Tc Confessions - Blog Posts

It's killing me how I love him so much yet I can't even talk with him properly.

Me after not seeing him for 2 days 😍 (I don’t need help I need to see him)

No because having a tc did kinda mess me up in the head a little bit. Like why am I, a minor out here knowing damn well it’s wrong and illegal but deep down still hoping that he finds me pretty and feeding into my own delusions. Like dear me, please quit already 😭 I didn’t even have a thing for older men before I met my tc but my brain chemistry was altered the moment I met him, like wtf happened and why did it happen.

Someone Like You by Adele literally describes it. I know it’s impossible for us to happen but maybe one day I’ll find someone like him closer to my age.

It’s not certain which teacher will enter my class’ French lessons next year. What if it’s not him? Oh my gosh. I literally wouldn’t be able to take it. Please please please let him be my French teacher next year as well, this is one of my biggest wishes right now. There is a high chance that another teacher might enter therefore I’m really scared. I’d be devastated because I cherish every moment of his lessons.

It’s a bit concerning and bitter that I can picture myself a few years from now, on a plane on my way to move to France (my tc is French and teaches French) after graduating and just thinking about him on my way. Will the whole city remind me of him? Will I find a glimpse of him on the streets of France? Will I be able to forget him or will this longing always remain? Will I never see him again? :( I don’t even have his number or anything but there’s a while until I graduate and maybe I’ll ask sometime. It’s just so distressing for me.