It's Gotten To The Point Where I Can't Blame My Incompetence On My Age Anymore. I've Realized Im Just

My brains is so funny cause it sees me in worlds not real, but struggles to acknowledge me in this one.

I can't bring myself to do anything. I just keep giving up and failing every day, just again and again.

If only I had an obsession who I could actually interact with. Who I could actually talk with, get to know them better, become deeply obsessed with them.

Is it ever your birthday if you don't have to fight tears constantly the night before and probably the day itself.

Need to keep myself in check cause I feel so close to asking my mom if she could live on if I died.

I wish I wasn’t who I am. I feel like in my heart I’m disgusting

The things I would do for him to feel like that towards me.

I thought my life was meaningless and aimless, but all that changed with her. Now I'm alive with a purpose, obsessed with giving her everything I am and can be. I'm filled with determination, and every single minute of the day I can't wait to see her again. When I look in the mirror, nothing matters - only her.

I accidentally said his name when I cut myself. It was like a call, a beg for help. I have never even talked to him, I don't know him. But my mind latched onto the idea of him. I feel quilty for feeling so much for him when he doesn't even know I exist or perceive him as someone more than a passerby.

I think my mind just needs someone to obsess over.

i’m looking for an obedient puppy boy who will unconditionally fulfill all my anxious desires

Kinda funny how I'm obsessed with him. Go out of my way to just see him for half a second. Wish I could just look at him for hours. But at the same time I aknowledge that he's kinda ugly.