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this post was mainly about ford trying to convince himself that he isn't stupid and he used bill as much as bill used him. instead of accepting his feelings or fully admitting what happened, he uses this 'reassurances' as ways to cope. he was the genius who will change the world, and now he became the genius who saved the same world. i imagine him being a little vulnerable around his family and admitting things but mostly he is overly protective about this topic
oh, of course ford might have been naive for believing bill's manipulations but that doesn't exactly mean he is stupid too. sure, bill's intentions were far more different than what he told but regardless, he chose ford. out of every human he could use, he trusted ford's intelligence to build an inter-dimensional portal. and mind you, he succeeded.
"bill was using you" then what? ford was using him too. they were on a deal, actually. that means both parts get something out of it. plus, he was a little too much focused on his feelings, his admiration. if not he would've definitely realized something is off with bill.
would he though?
when bill told a story about how he cut a disrespectful garbage's head and displayed it on a square, a lesson to all, ford murmured. when bill sectioned human kind in two; people like ford & others and talked about how much of a material waste others are, how they will never understand ford and exploit his intelligence, ford thought about certain someone who looks just like him. he nodded in agreement when bill casually kept going on how it would be better if they erase out of existence.
he had similar thoughts after all. bill was just more open and violent about them. but wasn't bill always like that? ford never saw those ideas as cracks in bill's mask or slip-ups from his manipulation. he was just bill.
even now he doesn't think bill lied to him all the time because he didn't have to. ford felt himself shiver. those weren't cues for him to realize. he knew and admired bill regardless. admired him with them. admired him because of them.
Did I seriously forget to post this here? Ah well, here ya go.
I made this like. Weeks ago for a club zine that isn't even available anymore
Eh well. I've been wanting to show off more of Cordy and Coyote's relationship anyhow. Their dynamic is one of my favorites in the story-
Plus, horse.
[image id, because i forgot to include it at first: the silhouettes of vang0 bang0, dapper dasha, and burger chainz, standing on a highway. behind them are the lights of night city, a cyberpunk futuristic city. vang0, a slim and shorter man with a bob and shorts the only visible characteristics, is sitting on the highway guardrail, head in his hands. dapper dasha, a slender, tall woman with long hair and a skirt, stands to the left, facing vang0 and crossing her arms. burger chainz, a broad and tallish man stands nearby in a neutral and nonthreatening pose. he has spiky hair and is wearing baggy clothing. at the top of the picture, the cyberpunk red logo is followed by a slash and then the polygon logo. /end id]
someone commented that the image of vang0’s crisis on the highway would make a good poster.
i agreed.
(2 hours, ibispaint x, my iphone and a finger.)
new javey think just dropped!! (cw for mention of sh scars!!!)
Davey needs a breath of fresh air.
He travels up to the roof of the building, taking the stairs instead of the elevator becuase the last thing he wants right now is to feel nauseous.
His chest feels tight, his eyes are sore.
Maybe it's not worth it.
He reaches the roof, opening the door and feeling the cool breeze on his wet cheeks as he glanced around.
He sees another figure on the roof- he's not alone.
Who else would be out here at this time of night?
When Jack hears the door to the roof open, he turns. He doesn’t whip around in surprise, he's far too tired. He turns, almost lethargically.
The figure has the same curls and chiseled nose as David Jacobs. Even in the dark of the night, it's clear he’s been crying. His shoulders are drawn up near his ears and his hands are wringing an invisible towel, trembling slightly.
His voice carries on the wind: ‘Jack?’
He replies, hoping his voice carries the same way: ‘David?’
It's like a Western standoff. The moon slinks behind a cloud. The stars toss beautiful shadows across Davey’s cheeks, shiny with tears.
‘Come here.’ Jack says softly, gesturing to the view. ‘Look.’
Davey begins to walk over, stumbling a little over his own feet. He looks out at the view- it's beautiful. Windows shine like stars, cars flow on the streets like rivers of lights and electricity. Electricity flows through Davey’s veins. Jack’s shoulder touches his.
The sleeves of Jack’s hoodie are drawn up, and his hands dangle over the edge of the building. Constellations of scars and freckles litter his arms. The scars: methodical, patterned, they are buildings, they are cars. The freckles: tossed haphazardly across Jack’s skin, they are dappled light, they are stars.
Davey always had a bit of a thing about stars.
‘Are you alright, Dave?’ Jack asks the city skyline.
