OK, I feel well-rested today, and I am still proud of myself for deciding not to go to the workshop yesterday because my friends are all complaining about how they are exhausted and annoyed. Their emotions are getting to me, so I'm dipping out for the sake of my peace π
I'm actually starting my study day early today, so let's see how it goes~
β Breakfast β Listen to chill podcast β Revise thesis paragraphs (2 hours) β Play A Little to the Left πΊ β Phone call with partner β Therapy β Watch anime β Check and reply to school emails β Fill out surveys (got a gift card!) β Play Xbox with partner β Clinic report formatting... (30 minutes)
βΉοΈ File taxes βΉοΈ Clinical document x1 βΉοΈ Clinic report results x1
I started off strong with my thesis, and woohoo! I worked on it for 2 full hours today so I can send my new draft to my advisor, and I'm just so proud of myself rn. I kinda took the rest of the day a little too chill, I guess lol. I can definitely tell how much I do not want to do my taxes, even tho I've done it before and I know it is really not that hard. I also ended up playing Xbox longer than expected so I didn't have too much time to finish the rest of the tasks.
End of Day: 12:28am - we'll try again tomorrow π©΅
On days like this, I feel like I'm stepping backward, unwinding all the hard work I've put forward in the past few days. It hasn't even been a week yet...
My dog has been whining right before I go to bed to be taken out. Having presentations and essays back-to-back for my classes. Group projects are due soon. Spring break is in a few days. My thesis work is ongoing but not where I need it to be. - Things just aren't right.
I want to feel excited again. I want to feel alive again. I want to be free.
When I got home from school today, I laid down on the couch and started reading a webnovel. I ended up napping for two hours, and then realize that I still need to make food and it'll be time for bed. But I still have my daily assignments I need to get done, and my notes, and my thesis, and... My mind is going in a spiral but my body is moving like a turtle. All I want to do is read my webnovel and escape my stressful reality at the moment.
I'm going to muster the little strength that I still have to complete the essentials for tomorrow, and then call it a night. Maybe it is a day of necessary rest today.
You got this!!! (which exactly 20 minutes before the day ends for me)
I had a medical appointment this morning so I didn't start my part-time job until the afternoon, which also delayed my time to complete some schoolwork.
I find myself gravitating toward tasks that involve clinical work and blissfully neglecting my class assignments like 10-page papers and group presentations π I haven't even looked at my thesis progress and created a new timeline yet. I don't think I have the mental energy to do any of this right now.
Maybe working with my energy and passion right now is the way to go ~
β medical appointment
β part-time work
β walk my dog
That's it for now, but I might come back and update this before the end of the day if I finish more tasks =)
Have a wonderful weekend, lovely humans π©΅
Some laughs for today π
The Productive One: refilling a drink, crossing a task off your to do list, the comfort of knowing that you're exactly on track.
The I-can't-fucking-take-this-any-longer: flinging yourself dramatically onto the couch or bed because this subject is turning your brain into mulch. snacking on something unhealthy but so delicious. texting friends who are suffering alongside you just to cry or scream together.
The "Just five more minutes" : Scrolling through tumblr or instagram. trying to pull your thoughts together on a bad day. convincing yourself that viewing motivational posts online is almost the same as actually doing that homework, really!
The Leg Cramp: No idea how long you've been sitting motionless but you gotta MOVE. Dancing badly and singing along to your favourite song. The joy of realising you've accomplished more than you hoped.
Tired school days pass by the quickest... Finally sitting in front of my laptop at 10pm to do more schoolwork (according to my planner), and once again, I wonder how my brain wandered off to a different space and time since 6pm.
Current mood π:
β Doctor's appointment
β Classes
β Part-time job
β Food
β 30-min nap with my dog
β Randomly listened to an audiobook ad on YouTube for 1 hour...
β Clinic note
β New semester survey
β Check school email and reply
β Group project highlight
β Group paper section outline
βΉοΈ At least 1 hour of thesis writing
Venting: It's hard to not feel disappointed in myself for not working on any actual thesis writing in the past 2 days, especially when I keep telling myself that today is the day. I seriously just want my brain to not run away from my thesis because I feel like time is running out. I'm so exhausted both physically and mentally at this point that I just want to sleep for a whole day before doing anything. But I'm not sure if this is actually feasibly. I just feel so stuck in my brain right now that I just want to dump all my anxiety and fears out so my mind can shut up and do the actual work. Why is it so hard??? Ugh, and now I feel like I am not being kind to myself... But I really need to complain a bit. Life has been rough recently with school and it's not something that someone can solve for me.
