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the plight of a writer with adhd and major executive dysfunction issues

I WANT TO MAKE ART BUT INSTEAD OF MAKING ART I JUST SIT AROUND AND FEEL BAD ABOUT NOT MAKING ART AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUGHHGHHG

being a writer is all fun and games until i have to actually write something and then im staring at a blank document for three hours as if the perfect words are going to come to me

crying as I attempt to clear out my reqs but writers block just has to shove itself in here 😓😓

Martra’s Astronomy

Geez, that was me from the past trying to understand day’s duration in Martra (my fictional planet). What did I do here???? 😦

Before trying to explain, here are the “Moons” that work in Martra:

Marsulon (Big Moon): shines faintly, like a sunset or sunrise.

Divulon (Mid Moon): TOO shiny, scorching, very harmful for health

Nixulon (Minor Moon): like a black hole, total darkness no matter if there are fire or lanterns

So, APPARENTLY, the day has 21 hours. In this meantime, it goes like:

Marsulon: 10 hours

Divulon: 24 minutes

Marsulon: 10 hours

Nixulon: 12 minutes

Divulon: 24 minutes

In the first image there’s the ordinary routine for a Martran, but it may change depending on profession and species.

Now, you don’t ask me how I came up with this timing, cuz I won’t know how to explain it ☠️ I even searched a planet rotation simulator to understand it lol.

So, I was watching Avengers Age of Ultron yesterday, and I decided to bring my fic back to life 🫶🏽

The Enhanceds

I’m reviewing the chapters I posted in 2023, and only then posting them again. And I HOPE I’LL BE ABLE TO WRITE MORE CHAPTERS. (I’m too inconsistent, sorry 😞)

Here, thinking about Kenyan’s state in the main story.

I need to decide if she’ll be still fighting or if she gave up already, cuz it’ll change A LOT of the story.

If she’s fighting:

She has no idea Ethan is in Martra.

Ethan will see her for the first time in an execution and she’ll look away

She’ll fight Sylris to know wth Ethan is doing there

She won’t know how to react if Ethan tries to talk to her personally

She won’t tell him the whole truth, afraid of burdening him with the problems she has been protecting him from.

Ethan will get mad at her, but will notice something is wrong

Hiélo will be there to explain things to Ethan

Ethan will try to save his mum, etc etc etc… next things are too much spoiler

Now, if she gave up:

She’ll ask Sylris to bring Ethan to Martra, so they can stay in family

She probably won’t be holding executions now that she knows he’s somewhere in Martra ☠️

She’ll look for him hard, and Behati will think Ethan is some kind of wanted criminal

Ethan is taken to the castle and “WOAH, MUM?!” and Kenyan will cry hard while hugging him

Sylris will be the utmost example of a great father, trust him

Kenyan will try to explain everything, but telling a filtered story where things don’t sound as bad as it was

Kenyan and Sylris will fight about whether revealing him as their son or not (Maivtre shouldn’t have a male child)

Sylris finds a way to make it valid and kinda forces Ethan to accept it

Ethan feels overwhelmed, etc etc etc… I don’t know what would happen next lmao

The first idea is in my mind since some time, but the second might be good too cuz it might confuse Ethan more. “What? My mum left me just to stay with my father?! And the reason she didn’t take me with her was ‘because it was too far away and in a strange/dangerous world’????”

THE POOR GUY JUST KNOWS SUFFERING

AAAAA I WANTED TO HAVE PATIENCE TO MAKE ANIMATIONS, SO I COULD MAKE VIDEOS OF KENYAN WITH THESE SONGS:::

They’re so her.

I want to do a playlist for all the characters too, but somehow I only remember of Kenyan when searching songs (is this an addiction???? 😨)

What’s your biggest source of inspiration for Ethan :D

Were there any characters that inspired you? Any Music, movies, books, etc.

Myself—

I wish I was kidding lol 😀

Tbh, I don’t know how to make things inspired on others; at least, not in a conscious level. Like, if I hear a song, the best I can do is read the lyrics and think about some animation I could do with that, but other than that? “Sry, my mind was busy understanding the media ✋🏽”

So… Ethan is a scaredy cat, people-pleaser, trying to feel loved again. This is all about me????? I don’t know how it ended up like this, I swear I didn’t realize he was like this when I was writing about him.

