Minecraft Movie Notes

Just yelling into the void.

Today's world is so weird. I've been thinking about masc names for myself since 2018, and ive been trying to change myself and be comfortable with myself and my identity since then, but now i only have more questions than answers. Do i want to be trans because of how i fear being treated by men? Do i want to be trans so that i wont have to worry about having the weakness of being a woman? Would it be wrong to want to be trans for those reasons? Or am i trans because i hate myself? Am i trans because i despise every feminine thing about my body, and just wish i could be a man? Am i trans because i think being male would be easier? Is it wrong? I want so badly to have broad shoulders, short spikey hair, mayble some stubble, a decent jawline, a male chest, and muscle dense arms, but is it just gender envy? Is that just a phase? Is that what being trans is? I feel wrong being labeled as female, i feel wrong being labeled as male, i feel wrong being labeled as nonbinary and not being labeled at all. My entire being feels wrong and unsafe, targeted, and usable. Is my want to be male, to be trans, to view myself as strong in a physical sense, is it all just my way of coping? And if so, is that truly me wanting to be trans, or does that make me wanting to be trans a trauma response from all the masculine abuse and feminine neglect? Im so unsure. Im so confused. I dunno whats right or what's wrong, or even what's causing what.

My teeth cannot touch tips or else The Thing will happen and I Will Die.

Okay so, i have a DID associated question, however i think a little bit of context is necessary.

I assumed i was a singlet until around 1-2 ish years ago, when i met a boy who was a system. Having exposure to him and a past friendship with someone diagnosed with DID and remembering/learning of their experiences, i began to think about how i myself have had similar experiences to them. Since i met him and began to realize the possibility of my having DID, i tried to recall any times i wasn't myself, and in doing so, i would get horrible headaches. I chocked it up to me trying to remember repressed memories.

However, there are times while disassociating where i feel a creeping feeling of changing, and when i try to stop it, i get headaches. When i become consciously aware of this changing, or switching, i get a horrible headache, and when i do finally switch, i feel like im in the front passenger seat of a car, the car being my body and the driver being me, but not me. Is this common? Are these skull bashing headaches common?

Going to add lore to my little story

Going to make it so if you want to sacrifice a person, you need their permission, but if the person is a parent with a still living child (direct child, not step) the child can give permission for their parent/s to be sacrificed to the gods.

Only works with mothers/father and son/daughters

Your niece cant give your soul to the gods unfortunately and neither can your granchild

But your direct kid can

If your lips get chapped, then does that mean the skin on your anus gets chapped, too?

Wait why are we boycotting captain america and the last of us? I know why we're boycotting hp but why those two? /genq

Can't even boycott the last of us, can't even boycott captain america, SOME OF YOU CAN'T EVEN QUIT HARRY POTTER. And then you refuse to read some classic from a guy who's not even around to do any harm because "all the classics were written by white heterosexual men" WHICH IS NOT EVEN TRUE

Being autistic is like saying, "Hmm. Need different music. This genre is making my mouth dry." And people understanding it as "hmm. Need different music. This genre is trash. " When i QUITE LITERALLY mean it makes my mouth dry. Like why would i say otherwise when that's literally what i mean?

Also, is that just me? Like- does anyone else's mouth get dry when listening to their "i listened to this song for 257 hours straight because it tickled my brain, but now its boring" music?

I come back to tumblr for 4 seconds and 4chan is dead? What happened!?

The last time i was here, it was stabby ceasar day (last year, not this year), and my entire feed was just "L Caesar got stabbed"

I love you tumblr dont ever change