esse ship é a cara dela (e tbm pq eu amo editar com os dois mas ignorem isso já que superei minha fase de 2020 *brinks*) bjs e ate a próxima
» LINEARIS — capa teste
⟅26.11.2023 — real: não queria colocar esses dois nessa capa mas eu NÃO CONSEGUI ACHAR IMAGENS DE QUALIDADE então vai ser eles mesmo. Essa capa levou três capas de teste para sair e mesmo assim sinto que não consegui fazer ela ficar do jeito que queria, como sempre né? Isso já vai ser rotina e eu preciso aceitar que nem tudo vai sair do jeito que eu quero :( eu tenho um plotzinho fofinho para essa capa e vou guardar no coração pq sou triste :D Plot fofo com fundo preto? Sim gente, eu amo preto e queria deixar as linhas com um cinza claro e não deu outra, TENTEI DE TUDO pra deixar com cores mais fofas mas não rolou. Tô achando essa capa tão simples e sla gente, vou chorar e não vai ser pouco :'( eu fiz essa capa ouvindo ANAVITÓRIA então tomem!
*whisper* kageyama toss toss pls toss kageyama toss pls toss kage-
something about haikyuu!! just hits harder than anything else
heheeheehe
I‘m making a „Playing Beach Volleyball in Brazil with Shoyo Hinata“ playlist inspired by the infamous „midnight skateboarding with suna rintarou“ playlist, what songs should I add?
(Also should I keep this cover or put that one Loony fanart as the cover?)
Kageyama Tobio
Weird guy whose yearning style is straight up violence
Suga is shobio's biggest supporter 😔👌
This feels pointed and I don’t even know this person irl
when nobody is there for me i know haikyuu will be there for me
my stupid boys 😭😭
Here’s an updated version of my fanfic covers for the wattpad readers (demon slayer one is currently being written and also I changed the title from “Love You To The Moon, And To Saturn” to the one you see here)
I may be a little obsessed with this font
It seems Tumblr thinks I only like Kenhina for some reason? Hello Tumblr algorithm, I am a multi shipper, my top 5 ships are Kagehina/Shobio, Bokuaka, Kuroken, Sakuatsu, Takeukai
HI!
In honor of finishing my first fic, I decided to post every fic I write from now on here too! Hope you Enjoy
The cute Witch boy flying outside my window (A Haikyuu fanfic)
Chapter 1: "You're supposed to be a figmet of my imagination!" aka the meetcute
Notes:
This fic is also available on Wattpad and Ao3
*English isn't my first language and in this AU Hinata isn't in Karasuno and you'll soon find out why, fic is set around the end of season 1
* English is not my first language, sorry for spelling mistakes
"Dear Diary,
I am Kageyama Tobio, the former setter of the Karasuno Volleyball team, I had just come home after losing an important match against Date Tech. I was devastated, I was sure we would have at least gotten to play against Seijoh. "Maybe our ace could have saved us! Maybe our Libero could have caught the ball!", I thought to myself trying to justify my frustration.
And then I heard it, the sound of a bell coming from outside my window. I heard that sound every night and every night I could've sworn I saw a boy with ginger hair fly on a broom past said window. This time it was different tho, the bell rang multiple times, I looked up. A boy with messy orange hair and hazel eyes was looking right at me from outside my window.
"What the fuck!?"
", I jumped back, startled. "Don't be scared! I won't hurt you!", the
ginger said "You're not real! You're supposed to be a fragment of my imagination!"
, I yelled
"I'm.flattered? Or should I be offended?" asked the boy at the window "Hell if I know!"
', I suddenly heard my older sister yell at me from the living room downstairs:
"Tobio! Shut the fuck up! It's late!" I turned around intending to respond but was interrupted by the boy at the window "Flying hero? That's a badass name!"
"Um...Thank you I guess" I answered. "You seem upset, do you...maybe... possibly....want to talk about it?"
"Who even are you?" I asked
"I'm Shoyo! And you are?" He said
"Tobio Kageyama...is Shoyo your first or last name?"
