My Head Feels Like It’s Been Filled With Cotton, And My Vision Is Swimming In The Most Subtle Way.

i want to be loved in the same amount that i love.

i’m a sick, sick man, aren’t i.

sick for wanting the duality of life itself, sick for wanting you. sick for wanting you at your worst, the screaming and manipulation and threat. sick for wanting you at your best, even if your best is feral and violent and obsessive.

i will bow before your alter, for forever, if it means i get to be near you for forever.

i want him at the red crescent-moon-shaped indents that bubble up blood as i beg and plead and cry, and i want him at the soft, soothing, big brown eyes as we both gently whisper murmurings of forgiveness.

i am but a sick man.

I mean what else would i think about? All i’ve been doing recently is stalking your page and sending asks. You’re fun to talk to, it’s fun to see how you interact with me and the other anons you talk to on here

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well, it’s flattering that i’m taking up so much of your time.

i’m glad you consider me fun. not many people would.

as for how i interact with everyone, i try to be interesting.

don’t you know that I’M the only one who can satisfy you in this way? the only one who could quench that deep, growing need to take control? the only one you let close, the only one you let lie in your bed at night?

i’m the only one.

You're too sweet! We usually keep up our "who gives a damn" attitude, but — we are surrounded by some people who think it's odd. You'll never find us talking about how there can't be other fictives, but they're simply not.. us! My own gripes, though, I'm sure you understand!

I hope you have a fantastic day, Captain.

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right on the money, sweetheart.

a fictive can be connected to their sources, but two fictives, from two different systems, with the same source connection are NOT the same.

i wish for you to have a wonderful day too, anon! remember that my inbox and my dms are always free :)

Hi :3

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hello!

why do i feel rejected so easily

breakfast? what’s that?

( this is a joke, i had two cookies and a dr pepper for breakfast. )

no it definitely goes beyond a little. ur mines now dude, no takesies backsies

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what an odd thing to say. considering i don’t even know who you are, it feels like one of those shitty stalker romances daisuke lent me.

y'know, oblivious. blissfully unaware. i'll give you some credit, though. i'm in a better mood. surprise, surprise ":^[

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i try to not confront certain things, especially if it’s negative. i act “blissfully unaware” in that sense.

what’s got you in such a good mood?