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Why is living as a trans person so hard. I don't know if I am gonna make it

i live in active warzone, i'm trans, i have a mental disorder, my family disowned me, i'm homeless and don't have any friends. honestly this has to be some kind of prank, the gods who made me can't be serious about this shit. I just wish my life was normal and not whatever this is, is that so much to ask

i think i want to change my url from moth-odarka

whats cool about being trans is my parents are totally right. i did kill their beautiful son. im the thing that animates his corpse in an ever more convincing parody of a happy girl. i devoured him from the inside out and now there is nothing left of him and he is dead dead dead and there is only me, with my hollow eyes and dark eyeliner and long hair, and my big smile. my limp, effeminate gestures belie the marionetting of the boy they loved. my fagginess is his death. already his body becomes a fitter home for my parasitism in full; the tits, the hips, the thighs. sorry about your kid. thanks for the biomass <3

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not going to use this information, i am too dumb

like i want creatures to interact with me, i want to have friends, i want to speak and to listen to others. especially with other trans ppl or things who understand me who have the same experiences, but my low self esteem tells me that i don't deserve that and my traumas tell me that everyone hates me and wants to hurt me. how in conditions like this am i supposed to socialise, to have friends, to be something for someone other than my small chosen family.

anyways this is me announcing that i will try and put effort into pushing my inner boundaries and being more active on this social media platform. please interact i guess? i hope someone or something on here will be more kind to me than everyone in my awful life so far. thanks

am afraid of everything and everyone

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am afraid of everything and everyone

dysphoria is crippling me

also i lost my only source of income because my boss found out i am trans and to afford any food and my medicine i got in debt, my life just keeps on giving and i can't keep up with it

Hang in there, you can do it, and a day will come when you'll be happier and safer!

i do not see any reasons that this will be the case for me. i am on the lowest of lows, just another number in the statistics of trans people who could not make it, my failure is not even that noticeable to anyone. if i was gone, my blood family would not even know nor care, almost no one would know or care