I asked
...I don't know"
I allowed Shoyo inside, he was wearing a white button up, black shorts and boots, he also had a broom with him with a little bell tied to it...he looked adorable "You should
take your shoes off indoors", I suggested, Shoyo took his shoes off to not be disrespectful. "How do you not know your last name?" I asked "I just forgot it, I've lived in the woods ever since I was little" Shoyo answered "Are you...a witch?"
, I asked
the shorty "I guess I am! ...so, why are you so upset?"
My curiosity shifted back to frustration: "I lost an important game of Volleyball...
Shoyo looked confused for a second: "What's
Volleyball?"
My eyes lit up, I started explaining everything I knew about Volleyball in great detail I barely even paused to make sure the witch was following. "Sorry, I didn't mean to bother you, I really like talking about Volleyball." I paused myself thinking Shoyo was probably bored by my yapping. "I'm not bothered by it whatsoever! Tell me more about Spikers! They sound like they're the coolest!" It was like an arrow was shot through my heart, he didn't shame me for liking stuff like others did, no, he liked it even! I had met people like that before but he was the only one who asked follow up questions, like he was the only one that actually listened. He kept getting closer to me... why didn't that bother me? People getting all up in my business usually upsets me, A LOT!..So why did I kind of want him to get closer to me? I heard something knock at the window.
"Woodpecker!", called Shoyo.
"That's a crow, not a woodpecker" I pointed out
"I know that, silly!", he opened the window and let the bird in
"Woodpecker's his name. He's my familiar." he explained. "What's a familiar?" I asked, his eyes lit up, I guess that's how I looked like when he asked me about Volleyball. He looked so pretty. "A familiar is a spirit that takes the form of an animal and guides you through your journey with magical, it's tied to your soul and once they feel that you don't need their protection and guidance anymore they are free to live their immortal life as they please", he explained, the crow looked at me like it was trying to tell whether I'm a friend or foe. "How does he know that he's not needed? That sounds like a horrible feeling", I was curious. "It's like a sixth sense", the voice came from the
crow, I was speechless? First a witch and then a crow that sounded like a chipmunk that smokes a pack of cigarettes in the pan of two days. "Some people are so impressionable these days", complained the crow.
I was stunned by the talking crow but we got along, Shoyo was like a beam of sunshine in my room and I wished for him to never leave, it's weird, I only knew him for a few hours. He got near me, I showed him a Volleyball game I recorded and he got... touchy?
I don't know not in a bad way I guess, he lied his head on my legs at one point...why didn't I hate it? I should hate it? Right? Why did this boy I just met make me feel so...comfortable.
I don't remember how, I don't remember why,
But we ended up on my bed, talking.
I wasn't really listening, I was too busy overanalyzing every detail of his face, the way his eyes looked like honey or the way his hair fell on the pillow, his lips forming words, his freckles that were so few nobody would notice them unless they were overanalyzing his face's every detail like a creep... wait is that me? Am I a creep? No, I'm not a creep, he was all up in my face what else was I supposed to do!?
"Are you listening" Shoyo asked
"S-Sorry I zoned out" my face felt hot, was I blushing? Why would I be blushing?
"I asked if I managed to cheer you up" Shoyo repeated himself
"Oh, Yeah! I completely forgot about the match until now" I realized
"I'm glad I could help"
Notes:
Hi! Thank you for reading chapter one of my story!
It's currently 12:32pm or 00:32 if you re European like me and I have school tomorrow. Please excuse any spelling mistakes cause as you could probably tell from me saying I'm European, English is not my first language (it's Italian if you care). This is my first fic and I'm actually so excited to hit publish!
This ship means so much to me and I really hope you liked this Fic
The cute Witch boy flying outside my window (A Haikyuu fanfic)
Chapter 2: "My name is Shoyo Hinata"
Notes:
Looking back at this Chapter after a few weeks, I hate the way I wrote trans Hinata and wish I would ve gone with the original plan which I'm probably gonna use once I write the fic from Hinata's POV
Trigger Warning: mentions of Homophobia, Transphobia and violence against people of the LGBTQIA+ community
"Dear Diary
If you asked me how my day was I'd say: "I don't fucking know", I barely payed attention in class and practice after losing a match is always frustrating. I ran straight home after practice, even ignored the captain wanting to buy us snacks like he usually does. I stayed by the window for hours... and then I saw the crow and I heard the bell approaching
"Should I say something?"
