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I'm rewatching Hannibal and an AU came to me… unexpectedly.
(Togachako) Hero x Serial killer!AU (feat. pro hero!Deku and Dynamight) ~☆
tw: bad English, lots of rambling, toxic relationship, we're not romanticizing tgck so proceed with caution (and after reading the disclaimer, please), any tw you can associate with Himiko Toga is here (nothing graphic though), overanalysing stuff, amateur psychology and all, dark content in general
Ochako has been unsure what she wants to do after finally starting her hero career, so she basically tries anything she can reach.
Working in the sea with Tsu, galas and interviews with Yaomomo, traveling with Deku (I feel he'd want to spend the rest of his power to see the world and his lots and lots of friends overseas). This time she finds herself getting into the world of quirk-related investigations under the tutelage of Katsuki whose solved criminal case count rapidly approaches the one of Endeavor (his character arc calls to me to be continued after Endeavor's path, please don't pay attention haha).
And with all that, she still tries to save face, knowing that she could've stopped this particular deranged story with just a word.
Why? Well, maybe she knows that no person in the world can leave DNA of people long dead and flaunt bloody confessions on the walls at the same time. No person who's not Himiko Toga.
The traps are set, the cycle starts its turn…
The very start:
° Himiko has genuine fun taunting Ochako with killing civilians while wearing her face
° She thinks she'll give Ochako the "freedom of expressing love" in a way she assumes Ochako wants but can't afford
° Himiko doesn't hide the fact she kills for Ochako and with Ochako's name on her lips
° Himiko torments her victims being transformed into whoever strikes her fancy, but the final strike is always performed so the last thing the poor prey sees is soulful, most gorgeous brown eyes in the world
° Himiko steals blood from the organization Ochako donors for (it's her way of coping with the trauma left by the Final Battle)
° Knowing the traces of her DNA are left at the crime scene even if she certainly didn't leave them there slowly corrodes Ochako's mental defenses
° She starts dreaming and hallucinating about killing those people herself until she can't tell reality from these images
° At one point she sees herself killing people wearing Himiko's face
° Himiko certainly uses it to her advantage. Who'd know when she gets into Ochako's apartment to whisper about all the ways she torments people from the shadowed corners?
° Guilt-tripping Ochako into justifying her actions too
As the madness progresses:
° Ochako can't draw the line between herself and Himiko anymore
° They complete each other in no way that is socially acceptable, but it feels right
° Ochako still tries to convince herself she's a good person and now this applies to Himiko as well because Himiko is "her" now too
° It's like they're drowning and melting into each other, minds a mingled mess of issues and fears, clinging, warping, breaking...
° Ochako's hands are bloody and Himiko hugs her from behind, cooing sweet nothings into her ear as they stare down at the newest "masterpiece" together
° Clay, warm hands and shaking fingers
° Ochako feels phantom touches on her skin all the time
° Himiko is being all giddy and "affectionate" with her victims, calling them "cute little presents" which she leaves for Ochako
The final stages:
° Ochako has a dream of killing Izuku. She fantasizes about it a lot later. There are tons of guilt and self-loathing, but she feels it would be the right thing to do. Become a way to "thank" Himiko by showing her effort isn't one-sided. She somehow knows it'd end the vicious cycle, but she just can't
° The Devil and Stockholm Syndrome (it's kinda questionable, I know, so we're taking it with a grain of salt)
° Dissociation
° Devil's advocate
° Cases named after astronomical phenomena
° Christmas, and Ochaco finds a bunch of vials filled with blood, all wrapped in a pretty thick red ribbon with a pompous bow on top. It's the legacy they've created together
Note:
I don't see the two as a healthy romantic relationship (I don't say you can't, it's just my opinion), so this scenario is relatively close to what I'd call realistic. Ochako who sees herself as a good person in any case (even if she's just too selfish to confront herself deep inside) and Himiko who takes the role of the bad part where Ochako can't.