'I'm…’ Davey sighs towards the bank building. ‘I’m alright. Better now that I’m chatting to you. Better now that I’m getting some fresh air.’
Jack hums, slipping a hand around Davey’s shoulders.
‘The city’s beautiful at night, iddnit?’
‘It reminds me of you.’
hey guys who likes wild life *raises hand* I mean really likes it, loves it in fact *raises hand even higher, stands on tippy toes for how high I’m raising my hand* no I mean like loves it is obsessed with it it is your pride and joy *falls over from how high I am raising my hand, stands back up and goes to space with how high I’m raising my hand* yeah but can you prove it by spending 5 hours rendering grass to be almost entirely covered up? *me: bet*
First of all thank you boat boys discord and especially Risi for sponsoring this drawing lol and by sponsoring I mean loudly proclaiming the virtues of gribeans in my immediate vicinity. Anyway yeah they are meant to be standing in front of the bam hill with the wings blocking the top and the sun just peaking over them. Also the words on the explosion are lyrics from the song Don’t You Dare Forget the Sun by Get Scared which inspired the poses
Anyway as soon as I figure out how to draw cars it’s all over for you guys I will project my very specific vision that is essentially a combination of danger days good omens and back to the future onto you all I have so many thoughts!!!!! I will elaborate in the future, I will elaborate so much that you will say “Ian, shut up with your elaborating” and also I have an au based on session seven planned because the superpowers happened to coincide with an overly complex magic system I’ve been developing for about five months now lol slowly in the background. Also maybe an animatic if I can figure that out maybe possibly don’t hold me to that…? At least I know no one will take the song I’m planning to use in the meantime lol because the MCR and trafficblr fandom overlap is fairly small.
I’m really proud of this so I’m reblogging. Please give me validation not that I need it of course oh no I’m so handsome and smart and talented and humble I don’t need to ask for validation because I’m already the validest I’m only asking for it so that you guys can practice complimenting other, less confident people. You believe me.
hey guys who likes wild life *raises hand* I mean really likes it, loves it in fact *raises hand even higher, stands on tippy toes for how high I’m raising my hand* no I mean like loves it is obsessed with it it is your pride and joy *falls over from how high I am raising my hand, stands back up and goes to space with how high I’m raising my hand* yeah but can you prove it by spending 5 hours rendering grass to be almost entirely covered up? *me: bet*
First of all thank you boat boys discord and especially Risi for sponsoring this drawing lol and by sponsoring I mean loudly proclaiming the virtues of gribeans in my immediate vicinity. Anyway yeah they are meant to be standing in front of the bam hill with the wings blocking the top and the sun just peaking over them. Also the words on the explosion are lyrics from the song Don’t You Dare Forget the Sun by Get Scared which inspired the poses
Anyway as soon as I figure out how to draw cars it’s all over for you guys I will project my very specific vision that is essentially a combination of danger days good omens and back to the future onto you all I have so many thoughts!!!!! I will elaborate in the future, I will elaborate so much that you will say “Ian, shut up with your elaborating” and also I have an au based on session seven planned because the superpowers happened to coincide with an overly complex magic system I’ve been developing for about five months now lol slowly in the background. Also maybe an animatic if I can figure that out maybe possibly don’t hold me to that…? At least I know no one will take the song I’m planning to use in the meantime lol because the MCR and trafficblr fandom overlap is fairly small.
hey guys so this is actually literally my favorite thing I’ve ever drawn so I am in fact going to keep reblogging it.
also in other news fill out the Smallishzine interest form please I need this zine to happen. I need to be in it.
I’ve spent an insert adjective here amount of time crafting a real life!zombiecleo fanart to make a magic the gathering pun that no one in a million years will get.
It says unstitched. I am a winner Cleo truther, and I love the un- sets, and I decided to put those two things together. This also ties into my unintelligible headcannons about the life series. Anyway I hope you enjoyed or at least weren’t disgusted by this drawing of Cleo coming apart at the seams ^^
Alt versions (text overlayed on top, textless and backgroundless) below the cut vvv
I’ve spent an insert adjective here amount of time crafting a real life!zombiecleo fanart to make a magic the gathering pun that no one in a million years will get.
It says unstitched. I am a winner Cleo truther, and I love the un- sets, and I decided to put those two things together. This also ties into my unintelligible headcannons about the life series. Anyway I hope you enjoyed or at least weren’t disgusted by this drawing of Cleo coming apart at the seams ^^
Alt versions (text overlayed on top, textless and backgroundless) below the cut vvv