"Should I be quiet?"
', I asked myself.
The bell got slower, as if Shoyo was trying to be quiet. Our eyes met as he finally flew past my window.
"Hi!" I said trying to sound cool
"Were you waiting for me?" He asked, I couldn't tell if he was trying to make fun of me for it by the sound of his voice.
My face turned red. What was I even expecting waiting for him like some creep? "Um...I-I kinda... yes?"
He got closer to me: "You're cute you know that?
Come on let me in"
He took his shoes off, the crow stayed by the windowsill as me and Shoyo chatted.
"I'm sorry I was acting like a creep and waiting for you earlier...um, I just...didn't ask you to come back and thought you were just a dream", that sounded fucking stupid! He looked at me dead serious and went: "I'd love to be the boy of you dreams" Diary when I tell you I was about to spontaneously combust I mean it! Why is that happening? Why do I feel like I'm on another planet every time I think of him or hear his voice!? It makes no sense to me”
"Dear Diary,
It's been a few weeks, summers here and Shoyo comes by every night. I asked Sugawara about the way I was feeling. He says I might have a crush and I don't know how to feel about that. Does Shoyo even like boys?
Should I ask him if he likes boys? What if he calls me slurs like those boys in middle school?.. No he would never, he has no cruelty in his heart. He comes by every night and we hang out and every time he stays until I fall asleep and he's gone the next day.
He always comes around 10pm, I'm grown used to the sound of his bell.
I also got used to him crashing into my closet that's in front of the window cause apparently he's too lazy to just say "Hello may I come in?". I started putting pillows in front of it so he doesn't hurt himself. I'll update you
once he gets here
.
.
.
We watched "Mamma Mia!" this time (which is totally not linked to the Author having watched the movie for the first time a few hours ago and developing a new hyper fixation, the Author), we stayed up all night recreating all the choreographies and sang all the songs...and then we got to lay all your love on me, and we were close, very close, so close I could have kissed him. The music stopped and the moment ended, to say I was disappointed would be an understatement. "I like the view", Shoyo said jokingly (?), he basically climbed on top of me. "Get off shorty! Let me see what's wrong with this damn CD", I was frustrated! Would he have kissed me if the music didn't stop? "What's wrong with it?" he asked. "I don't think it's the CD I think it's the stereo. Guess it's about time I buy a new one" I answered. He looked disappointed and then he focused on my face, not my eyes tho, lower. "I guess we should go to sleep then, good thing it's Saturday
tomorrow" I took some pijamas, changed in the bathroom and then lied right next to him. Before I knew it, the words slipped out of my mouth "Do you wanna go out with me?" I froze. Why did I even say that? "Sure! When?" I didn't want to lie to him and say I wanted a hang out as friends. "I mean...like a date", I swallowed and awaited a response.
"Yeah, I know that's what you meant. I've been flirting with you probably since the first time we met" I felt like a stone that had been sitting on my chest just disintegrated, I was relieved to say the least."
"Dear Diary,
The date was good, then bad, then I felt like I was on another plane of existence.
Let me break it down for you, I got ready for the date and waited for that talking crow to call me to tell me where to pick Shoyo up, "Aye! Resting bitch face! Ya ready!", Woodpecker's voice still sounded like a chainsmoker muppet getting strangled and honestly we got used to insulting each other. Once I got outside he guided me into the woods to what looked like a perfectly normal tree, he told me to knock on it and so I did.
The trees changed shape and a huge hole opened up covered by a curtain "Come in!" I heard Shoyo yell. I entered took off my shoes and took in how big the inside actually was: "This place is so cool, Shoyo!"