Psychobabble (I'm no professional, it's more about how I feel than anything):
I based this whole AU on the traits I found in original manga and just extrapolated/exaggerated them into whatever this is now
Ochako loses feeling of what differs saving others and saving oneself and chooses to save "herself" (aka Himiko) in the end
Ochako is outright childish. She can't let the mask of a "hero" slip only because it's her shield against the world. She's torn apart by the ideas society put in her head, she can't imagine the concepts of "protect the weak" and "everyone is valid" existing together
In the end, she just resorts to the Friend or Foe (mine/anyone else) worldview so it's easier to process. Of course, what is "hers" is always considered as right and justified
Her empathy for Himiko has gotten to the point where it starts to consume her. She projects herself, her fears and motivations on Himiko, and it only makes things worse
Although, her empathy is quite selective. She can't empathize with the families of those who are killed by Toga. She thinks she can, but it comes from the guilt brewing inside her (it's still focused on self), not actual ability to put herself in others' place
Ochako feels she can be "like Deku", that she can save and forgive "bad people" like him. She finds comfort in such thoughts and hides behind them so she doesn't need to acknowledge the drastic differences in the situations
About the character archetypes:
For Ochako I can't figure out just one, but if I name the type it'd be "Not Bad But Confused" probably. Issues come from the fact her personality is too adaptive, and her worldview has shifted severely and continues to do so. In this situation, her way of coping happened to be finding an anchor in the wrong person, it happens to people all the time in real life too after all
Himiko shows as a symbolic "Devil", her presence is more phantom/ephemeral. Yes, she poisons Ochako's thoughts greatly, but the most work is done by Ochako and her own insecurities
Deku is similar to her, more of a symbol than a character. He's needed more as a deity-like/almost religious presence. Kinda ironic that his original character is heavily under the Hero Myth's (not sure how it's called in English, sorry) influence which is connected to the Bible in some ways
Katsuki stands out a bit as he's clearly the "workaholic cop" (workaholic hero in our case), no more than that as per his role. He's here so Ochako can value herself as "above his way of thinking". Side by side she clearly comes out as more "understanding" and sympathetic (NOT EMPATHETIC, don't confuse the terms!). Well, he's the person to bring her back to earth. A stoic one without a prominent character arc (it's often considered bad, but a flat arc can also be fine when handled properly)
Dividers are created by me.
If you're willing to take this AU under your wing or do something inspired by it, please credit me (you can tag me too)
my lovelies @dailytogachako @bigclownshoes @luxkycharmz you asked me to tag you, I hope I didn't forget anyone...
-You taste awful, exactly like crap.
-You say that... but you're drooling all over!
Reading toxic yuri but shaking my head the whole time so the fbi knows I’m reading it through a critical lens
TOGACHAKO + ADAM AND EVE PARREL OMG!! (I am not delusional)
Uraraka being Adam the first (wo)men created ever, Horikoshi has stated during Jump Festa 2022 that "Toga was a character created specifically for Ochako, and I've developed Ochako to match Toga". like how God took a rib from Adam to create Eve to match him, Toga eats the apple (or the fruit whatever it was) like eve, and they both gained a new perspective, Eve realized everything while Toga realized most heroes don't see villains as humans (AM I COOKED - OR AM I COOKING???)
Toga tries to make Uraraka see the same and sooner than later, Uraraka eats the apple (she's realizes toga's perspective), if you're into DOOMED yuri. Switch the roles, Deku is the first man and uraraka is his girl, The snake (TOGA) convinces Uraraka to eat the apple (she her perspective) and Uraraka convinces Deku to do the same BOOM
how to defeather a swan
embrace
The first ever gay ship I shipped was fucking toxic yuri and I feel like that describes my childhood perfectly
ending 10 ithink maybe idk
This is what inspired the script above.
Emps after finding out the Primarchs are doing the hanky panky:
The Emperor knows
(This story is interchangeable, but I'm using the female Primarchs from the Femmarch au)
*The Scene: The Emperor has called his daughters to an impromptu private council. None of the sisters know why, but it's pretty clear how serious this is*
Emps: Listen, im going to make this clear and concise. *he narrows his eyes and scans over his daughters* I know.
Horus: Know what, father?
Emps: Don't Bullshit me! I KNOW...
*All the sisters begin looking around awkwardly at each other or shamefully away from each other*
Emps: It was brought to my attention, and while truthfully, I couldn't care less what escapades each of you get up to in your own time. If these activities were to come to light, it would set the wrong example for our Imperium. So, if all of your "relations" are to continue, ensure they are kept quiet.
Fulgrim: *evil smile* That means you two. *she points to Guilliman and Angron*
Angron :What do you mean, us!?!
*Angron raging and nearly leaps across the table at her sadistic sister. Guilliman holds her back*
Fulgrim:*laughs* Oh, come on! Last night, I swear all of Terra could hear you two from orbit.