But the main idea I had while writing the current Ethan was: “He is a normal guy. The most normal guy ever, living a normal life. Then he goes to a weird world, like isekai stories, but instead of dominating it, he will be scared/sad/worried the whole time, just like any normal person would be at a weird world where you don’t know anyone.”

It just annoys me how they put kids and teenagers to fight a big evil, and they’re fine with it, and they win???? No way. If it was me, I’d die in spot.

Now the thing is that I inserted Maya in this world as well, it wasn’t in my plans, so it will probably change more of his feelings, I don’t know…

(And my opinion about Ethan? He’s not my favorite guy. I don’t like him a lot. Maybe cuz he represents the weak part of me?… I prefer Kenyan, who’s just the mad/“I give up” part of me. And yeah, this family is all based on myself, including Sylris; fight me)

I was writing a random angst scene with Kenyan and Hiélo, but I didn’t know what word I should use, so I Googled it.

“Turned on his heel”, was it, but I just can’t take this seriously ☠️ I dunno why, but when I read it, I always imagine someone spinning on place, then leaving. So it goes like this:

sometimes the best writing advice is "just let it be bad." revolutionary. terrifying. but it works.

me planning out my story: this will be so straightforward and easy!

me writing: why is there a subplot about flour?

Story Stuff

Phases

The story will be in phases how many I've yet to decide.

Phase 1 will depict an introduction to the main human characters, an introduction to the main setting of the RV as well as the secondary setting of the hotel that they're staying in as the RV is in for repairs. Phase one will also show how the reader came across the shutdown of The Mega Pizza Plex

Phase 2 will be the reader's experience inside of the Pizza Plex, From when they come in till when they eventually leave with the Daycare Attendant. I also would like phase 2 to be some sort of team-building exercise for the reader to go through with the daycare attendant’s ade [Very similar to what @sleepyjuniper is doing with Visions(Or Lack Thereof)]. Originally the daycare attendant’s main goal was to get The Reader out of the building but as they started getting to like the reader they realize they had nothing to lose and everything to gain if they left with them.

Phase 3 will be a hiding Phase of sorts with the reader having to sneak the daycare attendant into their room at the hotel, where they would hide in their closets till being found by one of the reader's friends. During this time I think the reader would start to do repairs on the daycare attendant. I plan to have this phase rather short as it is very difficult to hide a gigantic sentient robot.

Phase 4 is them now on the road and with the whole group having the knowledge of their new animatronic roommate. This will be the long friendship stage where the DCA is getting to know the group and later be accepted into it. This will be in will be either Sun or Moon’s POV’s.

Phase 5 of the story is going to be parts of the daycare attendant and The reader getting to know each other by going to different places and experimenting with their relationship, Because of my hatred towards the trope of the reader not being able to take a hint I will not be doing that, and instead, for the sake of my own sanity, I will have BOTH the DCA and the reader aware of the attraction of the other and aware that the other holds that knowledge, but the reader and the DCA don't quite know how to respectfully reciprocate that onto the other so they are NOT DATING(Yet). All in all this phase will be them EXPERIMENTING with each other to see what works for them there will be some light kissing and some touching but smut will come later(If I decide to write it).

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I will be posting this on AO3 once I figure out how to use it and make an account.

This is also my first GOOD Story I've written and because of that the chapters might be a little short.

I've 'finished' the first chapter and am about to start on the second. I will keep you posted on my progress.

researching for my kid fic has fucked up my algorithm so bad, every social media app thinks im a new mother now. the only ads i get are ones like this⬇️

like nooo you have to understand 😭 im only a guy in my twenties, im not ready to be a teen mom

how you know ive been writing 💀

crazy to think at the beginning of this year i had 0 idea what a productive writing process should look like, and every time i tried to write it felt insanely hard. like writing 200 words in a day felt like a major accomplishment, and i had never even managed to complete One full scene before.

but now!! i actually have some of my writing posted! and i have a bunch of wips that feel like theyre actually possible for me to complete 100%! idk, its just that, even tho i dont have much to show for it rn, im feeling proud of myself and i got the urge to share.

lets gooo 💪!! hopefully ill have more to show you guys soon!!

I need you're help guys!

guys I haven't written in so long but I really want to so help a person out

I have this OC I want to give a visual representation but I can't draw and no character creators have enough options to accurately depict him

Yeah...

Usually it’s video games instead of music but this is pretty much accurate hehe