"Thank you! Did you bring me those clothes you said you had for me? I only have traditional witch garments", he asked, I pulled out a shirt, shorts and swim trunks out of my tote bag for him, his face changed color as soon as he saw that last thing. "Is everything alright?" I asked, concerned "It's just...look if we're gonna date I might as well tell you...I am trans, and I have scars on my chest...", he said visibly nervous
"I don't care whether you're cis or not, I want to date you!"
, I responded
"But...there is a lot of bad things that happen to trans people all the time just cause they exist, I'm scared that...if I go to the pool or the beach and take my shirt off.. will I be the next face to end up on the news?", he was holding back tears. I didn't know what to say, I could only hug him and tell him that I would never allow that to happen to him and that anyone who'd like to hurt him would have to pass over my dead body to do so.
"Can I just keep my shirt on? I don't care whether we go to the pool or the beach I'm both planning on swimming anyway", he asked, tears streaming down his face. "Of course you can! I wasn't going to force you to do anything anyway we can literally just take a stroll on the beach if you prefer that!", I said.
"T'd love that", Shoyo responded
"Can I ask where your parents are?", I was curious since I saw nobody other than Shoyo in this house.
"I don't know, I don't remember my parents, I ran off into the woods one night after a walk with my parents, got lost found a shiny stone that turned me into a witch and... the memories faded away, elder witches took care of me for awhile then I found Woodpecker and I started living alone, they say that they can always make me a human again but...", he touched his chest "would that mean I'd be a girl again? I don't want that to happen!", he explained.
"I can't tell you what to do but...I say you should go with your gut", I suggested
Our date started with a snack trip to the grocery store. Me and Shoyo were at the drinks ile whenwe heard a woman yell: "Natsu Hinata come back right now!"
A little girl bumped into Shoyo's leg, they looked eerily similar, same hair color, same bone structure, same dumb look in their eyes. "I'm so sorry you two, she just ran off without warning I hope she didn't hurt you when she ran into you", said the girl's mother, she also looked eerily similar to Shoyo, as they left her turned to me with a shocked look
"Hinata...", he mumbled under his breath.
"My name is Shoyo Hinata"
I looked at him, dumbfounded: "You mean those two right there were..."
"Most likely...I guess I have a sister"
He just stared into nothing for a while before coming back to his senses, "I'll deal with that later! Let's focus on our date first!", he took my hand and I felt like a storm of butterflies exploded in my stomach trying desperately to find a way out, we were both extremely red, his face had this adorable dorky grin I wish I could look at for the rest of eternity. After shopping we went down to the beach to have our picnic, there were lots of changing cabins and lots of people too, as soon as we set up our spot I heard a voice calling my name:
"Kageyama!!"
", yelled Tanaka from afar. "Tanaka-
senpai! Didn't expect to see you here", behind him stood a short boy with wet hair of two different colors: "Nishinoya-senpai! I haven't seen you in ages!" Nishinoya had scars on his chest, similar to what I think Hinata's chest must look like, I knew about it, I saw him once in the changing room before he stopped playing.
(Reminder that in this fic, Hinata never convinced Asahi to come back/called him inside the gym so both him and Nishinoya aren't part of the team anymore)
"Nice seeing you again, man!", said Nishinoya
"Who's the short fry?", asked Tanaka
"This is Shoy....Shoyo Hinata, he's my-"
"I'm his date!", he interrupted me
Tanaka whistled, "I didn't know you had a boyfriend, Kageyama!", he teased
I blushed, I would love to call Shoyo my boyfriend one day but it was simply too early, "It's just a first date, calm down!"
This next thingvis going to be a little butchered, Shoyo told me about a conversation he had with Nishinoya while I was bickering with Tanaka,
"How are you saw confident about them?", Shoyo asked him
"About what?", Noya was confused by the question
"Your top surgery scars, how are you not scared of someone attacking you just for existing?", Shoyo explained himself. Noya seemed to pause for a moment,
"If I live in fear of being myself in public, what's the point of going out? These kind of things can happen anywhere even in your own home, just cause there is a chance someone will go Psycho on me I'm not going to change myself to please others! I'm a man dammit! And people will see that I'm proud of being trans whether they like it or not!", Noya's eyes gleamed, according to Shoyo the fire in his eyes could have put the flames of hell to shame.
