I Really Wish More Of The Community Was Able To Act Normally About Plus Size Jirais. I Want To Be Able

For many years of longing, I craved attention from my favorite people. To be loved, to be looked at, to be the only thing in their mind.

I would obsess over them day and night. Where my life was bleak and boring without any interaction with them. I'd get depressed and hopeless without their attention, imagining hurtful scenarios of them leaving, and remembering that these feelings of mine will forever be within me. They will never know. I will not let them know. No matter how much I like them this feeling.

At the same time, I hate it with a passion. I do not like feeling like I have no control. So I do what's best. I ghost everything just because of one person. I leave. But I always come back pathetically yearning for their attention again. Because I can't stand being alone.

You know what's funny though? I met someone... who for the first time reciprocated my feelings without me having to say anything.

I was scared. I was so scared.

I've always been an obsessive person to those I liked. So why... did I hate it the moment they liked me back?

Did i even like them? If not, then does that mean i didn't actually like the previous people before?

Did i simply make up an image of them?

Or is it that I just don't like him? And maybe that's why I didn't like his confession.

I feel gross. I hate that I rejected him and I went back to using him as fuel for my sick fantasies. I hate that I still want his attention.

I hate looking at blogs that have romantic shit that says cheesy things like "what I crave for him to do."

I hate it

I no longer look at men with such rose-tinted glasses anymore. I feel empty. I feel repulsed.

I feel nothing at all.

"Who want me " I say as if I'm not extremely picky with who I obsess over

"and historians said they were bestest of friends" they were. they were both aro/ace and in a qpr

I've been waiting for his message for 9 hours...plus he's online..

It's so hurtful to wait desperately for someone to answer us

Hot girl problems

Youre annoying them.

Leave them alone

They don't want you

Why will you not stop?

They only talk to you out of pity

𝙸 𝚠𝚒𝚜𝚑 𝚒 𝚑𝚊𝚍 𝚏𝚛𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚖𝚎

I love being ignored when I know someone's online it's great!!!/sar