I draw. and rant. be nice please I'm a walking zestfest, loud and proud. about me: helllooooo!!!!!! thanks for coming by! I'm 17y artist(?) lesbian! fandoms I'm in: Gravity falls Undertale My hero academia Steven Universe My student spirit Arcane(?) MCU the owl house Sonic Demon slayer will appreciate a comment (I am nosy, idc, I need to know and read everything)
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The voices been strong lately.
I really lacked the ability to analyse or process what I was shown because of newly getting a phone at age of 9. at that point I didn't even knew person could HAVE a twin sibling (no matter the fact that I myself have a deseased twin brother. no one told me. NO ONE. THEY THOUGHT IT WASN'T NESSESARY TO KNOW???)
I just thought Ford was Stans double. Just his copy.
"Who is this. Stan is clearly better. why do we need him?! why did he show up out of nowhere go away🙄"
Stan was my icon, (at that point I was scamming ppl for amino coins in amino communities, That man was NOTTTTT a good influence.)
when I saw him being upset over Ford I got so frustrated I refused to watch the rest of the episodes, like WDYM this fake aah is now in the shack alongside pines family who is this stranger????
I defenetly DID NOT dig into their backstory.
I never understood Ford either. He always seemed to look so out of place and it bothered and threw me off. (All that just because this was exactly the way I felt as a child, and seeing it on the screen was so uncomfortable? I refused to accept that fact, I tried so hard to act normal and fit in that I never really tried to just accept it? I don't know how to describe it. I despised ford and never accepted him as a real character because the behaviour, feelings and his actions were too familiar. Life is shit and Man it's turning angsty, Stan twins ep killed something in me and I just decided to IGNORE it's existence.....
I just called him "that man" or "second Stan", And whole wierdmaggedon felt like a fever dream too.
Seeing ford with bill just made me go "wait is he evil too or what" I did NOTTTTT clock into the plot. No matter that I was actively in fandom till age of 11 (I still have few arts dated from that time good lord, I never understood what SHIPS meant either I just thought it was "good friends" so when I saw billdip making out it opened up a thought in me. Never have I ever touched that shit again. Ewh. I got so many Mabel and bill art tho, I thought they would get along both loving creative stuff and everything)
I understood how serious everything was after rewatching at age of 12 I think?
I will perish while protecting Stanford pines. His hate is NOT allowed on my page. No. Nope.
i seriously can't believe it's been ten years. i'd love to hear fellow veterans' memories! do you remember where you were when it was confirmed stan had a twin brother? were you a believer in the theory, or were you a skeptic? did you call him stanley? did you think he was dipper and mabel's grandfather? reminisce!!
Me and @ridokichan -s headcanon about "isolation-induced hallucinations" with Stan twins.
First experience with the portal was definitely..... Insufferable. For both of them.
At least someone's looking out after them.
FINALLY the part 2 of my Theseus' Guide chapter 8 animatic is done!
maybe i merge the two later, but for now, part 1 is right here
Did you just hit me with a pan or why am I seeing something so beautiful as this god I'm gonna cry I love fiddleford
I'm back from the dead with some Fiddleford angst! This literally took me over ten hours but I'm actually really happy with how it turned out so it's worth it lol
Don't puff yo cheeks at me man
They will kill me one day
Livid for this
Really can't get over the CAN WE TALK? stickynotes. And I mean I think part of it really kinda clicked when I've seen some fanart about it. We really see in TBOB that Ford after beginning to hear voices slipping through the cracks and questions Bill, to learn what Bill really intended, ENTIRELY shuts down his communication with Bill. And you see Bill when he gets questioned in that moment responds with a heavily implied dialogue along the lines of "haha, yeah I tricked you, I'm here to overtake your dimension". But Bill still expects Ford to respond to him in some way, and it's very clear that Bill is shocked when Ford REFUSES to talk to him. And what's interesting is Bill doesn't just IMMEDIATELY begin with threats; he actually leaves stickynotes first, before Bill realizes he's FUCKED UP big time and gets really nasty. There's something pleading with the CAN WE TALK? sticky note. There's a point where Bill does realize he's not getting what he expected, that he's missing Ford, and that he's willing to possibly even smooth some things over, explain things better (maybe even the part that the nightmare dimension is unraveling perhaps) or persuade Ford into Bill's plans. But Ford refuses, and it's already too late for Bill because just like with Stan, Ford feels betrayed and when Ford feels betrayed he'll mercilessly cut the person out of his life. Ford deeply, deeply holds hurt and betrayal and as a result he has zero desire to speak with Bill again (and also uhhh big red flag to take over the world, so also. Yeah).