* Both Guilliman and Angron sit back, blushing ashamed*
Khan: You're one to speak Phoenician. You and Ferrus are practically inside one another any chance you get.
Fulgrim: Ahh, just like you and dear Magnus when you lock yourselves in the library for "Special Research"
Sanguinius: Alright, I think we've all had our fun. Now--
Fulgrim: I don't wanna hear any lectures from you! We all know who actually holds Horus' leash.
*Sanguinius sits back down flustered. Horus leans over, trying to comfort her*
Emps: Alright, Enough! As I said, I was made aware of all your escapades. This means I DO NOT want to HEAR NOR SEE anything outside of your private chambers. Do I make myself clear?
*All the primarchs nod in acknowledgement, except Mortarion*
Mortarion: *confused* Wait. You're all fucking?
---*End scene*---
(This is basically my scripting process when I make comics)
The Emperor knows
(This story is interchangeable, but I'm using the female Primarchs from the Femmarch au)
*The Scene: The Emperor has called his daughters to an impromptu private council. None of the sisters know why, but it's pretty clear how serious this is*
Emps: Listen, im going to make this clear and concise. *he narrows his eyes and scans over his daughters* I know.
Horus: Know what, father?
Emps: Don't Bullshit me! I KNOW...
*All the sisters begin looking around awkwardly at each other or shamefully away from each other*
Emps: It was brought to my attention, and while truthfully, I couldn't care less what escapades each of you get up to in your own time. If these activities were to come to light, it would set the wrong example for our Imperium. So, if all of your "relations" are to continue, ensure they are kept quiet.
Fulgrim: *evil smile* That means you two. *she points to Guilliman and Angron*
Angron :What do you mean, us!?!
*Angron raging and nearly leaps across the table at her sadistic sister. Guilliman holds her back*
Fulgrim:*laughs* Oh, come on! Last night, I swear all of Terra could hear you two from orbit.
* Both Guilliman and Angron sit back, blushing ashamed*
Khan: You're one to speak Phoenician. You and Ferrus are practically inside one another any chance you get.
Fulgrim: Ahh, just like you and dear Magnus when you lock yourselves in the library for "Special Research"
Sanguinius: Alright, I think we've all had our fun. Now--
Fulgrim: I don't wanna hear any lectures from you! We all know who actually holds Horus' leash.
*Sanguinius sits back down flustered. Horus leans over, trying to comfort her*
Emps: Alright, Enough! As I said, I was made aware of all your escapades. This means I DO NOT want to HEAR NOR SEE anything outside of your private chambers. Do I make myself clear?
*All the primarchs nod in acknowledgement, except Mortarion*
Mortarion: *confused* Wait. You're all fucking?
---*End scene*---
(This is basically my scripting process when I make comics)
Juno (Fem Guilliman) The Fem Primarch of the UltraMOOrines is dominated by her dear sister, Atlantia (fem Angron) Lioness of Khorne.
Fem Magnus found out her sister (Fem Jagathai) is fast in every respect
* Also, I know this one is not gonna be promoted as much cause it's shmexy, so might you please reblog perchance 🥺👉👈*
Don't you love when ur stress toy is regenerative. Don't mind the tears. She asked for it.
This is slowly becoming my favourite ship. I relate so much to fem Vulkan here. Now, all I need is my own fem Konrad! 🫠
Here, have more fem Vulcan x Konrad art 😆 🤣
So here is my Fem Vulkan design and some fun primarchcest art.
A friend brought this ship to my attention, and I love it. I expect hotter more spicy art tomorrow, hopefully!!!
Okay, I wanted to try actually doing some depraved art. Thanks to all my moots for finally pushing me over the edge.
I call it
"Fulgrim and her failed Ferra clones"
She had Fabius make her clones of Ferra, but none matched the original. But why be wasteful?
So I don't know why, or how, but I got my toxic yuri wires crossed! So here have the crossover/mix up au that is the Ochako Heresy
Sorry, I'm reblogling cuz I feel nobody saw this 😭
Some shitty sketches of Bovine Juno reunited with her ex lover/sister Atlantia Lioness of Khorne
Happy Valentines Day! I'm just gonna go buy some more minis and finish my fnaf marines, hopefully.
Some shitty sketches of Bovine Juno reunited with her ex lover/sister Atlantia Lioness of Khorne
Happy Valentines Day! I'm just gonna go buy some more minis and finish my fnaf marines, hopefully.