About To Crash Out

footage of me checking Tumblr and every messaging app knowing damn well that no one wants to talk to me

"Can mutuals DM you?" moots can kick me, punch me in the throat, spit on my face, saw me in half, kiss me, obsess over me, stalk me idgaf

bpd is romanticized until u cut off everyone who loves u and ur banging ur head against a wall, begging for god to make everything stop

NOTES CHALLANGE BUT AS A BABY KOGAL/ROKKU GAL AND FORMER LIFESTYLE JIRAI

TW: MENTIONS OF SH AND M@STURBATION

100 Notes - I'll throw away my blades (i dont sh anymore)

500 Notes - I'll practice the eye makeup some more

1000 Notes - I'll try to fix my M@sturbating addiction

2000 Notes - I'll get more clothes

2500 Notes - i'll get my nails done

3000 Notes - I'll loose some weight, atleast 20 kg max

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Pink = complete

Orange = In progress

Black = Not done

just had an experience

For me being in a qpr lately is like. No we're not dating. Yes this is my boyfriend isn't he great and lovely and handsome aren't I lucky. No I don't want anyone to mistake us for romantic partners. Yes I want to marry him. No we're not "just friends". Yes I don't want people to think our friendship matters less than our love. No I don't care what people think. Yes I want you to know that we're each other's and each other's alone. No I've never had a crush on him. Yes, I love him with all my heart and soul.

gay ppl will talk to someone twice and then have a crush on them

jirai media recommendations (feel free 2 suggest more)

some r still ongoing btw

-Young Adult Matters

movie (2021)

tw: sh, substance abuse, bullying, violence, gore, prostitution, death, sa, homelessness, sexual content, abuse, profanity, unwanted pregnancy (prob more im forgetting)

-Tomorrow I’m gonna be someone’s girlfriend

manga (2019-2024) and tv show (2022-2023)

tw: sh, profanity, sexual content, violence, substance abuse (again prob more im forgetting)

-Kairiki Bear

musician

song suggestions: darling dance, bug, failure girl, villain

-Isana

musician

song suggestions: Menhera Janai Mon!, Loved Smoothie

-Sensitive Boy

manga (2022-2024)

tw: sexual themes, sa, sh, violence (prob more i still need 2 read it ngl)

-Sentimental Death Loop

video game (2023)

tw: death, partial nudity, sexual themes, profanity, sh, suicide, violence, gore,

-Needy Streamer Overload

game (2022)

tw: sh, sexual themes, violence, substance abuse, blood, profanity, death, cults, vomiting (prob more that im forgetting)

-Strawberry Painkiller

musician

song suggestions: Bloodsucking Dreams, Grave Skull, Thousand Knives, Sugar Truth, Pharmakeia

-Candye Syrup

musician

song suggestions: idol of death, sweet suicide, C♡S.I.S

-Hookah Haze

game (2024)

tw: death, terminal illness, stalking, substance abuse (its just hookah im pretty sure but still gonna include the warning lmao)

-Magical Girl Site

anime (2018) and manga (2014-2019)

tw: bullying, violence, suicide, abuse, blood (prob more i havent finished it)

feel free 2 suggest more! out of all of these i suggest young adult matters, kairiki bear, nso, and strawberry painkiller the most!