I Just Wanted To Work Out, But When I Started The Headache I Was Having All Day Just Got So Bad I Almost

i made a post like "wow my mental health is so much better than it used to be" but then i deleted it cause i remembered that it's actually just as bad, but in a new, different way

i was almost bamboozeled into thinking i got better when i'm actually just a different flavor of miserable now

I love sugar free monster energy. Have I told you yet how much I love sugar free monster energy?

Yes? I don't care I haven't told you yet that I absolutely love sugar free monster energy.

I don't think I've mentioned how much I love sugar free monster energy.

Can you tell I love sugar free monster energy? No? You know what else I love? YES, it's sugar free monster energy.

(What a cringe fucking post omg)

It's ok to eat if:

You're feeling faint

You need to keep people from worrying

It's a birthday (yours or someone else's)

It's a holiday or tradition

You're feeling down and want to treat yourself

You're offered your favourite food

You're hanging out with friends

You're watching a movie

You're at a funeral or wake

You need the energy for school/work

You're just generally hungry

You won't be any less valid if you eat, and sometimes it's necessary. Don't beat yourself up, you'll be ok <3

I can't believe I was actually considering thinking about thinking to consider recovery, when my siblings apparently see me the way they do - and if all it took was that and a good scroll through Tumblr then I guess I really wouldn't be ready at all

sisyphus is just how having ana-bp feels lol

No better feeling than finally being locked in again after binging for days

I can't believe I keep throwing this feeling away when it's literally the best thing ever and nothing, truly NOTHING feels good about binging, because I don't even enjoy the food I eat when I do and even if I did in my head I'd be screaming at me to stop but most of the times I can't

It's one of the worst experience s in my opinion, whereas restricting does have a couple downsides but they don't outweigh (heh) how good it feels

I got a new book to reeeaaad

I don't read a lot (I used to inhale books as a kid and I have my fanfiction phases, but I just don't have tiiiimeee and when school is stressful the last thing I want to do is read even more 🥲)

But I'm supper excited for this one

tempted to steal my Dad's laxatives