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"Hey! Let me help you!"

Drew my SkyKid. I saw so many artists posting their skids and it made me really motivated to draw mine again!

If I had to give him a name, I think it would be something like Empathetic Bodyblocker, because my absolue favourite thing to do is jump in frint of krills and tank hits that might have otherwise got other Skids hurt

I gave him the injury from Wounded Warrior's mask, both because I thought it was fitting, and because I frequently wear that mask if I'm not wearing Saluting Protector's mask!

Is it a law that every Assassin's Creed game needs a section that plays like absolute ass???

I'm playing Liberation and trying to navigate around the Bayou is like pulling teeth. Can't walk through bushes, climbing the trees is driving me nuts, I accidentally parallel parked a canoe into a corner and couldn't get it free.

I swear there was a similar "why do you control like this???" Section in 3.

Sometimes the games will feel SO good. Jumping, following a path, running seamlessly. Sometimes I want to bang my head against the wall. I loved 3 to pieces and I want to love Liberation too but good lord the controls are rough

A loving reminder that if you are so disabled that you cannot work, and especially if you are getting some kind of government assistance because you cannot work, and especially if you feel guilty because other disabled people have to work: You are not lazy. You DO deserve to indulge in things that bring you joy.

You are a government employee and your Full Time Job is to keep yourself at a minimum baseline of Alive and Not Miserable.

Your job is to watch videos that entertain and engage you.

Your job is to play video games so you can keep some kind of joy in your life.

Your job is to rest as much as you physically can to conserve energy.

Your job is to cook for yourself and take joy in it if you find it joyful, even if that's the only thing you can manage in a day.

Your job is to make yourself as comfortable and stress-free as you can, even if that means bed-rotting.

It is what you get paid to do. Because being disabled IS a full time job. And it's hard work.

Be kind to yourself.

Man, I really have to call my doctors again about Post-Exertional Malaise. Months ago we started the process cause I was trying to fight them that I might have CFS. Ruled out diabetes, found out I have severe sleep apnea. Cool. Treating that for the past 4 months. It's only supposed to take ~3weeks to start feeling a difference. Got a kick of energy a few days in and that gave me a new, slightly better baseline which I'm super grateful for, but nothing since then.

I should not be this tired. I spent 3h doing groceries on Tuesday. Then 7 hours at a little 1-day seminar l thing on Thursday. I spent less than 1 hour today throwing together a roast to set it in the oven and forget it while I went back to sleep. I have slept 60 hours in the last 130. I'm still exhausted. Within the next 2 hours, I will be going back to sleep again. Don't even have enough energy to play games on my laptop cause the set up and teardown is too much energy.

I can't tell if I'm gaslighting myself into thinking I'm less sick or more sick. But surely SOMETHING is wrong. It's driving me crazy

Update on my journey of learning to like tomatoes:

Today I put tomatoes on my salad! Which is a really big step for me, cause I've thought for years that would just be something that I would NOT be able to eat. Top of the list of "I don't like tomatoes so this is something I will never be able to have"

Well I did it.

And goddamn I'm proud!!

I was going to eat such a tasty sub after I got back from therapy.. the store had no subs, god has abandoned me...

A family member of mine had surgery recently and hearing that them and their partner have been feeling a little Not Great trying to keep up with everything, I went into my stash of meats and veggies I've been building up in my freezer for a while to make them a bunch of meals so they could have one less task on their plate :3

I managed to make a total of 20 meals for them, 4 plates of 5 different kinds (Stir fry as well, but not pictured here as they picked that one up yesterday before I was done cooking everything) and a lemon cake for dessert!

Took me 15 hours cause I'm a slow cook, But I'm really really proud :D

Pathetic. Weak. Miserable.

I love him with all of my heart. Cute aggression except the cute mf is terribly, horribly pitiful

So real, esp when it's something like "we need to talk later" No, no. You don't get to do that to me, we talk now, thank you

Having to wait a long time while in short-term waiting is so exhausting. I have trouble not getting angry at people who unintentionally put me in that state.

Guys I think I might be kinda okay at drawing flowes???

I'm having a great time, I'm so excited

Making fake wedding cards for a RP with my friend and apparently my calling in art is flowers??

I'm having a great time, I think this looks great. I should draw more flowers

NOOOO MY MEATBALL ROLLED OFF MY PLATR

*Opening a package of Italian Meatballs for some spaghetti I'm making*

Huh.. I wonder what kind of meatballs are traditionally put into pasta dishes

*realizes*

Update travelling spirit I did not have the stuff from came around and I have been banished back down to the 800s SOS OTL

Today I hit 1000 candles for the first time in Sky! 3 and a half years, many candle runs with friends, and a lot of lazy days. I thought I'd always be stuck around ~200-300 candles because my laziness catches me constantly. But I did it :D

Today is a damn cool day

I say this with love: trying to communicate effectively with Neurotypicals is so strange.

Asked the pharmacist a question about lozenges for a sore throat and while I was (paraphrased) asking "Can I take more than 1 lozenge because sometimes the first one doesn't coat the spot that's a little bit sore (read: kinda scratchy and a little bit irritated)" she seemed to understand my question as "Hey, my throat hurts so badly that I need to take multiple lozenges to fix it, what should I use?" despite me reiterating it didn't hurt, it was just sore, and that I didn't need something stronger, just that I needed something to coat it better.

Does 'sore' and 'hurt' really mean the same thing to them? Cause in my brain, sore is a mild inconvenience, but hurt is something that needs immediate attention. I don't get it

Today I hit 1000 candles for the first time in Sky! 3 and a half years, many candle runs with friends, and a lot of lazy days. I thought I'd always be stuck around ~200-300 candles because my laziness catches me constantly. But I did it :D

Today is a damn cool day

I've been dealing with a sore throat for the past two days and suffering by way of Tap Water (thanks, chlorination. I love you, but ow) and have decided to say screw it and just drink the distilled water I have in my house. Holy crap, is it nice to have water and Not want to Cough and Die immediately after.

Maybe don't drink distilled water always. But man, it's better than tap water if your throat hurts

Yippee, I made a banner for my blog out of some of my favourite outfits :D

Somethings eating a tomato and some pieces of cheese in the dark is all you can ask for out of life. It's a good night

I've been learning to like foods that I was scared of or thought were gross as a kid, and it's kind of fun.

For the longest time I thought bell peppers were something that I would only enjoy cooked. Same with tomatoes, but I'm starting to like them both raw too, now. Toss a couple sticks of bell pepper on a wrap, some sliced tomato on a burger. It's nice. With both of them, I had that initial fire alarm in my head going "Nooo this is doing to taste bad, Do Not Put That In Your Mouth" but I shoved past it and found it wasn't so bad. Little successes in life.

And sure, maybe I still only like the bell pepper sticks in wraps, and the tomatoes have to be sliced pretty thin (or salted), but I'm trying new things, and eating more vegetables, and I think that counts for something. Maybe my next Brave Adventure will be trying to eat onions raw too

Testing 1 2 3!

This is me learning how to make a Tumblr post, Hello world :D

I'm not very savvy with Social Media, despite being Gen Z. I've never really been all that interested in sharing my life online and I've never really gotten the appeal. I tend to keep to myself a lot IRL and online, and I'm happy that way. But I want to try. Mostly because I need somewhere to talk about my day and just throwing things like "I made mac and cheese, Hell Yeah" at the internet feels like an acceptable outlet.

Despite being Grammatically Incorrect, I tend to italicize words I want to put importance on. I'm not sure where the habit came from, but it scratches my brain.

Also, I really need to turn off Grammarly.