"But what if it DOES happen?"
', Shoyo was still in his state of paranoia
"There is no nice way to say this really and the chance of that happening isn't even that high, the Americans are the ones we should worry about the most, soif you were to "go" tomorrow, would you rather be ashamed of
who you are in life and regret it in death or would you rather be proud of your identity till your clock stops ticking?", Nishinoya's words were enough to
move something inside Shoyo, he took his shirt off, we swam in the sea, i felt like shit cause 1 remembered why I hate sea-water, salt gets everywhere and all the sand sticks to your legs but overall we had fun
"Are you sleeping over? I wouldn't mind actually having you by my side when I wake up for once, you can use our shower to wash up if you want", I asked him
"What about your parents? Won't they mind?", he asked me, he held my hand as we walked back.
"Nah, they're never home, it's always just me and my older sister and she's been begging for me to bring home someone I like", I explained
"So you like me?", he said in a teasing tone
"What if I do?", I playfully clapped back.
Shoyo snickered a little under his breath
"Stay still for a second", he asked me.
He went up a few of the stone steps in feont of my house, leaned forward and kissed me... on the cheek.
I wasn't upset about it but my lips were literally two centimeters away.
"Can you open the door?", he asked me as if nothing happened.
The cute Witch boy flying outside my window (A Haikyuu fanfic)
Chapter 3: "Oh, won't you kiss me on the mouth and love me like a sailor?"
Notes:
This is a short Chapter to let the story breathe a little, Chapter 4 and 5 will definitely be the most difficult for me to write so please bear with me a little it'll just take a bit longer than a week each (maybe)
I showered before him, I was super nervous to face him after he kissed me. It's not even like he kissed my lips but I literally couldn't stop playing it back in my head.
Would Shoyo think I'm not cool if he found me freaking out like that? I was completely red and flustered, my face was hot buried inside my pillow and I was fighting my every instinct to kick my feet in the air and scream in my pillow. I failed at that but he didn't
see me nor ask about the scream so I think I'm in the clear. My sister made dinner and made me wash the dishes since she had to do it earlier that day, Shoyo "helped" me.
The word "helped" is in quotes cause he mostly just flirted, played with the bubbles and made me wonder, "How does this boy survive on his own?"
We set up a mattress on the floor of my room for him, My asshole of a sister literally threw condoms at my face to embarrass me and I hate that I had it coming cause I did the same when a guy slept over in her room, turns out they're both gay but that's not what we're suppose to focus on right now.
We talked, I explained a few strategies me and the team thought of in case we ever face Ushiwaka in a game. I don't think he payed attention, I'm saying that cause he kept staring at me the same way I look at him whenever I'm lost in thought thinking about him. Not that that happens a lot just like, twice...an hour. "Coin for your thoughts?"*, I asked him
"Just mesmerized by you", he said with a huge smile on his face, he knew what he was doing and goddammit was it working. My face was red and I was left speechless, he was blushing to, his face is adorable but in that moment I could only think of one thing when I looked at him.
* (Do people say that outside of Italy?)
"Can I kiss you?" I actually can't believe I said that
out loud.
Shoyo's face was now just as red as mine, his smile turned to surprise and then to a weird grin like when you're super happy but trying to hide it and act cool.
"I don't know, can you?", It was disappointing to hear him say that but expected.
"May I kiss you?" I corrected myself.
"Please do", he answered, he looked at me in a way that made my heart jump out of my chest.
It was just a peck really, a mere instant but it felt like much longer. It was a weird feeling that I don't know how to describe. (the Author doesn't help by not having had a single romantic interaction ever in his life but whatever ig) It felt like I was in a place where problems don't exist, it was just me and him in the whole universe for just a few seconds.
I smiled like an idiot and covered my face so he wouldn't think I wasn't cool. He giggled like there was no tomorrow. We were both completely flustered. "Don't cover your face, moron!", he said in between giggles "I want to see your face, don't make me feel like the only dork here.", he moved my hands from my face, he was basically completely laying on my chest, our faces were probably two centimeters apart. "You can be my dork..if you want", I figured he wouldn't judge me for being cheesy, I don't think he ever judged me actually. "I would like that" , his eyes were almost hypnotizing.