The day didn't go as bad as I had imagined. Started working on some school assignments on my to-do list after eating a nice breakfast (more like lunch) and watching an episode of A Sign of Affection =)
Here's to the possibility that I will face the more daunting task of continuing to write the literature review part of my thesis. Cross my fingers that I finish the day strong and satisfied!
Today is one of those days when I woke up feeling weird, sat with that discomfort, and things turned out quite ok. Not feeling my best, but got some good news, and the day got better =)
Hope you are somewhere in the world having a great day π©΅
β School β Part-time job β See clients β Research meeting β Phone call with partner β Dinner β Group project 2 paper β Check and reply to school emails β Partial clinic notes (I'll finish the rest tmr π΄)
[Ended at 12:35am] Wrapping up earlier today and I know I deserve it. Been working hard all week and I can finally chill a little (before I have full weekend of training lol) Did my best today and I think maybe doing the bare minimum wouldn't hurt me once in a while. Good night π©΅
Before people come fighting me for using someone's artwork, I want to make it clear that I found my profile pic from Pinterest and I don't remember who drew this. So if you know who the artist is and how I can credit them for my profile pic, I will be eternally grateful!
Saw this and had to share!! The 4th one got me staring at it for idk how long cause it gives me all the feels lol
Studio Ghibli Appreciation Post
Another super cool post for keepsake π©΅
Iβm always getting stressed out by things happening so here are some resources I find helpful
Music
I donβt know about you but I find piano music are really relaxing and soothing
Piano music playlist
Peaceful piano Spotify playlist by @spotify
Piano background music Spotify playlist
Rainy sounds
Burning fireplace sounds
Wave sounds
Videos, movies, dramas
Buzzfeed Celeb
Food
Buzzfeed Worth It Season [1/2/3/4/5]
Movies
Free movies/tv
Marvel movies masterpost by @girlintoomanyfandoms
Classic chick flicks by @jamescookjr
Cinemasins
Studytubes
Studytubes by @memorisu
AmandaRachLee
Cheyenne Barton (@studyrose )
Music
The Voice Kids [Australia/Germany]
Video games
Buzzfeed Multiplayer (eg. Until Dawn, Dead by daylight, Cooking Mama)
True crimes and supernatural
Buzzfeed unsolved
Comedies (old but gold)
Friends
Mind your language
Bewitched
Dr Ken suggested by @akydemics
Exercise
Fitness & health for student by @abby-studies-art
Deep breathing exercises
Sleep
Guide to sleep by @educatier
Tips for balancing sleep & education by @brbimstudying
The perfect night sleep by @paintitbright
How to go to bed early and actually fall asleep
Night routine and sleeping tips
Tips and tricks for getting enough sleep by @candydsgn
Meditation
Meditation and focus by @studyquill
Put a thought in the star
Treat yourself
Simple ways to treat yourself by @anitastudy
Guide to treating yourself by @pennyfynotes
25 No/Low cost self care acts by @gaygirlhustle
Water
How to drink more water ft printables
Hydration masterpost
Breaks
Use the pomodoro method where you study for 25 minutes and rest for 5 minutes to allow your brain to re-energise itself.
Take a break
Types of study breaks by @samsstudygram
Tips for getting better rest by @overstudies
9 things to do on a study break by @studyzine
Study break ideas by @gomedorgohome
What to do during a study break by @emmastudies
Things i do when taking a study break by @produitivity
Meals
Study break snacks by @gentlysoft
15 food to ease your study life by @studybowie
Easy recipes for students by @aestudier
Broke college kid masterpost by @dumplinghead-usagi
Bullet journal
Start a bullet journal
Apps
Apps that help me destress by @gracelearns
Forest
Overdrive
Positivity
My positivity tag
@chibird
@cwote
@lovelysuggestions
A website that compliments you
Who is the cutest
Quizzes
Buzzfeed quizzes
Pottermore quizzes
Others
Learn coding
All you need for high school
Math help and advice
How to take notes
Mental health masterpost
Ace your essays
Ace your exams
How to be productive
Free printables masterpost
Stationery masterlist by @architstudy
Other masterposts
Selfcare masterpost
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