Big Plans This Easter (getting Drunk‼️)

Mom and Grandma keep gossiping about her old classmates and how fat they've come apparently 😭

And now they're changing topics to how fat the young people look these days and no one's taking care anymore like what-

Their words, not mine

I can't believe I was actually considering thinking about thinking to consider recovery, when my siblings apparently see me the way they do - and if all it took was that and a good scroll through Tumblr then I guess I really wouldn't be ready at all

on that note

while going over your calories is not necessarily a binge, you do not get to decide what binging is for other people!

i’ve seen comments saying “not even 2000 calories is a binge” dude. it’s not about numbers. you can’t put a number on restriction - someone can be anorexic at 0 calories, at 200, at 800, at 1000, at 3000+ because it’s not about the numbers that you eat, it’s your mindset

binging is uncontrollable eating, past the point of fullness, into the point of pain, but it can also be mindless, thoughtless over eating when you don’t want to eat

numbers do not make up your binge. don’t think that because you didn’t reach a certain amount of calories, doesn’t mean you didn’t binge. same as restricting. just because someone went further, doesn’t mean you didn’t go at all

not to self-diagnose, but something is definitely wrong here.

To me it kind of feels like I won't truly live until I'm skinny. That right now, there is still a wall I need to cross until I'm "on the other side" or something, when my life can finally begin.

I love sugar free monster energy. Have I told you yet how much I love sugar free monster energy?

Yes? I don't care I haven't told you yet that I absolutely love sugar free monster energy.

I don't think I've mentioned how much I love sugar free monster energy.

Can you tell I love sugar free monster energy? No? You know what else I love? YES, it's sugar free monster energy.

(What a cringe fucking post omg)

"If you lose some weight you'll fit into that!"

-My 10 year old sister to me as we were looking for outfits to wear at a special event

Like... bitch. But you're right. And no, you weren't "just kidding". It's fine. It's fine. It's FUCKING FINE.

Just gonna do some red paintings on my legs later is all. It's fine.

I'm in a love-hate relationship with my scars

It's ok to eat if:

You're feeling faint

You need to keep people from worrying

It's a birthday (yours or someone else's)

It's a holiday or tradition

You're feeling down and want to treat yourself

You're offered your favourite food

You're hanging out with friends

You're watching a movie

You're at a funeral or wake

You need the energy for school/work

You're just generally hungry

You won't be any less valid if you eat, and sometimes it's necessary. Don't beat yourself up, you'll be ok <3

What kind of rewards do y'all get yourselves when you hit a gw?

And do you have suggestions for small things I could get, not always clothes, which are not too pricey?