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I want to quit my freaking job. It's absolute hell. Walmart is paying 14.50 and it's still not enough. You can't pay me enough to have an existential crisis every time I think about my job. It's not worth it. I can't keep up with the speed and accuracy they require. I can only do one or the other, and they're probably going to eventually fire me if I don't quit. I'm so tired. I'll burn myself out soon if I don't quit.
Tw: suicide (dont worry, I'm not attempting. And please don't report me.)
Quick question for anyone who might have an answer.
How common is it for people to think of attempting suicide to avoid going to work? Like... Nobody ever seems to WANT to go to work, and some jobs feel like hell. It seems like it would be really common... But then again, I'm kind of fragile (emotionally), and can't imagine NOT being fragile. I'm not going to attempt. It's just something I thought about, because the thought of doing that popped into my head. If I succeeded, there'd be no more work, no ridicule or gossip, no worries about what might happen if I start hrt while working or worries about my future, being alone, or in pain, or being a failure. If I failed, I could probably get a psychiatrist, like I needed to years ago. It would be expensive, and I'd probably get sent to a psych ward, but still. I don't want to go to work. I would probably be content sitting in a decent psych ward for a few years. Idk. I hate being an adult.
Welcome, esteemed guests! Tonight's mental shit show will feature stories such as:
"I've Convinced Myself That All of my Co-workers Hate my Guts and Want me Gone! Do They have a Reason? Probably! But it Wouldn't Matter if They Didn't!"
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Walked my silly little clumsy ass into work tonight and broke a jar. One hour into my shift and I broke a glass jar... :|
I want to go home omfg
But I can't and they're making me work EXTRA fast. I can't keep up with the pace and they might fire me :p
first job. walmart. sucks. I think i was mildly depressed before and maybe didn’t really notice; now i REALLY feel it. Ive been crying freaking rivers the past few days. especially before and after work. and its so hard to keep it mostly hidden. i felt guilty and useless before for not doing much with my time, but it hasnt really changed. im so tired and fucking upset. its so hard, but they tell me to be happy that im making so much for a place like walmart, i hate it. i never wanted to grow up and suffer, i just wanna feel okay. i wanna run away from all of this, maybe even disappear. this world is so painful. maybe im not cut out for all of this, i just wanna sleep