I Realized I Never Posted About The Rest Of My OC Loop, So I'll Get To That Soon! Life Has Been Pretty

(TW:venting)

I’m so tired, like so dead tired right now

I’ve gotten sick 3 times in the last 3 months, barely gotten any rest from it because my family somehow always throws endless tasks at me whenever I end up sick, and I’m not allowed to miss school either so I never end up fully recovering

I’ve had 35-40 nose bleeds in the span of 3 weeks, now I have to go to an ENT specialist to find out if I have to get cauterized, which is extremely painful

I keep having my own personal doubts about myself and my own insecurities, like whether I’m good enough, or if me friends actually care for me, etc

I don’t like going deep into my personal life, especially with my family, it’s a very complicated life with them but I love them so dearly that I feel so guilty whenever I feel upset with them

it’s so loud here, every little sound and movement ticks me off, I have an endless migraine and I’m sick of the school nurses looking at me with pity or thinking I’m lying to get out of class

and I’m so fucking sick and tired and being treated like I’m stupid. I’m in all honor classes, I learned how to be a therapist for my family when I was younger than fucking 5, I basically raised my older brother, I work so hard. And then people treat me like I’m stupid in the areas I’m actually working and doing well in, like I don’t know anything. Like I’m a stupid little girl in their eyes and I hate it.

when I finally shut down and tell people how I feel, they laugh and think I’m overreacting or that it doesn’t matter, that everything will be okay

and not everything has been okay, but I’m so thankful for the things that are. I’m thankful for my best friends, my absolutely amazing boyfriend, and family even though they have their problems, my school and my education, my hope in my health getting better, and especially shifting. There are so many good things going on in my life but when I get like this all I can focus on are the bad and negative and the pain and hurt.

I just want to sleep, I just want to rest, I just want to go home, I want to be with my found family, I miss my mom, I miss my waiting room, I miss my pets, I miss them so bad

I almost shifted today, I took a nap and the second before my alarm went off to go to theater I saw my waiting room and almost started balling tears.

that moment made me realize how much I need to be home right now, I need to rest, I need to breathe.

to whomever took the time to read this, I appreciate you for hearing me. I don’t get to express my emotions much, but I appreciate you

take care of yourself, and whomever you are, I love you, you deserve love, and if you feel like how I’m feeling right now, you deserve it all the more <3

Thank you, and good night <3

Hello dears! 🇵🇸🍉🙏I am asking you to support my campaign to help me reach my goal. I am in dire need of your support now to help me stay alive and safe. Gaza is a very dangerous place both in terms of living and lives. The family consists of 12 members, most of them are young children. I need your financial support to enable me to get the basic needs for my family until the Rafah crossing is😭 reopened to transport my family to safety and peace. Please help a family stay alive through your small donations or through your shares to others. Thank you very much for standing by those in need.🍉🙏⬇️🍓

Wait what is shifting I’m a lil stupid lol-

no worries !

bear with me here, I’m not the best at explaining shifting, I just know how to do it

To put it simply, shifting is an action, a decision you make. If you want to go to a different reality, decide you’re there, and you’re there. It’s as simple as that.

I know it sounds impossible, but it has been around forever, with many religions and spiritual traditions using the act of shifting, astral projection, and manifestation

But basically, your perception is what reality is, your assumption creates your reality as the 3D must reflect the 4D, it is not just fact, it is law.

To put it into an example:

say you’re sitting in your room, and you want to go to the kitchen to grab a snack, what do you do? You get up and grab a snack, because you decided you were hungry and wanted a snack. Shifting is that simple, you want to be in your DR? You decide you are there, and there you are!

if you have any more questions or need anything, I can try my best to answer! I also suggest doing your own research, but be sure not to over consume information, you only need yourself to shift. Just you, and your consciousness! Trust yourself, it is your birth right to shift :D

happy shifting <333

I WILL SIGN LIKE FUCKIN JOHN HANCOCK

HAND OVER THAT PETITION 🙏

I’ve been told. We need to come together as a fandom and start begging petitioning for a mphfpc series, and a good one LIKE RIGHT NOW

Hello! I need medication for life to prevent my lungs from collapsing, this implies permanent treatment with steroids, oxygen therapy, control of oxygen in the blood and antibiotics to prevent the development of bacteria in the lungs.

I'm afraid I have to insist on this because it may be the only way to get my treatment.

I need medication for life to keep my lungs from collapsing, this costs around $700 per month.

