Won’t You Love Me In The Most Vile Way Possible? . . . Won’t You Hurt Me In The Most Saccharine Way

I'm homesick for arms that don't even want to hold me.

i am never going to be good enough.

you’re going to leave like everyone else.

whether it be because you got bored, or because i upset you, or because you realize i’m just not worth it,

you’re going to leave.

and i’m not ready for you to go just yet…

you act like i don't know these things about you, grant. as for my mood shift, maybe i lighten up seeing you try to defend yourself.

what's got you in a mood?

– ✘

i’m in no such mood.

and i apologize for assuming. that was quite silly of me, considering how long we’ve been friends!

If you saw how much you might be a little more concerned than flattered, but i can’t complain.

And yay! I love it when my obsessions acknowledge me tehe

-🌀

who said i wouldn’t be even more flattered?

i like knowing you'll be there, without fail. i like seeing you sulk about it. it's endearing.

– ✘

it is not endearing. i’m not just some stupid dog, jimmy.

nsfw, poll and slutposting under the cut.

i wonder what color they’d like…

i have dark red, light red, baby pink, black…

baby pink and black are practically just scraps of lace, they don’t cover much..

dark red has a little opening in the front, like a tit window, almost but for…yeah.

and the light red has this little heart chain that goes across the back..

i have this pretty black top, too! i just wonder what color they’d like… won’t you help me choose?

Everyone can, but does that mean everyone should? Do I really deserve to know what that feels like? I so desperately want to be loved and cared for, but Im a spineless burden. Spineless burdens dont get to be loved.. Especially not ones so damaged that they arent trusted to be able to keep them selves safe..

-⛓

now, don’t talk like that.

you are not a spineless burden. and you are worthy of love.

i’m sensing that you’ve gone through it. and that’s okay. you will heal. i promise.

Honestly it probably isn’t that far off from one considering how often i’m stalking your account/hj but enough about that. Do you have any favorite people? Can I pretty please be one?

-🌀

i suppose you could.

and awe, you stalk my accounts? i’m flattered.

infatuation runs through my veins, seeps from my pores, coats my skin and nails. and even if you aren’t the least bit as infatuated with me, as i am with you, well…isn’t that part of the fun?

i wish i could have a life with you. but i am frail and dying. im slowly killing myself. youre the only reason i get out of bed anymore, if not for you, i would just curl up and die.