He kissed me again, and again, I lost count after a while, we didn't want to stop. At one point I lent him some pijamas and he fell asleep while we were spooning watching a movie. As I'm writing all this he's asleep next to me. And he's gonna be there when I wake up too."
"Dear Diary,
As 1 expected, I did wake up before him. I also found out that he's a VERY heavy sleeper. And he snores...he snores a lot and very loudly. But having him next to me actually helps me sleep. Whether he's talking until I fall asleep or he falls asleep in my arms basically. Him existing next to me just puts my mind at ease honestly. I did feel him wake up a few times, and I felt a few kisses being pressed on my forehead or my cheeks in the middle to f the night. At 11am I figured I should wake him up. I kissed him on the cheek and gently tried stirring him awake but I was unsuccessful. I then decided to put the
"Mamma Mia!" Soundtrack on and put on his favorite song, in less than 30 seconds he was awake and singing along to "Lay All Your Love On Me".
Ever since we saw that little girl and her mother Shoyo hasn't been the same. Every time he was left alone with his own thoughts he lost that "glow" he always had. It's like he was constantly thinking about what could have been if he never got lost that day. I wish he didn't have to think about it, but maybe we wouldn't have met if that didn't happen."
"Dear Diary,
It's been a while since I wrote in here. I'm in my second year of High school now. I was frustrated when we didn't get to nationals but Shoyo was there for me, he always makes me feel better in shit situations. I've been trying to find a good way to tell him I love him but I keep chickening out. I mean we've done "stuff" before, and I felt safe with him, Imwas a nervous wreck and scared to do the wrong thing or hurt him some way but that didn't happen. We still see each other pretty much every day or evening but Shoyo still has that thing where he's sad the moment he's left alone with his own thoughts. I'm worried about him."
Notes:
THE FIC IS FINALLY ON AO3!!!!
I'm in class right now but whatever I know this stuff anyway.
I was watching S2 ep while writing the first part of the chapter and it really reminded me how much comfort this show actually brings me and I hope everyone gets to experience this feeling at least once in their lives
The cute Witch boy flying outside my window (A Haikyuu fanfic)
Chapter 4: "I Love You, I'm Sorry"
Notes:
This Chapter was pretty difficult to write and while reading it you're probably going to realize how much I rushed the story but I also accidentally vented a lot at the start
SOOO...brace yourself? Idk just be warned
"Dear Diary,
Shoyo has been visiting less, like way less.
Maybe once or twice a month.
I go over at his tree at least once a week but most of the time I just find Woodpecker the crow, which is a confusing name what idiot decided to name a crow "Woodpecker"?
Shoyo's my favorite idiot tho.
I had to know what was on his mind, how am I supposed to help if I don't know what's upsetting him? I've never been good at this kind of stuff and this conversation was no different
"What's wrong with you lately", starting off strong right there Tobio
"I'm going to allow you to rephrase that question", Shoyo was clearly pissed off by the way that came out
"You've been sad lately, for a while actually, but lately you barely even smile, that smile of pure you-ness that makes you shine bright like the sun is gone", that last part was an accident, I thought out loud and I was totally corny af.
"You think I shine like the sun?", his smile came back for a few seconds bit this time that bright light that always felt like the sun was obscured by clouds.
(Just to clarify this is a metaphor not a witch thing)
"I do but don't you dare change the subject!", I said.
Shoyo sighed and grabbed himself tea he haf just made, it was disgusting but I wasn't going to yell him that in this state, "Ever since I found out my family is still out there and they didn't just not care after I disappeared...I feel like there is this giant rock sitting on my heart. It's weird to explain but it's like something between guilt, Fomo and something else"
"Well why don't we break it down? Why do you feel guilty?", I tried to quote my therapist as best as I could.
"I guess I feel guilty for leaving and making them worry", his eyes usually tried to look at mine every chance they got but this time they averted my gaze as much as possible.