Things are really tough on me,I can’t afford. Please donate🖤

unfortunately I do not have the money to financially support, so I will post this in hopes of others finding it and getting your message across

stay strong dear friend, we love you and you will be in my prayers 🙏❤️

okay so there was a tie! I’m gonna go in order so the tomorrow I’m gonna post a section about the wards themselves, their personality traits and things I’ve learned about them!! it’s a bit too late in the evening for me to write this all out so I will finish it tomorrow, stay tuned!

Thank you 🩷✨🙏

Buried Voices, Unbroken Hope: Life in Gaza's Shadow

Help Me Rebuild Dreams Lost Amid Gaza's Turmoil

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Donate to Support My Journey to Rebuiled Dreams Shattered in Gaza, organized by Islam Elhalaby

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From Dream Job to Daily Survival

For years, I was a graphic designer at Awtar Tech, a local company where I found both pride and stability in what I considered my dream job. But the ongoing conflict in Gaza has completely upended my life. My home has been bombed three times, leaving me homeless and vulnerable. The devastation is immense no food, no electricity, and nowhere that feels safe. Every day is a battle for survival, with even the most basic needs slipping out of reach.

Trapped by War, Striving for Education

The war has destroyed not just my surroundings but also the dreams I fought hard to build. My university, workspace, and aspirations were all consumed by the conflict, leaving me in desperate need of a fresh start. I graduated high school with a 91% GPA, but pursuing a fully-funded scholarship felt impossible. Every application required SAT and IELTS scores tests I couldn’t take due to the lack of centers in Gaza. Despite my relentless efforts to find alternatives, my applications remained incomplete without these scores.

A Future Out of Reach

Pursuing a university degree is essential to achieving my goals and rebuilding my life, but the costs are steep. Tuition ranges from $38,000 to $96,000, depending on the program. With these funds, I could fully focus on my studies and future career, offering a chance to restore what has been lost.

My only hope now is to escape this ongoing nightmare and find a safe place to start over. However, the financial burden is immense. The coordination fee for crossing borders alone is $7,000 per adult, and when combined with tuition and living expenses, it’s a weight I can’t bear on my own.

How Your Support Can Rebuild My Future

Find Safety and Stability: Escape Gaza and reach a safe haven where I can start rebuilding my life.

Pursue My Education: Enroll in a university to continue my studies and follow my passion for graphic design.

Rebuild My Career: Find meaningful work where I can apply my skills and contribute to my new community.

Thank you for taking the time to hear my story. Please share it with anyone who may be able to offer support. Your kindness and generosity are beyond what words can convey, and I am truly grateful.

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Donate to Support My Journey to Rebuiled Dreams Shattered in Gaza, organized by Islam Elhalaby

Help Islam Rebuild Dreams Shattered: A Lifeline from Gaza D… Islam Elhalaby needs your support for Support My Journey to Rebuiled Dreams

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Messaging people for the first time is so hard. What am I supposed to say? Like, "You seem really odd and your blog intrigues me. Do you want to have philosophical conversations or perhaps talk about fictional characters?" What! Whatever. I will just follow you back and stare at your blog with my big beautiful brown eyes.

1. ✅️Vetted by @gazavetters, my number

verified on the list is ( #226 )✅️

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Please, We need you & your humanity 🤚  now from inside the bombing and destruction in Gaza, I hope my message reaches you and you are well. I would be really grateful if you could help me. Every donation from you will save my family and all the children in the family from death, this will support us and ease our suffering and encourage people to donate more help 🍉🍉 Please share, publish or donate to my family 🙏🙏🙏

Our life is in your hands, please don't say you can't help us because you can‼️

sending love, hope, and prayers!!! 🫶❤️

Songs that represent my relationships with DR peeps🎶

Day 1: Miss Alma Lefay Peregrine

Slipping Through my Fingers - ABBA

You Are My Sunshine - Jimmie Davis

Try Again Tomorrow - Liana Flores

No One is Alone - Into the Woods

Summertime Sadness - Lana Del Rey

Keep You Safe - The Crane Wives

Once Upon A Dream - Lana Del Rey

Je te laisserai des mots - Patrick Watson

No Surprises - Radiohead

Somethin Stupid - Frank Sinatra

Annabelle Lee - Sarah Jarosz

Lucy~ - Corbon Amodio

Willow - Jasmine Thompson

Bird Song - Florence + the Machine

Les Champs-Elysées - Joe Dassin

Gonna be posting more of these! Let me know if you want the playlist links 🫶🎶🪶🪽