I've never been a fan of eye contact but at that moment I wished to be able to stare at that shine he had in his eyes before he lost it that day.
"Ok, let's remember that for later um..." I paused and hoped to have not said something stupid, "Why the Fomo?", I asked.
He grabbed his shirt, squeezed right wherehis heart was as if trying to stop it from beating out of his chest, oh how I know the feeling, "What happened after I left? I have a sister now and I didn't even fucking know! What else have I missed?"
"Alright, we can unpack that somehow gor sure", I started writing it down on a notepad nearby, "What is that thing you weren't sure of? Can you describe it to me?"
“...What if they forgot me?", his voice cracked, streamed down his face.
"I know the feeling of the fear of being forgotten tho it's probably a little different, I've not always struggled making friends and talking to people. I don't know when of happened but suddenly I was a friendless background character in my own story, with the fear of being remembered only as the
"Volleyball-freak" in middle school...but one thing kept me sane all this time."
"What?", he asked me
"I had someone by my side that never left me, no matter how much of an idiot 1 am sometimes, and I would love to be that person for you too", I put my hand on his cheek, for a moment he looked like he was about to say something but then he just huged me and started sobbing.
I wish I could have helped him more but at least he wasn't bottling up everything anymore.
Telling him "I Love You" in this situation wouldn't be right. I'll find another time to tell him, that's a promise"
"Dear Diary,
Shoyo talks to me more now, I'm glad he trusts me enough to tell me all the things that have been plaguing his mind all of these years.
He asked me on a date today and I didn't think anything of it at first, big mistake.
First of all we went inside the woods, it was weirdly mystical, there was a slight fog in the air, animals didn't flee but instead just looked at us, were they familiars just like Woodpecker?
We stopped next to a river at the feet of a waterfall, he had planned a picnic just like our first date but this time, it was just us.
He had a basket full of food he prepared, which was surprisingly delicious, which made me ask myself, What the fuck does he put in tea to make it taste so awful?
Every time he laughed at something, smiled, or simply looked at me made my heart go crazy, This was the right moment. I opened my mouth to speak and before I could say anything I was splashed with water.
"Jump in, Tobio!", he yelled at me
"I don't think swimming this close to the feet of a waterfall is safe, I yelled back so he could hear me over the waterfall
"It's fine, babe! I do this all the time!", he pulled me into the water and we started splashing each other, the whole thing turned into some sort of competition. When he got tired he jumped into my arms dramatically, I haven't seen him this happy in weeks.
This was the right moment, "I Love You, Shoyo" His face went red, "Uh...I..."
He stuttered a lot before just kissing me, I think that was a good enough of response.
To my surprise he and Woodpecker showed up at my window that night, he had a journal with him. "Do you mind if I stay here a little?", Shoyo asked me.
I said yes but couldn t help but thinking that something was up. He asked to watch "Mamma Mia!" again, fine by me.
Before he went home he asked me to talk, I. Was.
Terrified.
"Tobio, you're the best human I ever met.", he paused. I was petrified.
"And I want to be 100% honest with you, I...am going back to my family.", he looked at me expecting a response.
"Well, that's good isn't it?", I didn't understand the sadness in his voice.
"As a human...I'm going to forget you Tobio...that, was our last date in this timeline.", as the words flew out his mouth my heart felt like a glass shattering.
"W-What do you mean?"
"My time will be turned back, this may be the last time we ever see each other.", how was someone supposed to respond to that?
"I know you keep a diary," he handed me a golden chain and that journal he was holding earlier, "after you write your diary entry tonight, bind my diary and yours with this chain, once it turns rusty you re allowed to remove it, it will not save my memories but if you want to keep yours, that's the way to do it", you may have already been able to tell by the tears on these pages but I'm crying while writing this but I'd rather die than forget Shoyo. He took his broom and kissed my lips one last time, "There's one thing I never got to tell you," he paused before flying off, "I Love You, Tobio Kageyama...and I'm Sorry it had to end like this" and then he flew off"
Notes:
Author is in a period of mental instability, please be nice to Author, they're having a rough time with schoolwork and secretly hopes the school has to be shut down until fall vacation.