And it's interesting because it's a slower ramp up until Bill is desperate and threatens, uses violence, because that's what he's always used when it comes down to it, and an ultimatum is given. It wasn't just threats out of the gate; Bill DID try to speak to Ford (btw this is not me being like Ford should have spoken to Bill and it would be magically healthy, cause no matter how you slice it it's just a toxic mess tbh). Threats out of the gate would have been faster; there's over three weeks in the timeline, before Ford goes through the portal (althought we don't get too much context around exactly when everything occurs). That's a lot of time! But Bill didn't threaten Ford immediately. And I think part of that reason is because Bill expected Ford to speak to him, expected their relationship or at least their project to mean enough to Ford that Ford would speak to him and then continue their work, once his anger cooled off. And I think also part of it is because Bill cared about Ford, not that he'd admit it in the moment; but he'd rather Ford willingly be alongside him, then have to force him through threats to do the work on the portal. You see that, even after Ford spends 30 years trying to kill him and nearly even does, when he offers him during wierdmageddon to be a henchmaniac. Bill cares about Ford, wants Ford beside him. But then Ford continues to refuse to engage with him at all, and Bill realizes he's lost Ford, and progressively gets more desperate and angrier as he's still refused, and falls into the violence he usually uses, to get Ford to cooperate.
Anyhow it's one of those things that you wonder what would've happened if they DID speak, but that would ultimately be defying a big part of who Ford is... So in a way it's a juicy juicy tidbit to chew on, the implications beyond the writing on the sticky note.
Ford looking at Mabel and seeing the wildfire of optimism he used to carry in his childhood that always led to disappointment; Stan looking at Dipper and seeing his deep doubt and insecurity that led to inaction when it counted and too much action when it mattered.
Dipper looking at Stan and admiring his steadfast protectiveness and slick charisma; Mabel looking at Ford and admiring his dedication to detail and ever-churning creativity.
Stan looking at Mabel and seeing that crushing loneliness of being left behind; Ford looking at Dipper is seeing that deep guilt of leaving someone behind.
Mabel looking at Stan and admiring his persistence in righting his wrongs, even though he would never admit that's what he's doing; Dipper looking at Ford and admiring his ability to push through that hardships, but also to look back at the path he's taken to get there.
MY OC!!!!!
Aiki Kiyozumi.
age 4 -- age 1X -- age XXX
trying to comfort yourself through trauma and grief
VS
Finnaly finding peace
Would anyone be perchance interested in taking commissions from me... if I uh... asked nicely....?
Maybe.....?
please, I'm struggling, I need to pay for my education and maybe have sometiing left for food meds and etc.
I don't have a ref sheet or anything like that yet. I hope my page will suffice. I'll draw you for a bottle of cola and two pennies I'm desperate
My whole personality was built on her character since age of 5 you're welcome
Moot how could you do this to me
Why did you kept twiSTING THAT DAMN KNIVE STOP IT PLEASE
I noticed a correlation here, and maybe I’m looking too far into it- But listen. In the comics, it’s revealed that Stanley once wanted to become a comic book author, having made what is known as “Lil’ Stanley.” However, as we learn in the comic, his dreams were crushed when his comic was turned away and he gave up on his dream. Now in the present, he sees the comic he once made as a reflection of his own disappointment and shattered dreams- Selling it for 3 bucks on sale. NOW HERES THE THING. In Stanley’s Lowest Moments it’s listed that his dad tried to pawn him off for- How much money? 3 BUCKS. Ima reiterate. Stan sells Lil’ Stanley- The comic that he put his heart and soul into and was seen as unsatisfactory- For 3 bucks. Filbrick Pines tries to pawn Little Stan off as punishment for a bad grade- And by extension his inadequacy- For 3 bucks.
Yeah. This means nothing, but I’m still gonna be sad about it.
IF ANYONE WOULD LIKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hiii!!! You mentioned in your reblog "jersey boy", while talking about fanfics including mullet Stan and old ford. Can I PLEASE get a link? I need fanfics with them. please. You'll save a life if you do, or if you have any other interesting reccomendaitons [excited][excited][excited]
HOLY shit I have waited for this day for my entire life YES absolutely here are a few I love with my heart and soul, the first one is mullet stan & old ford, the rest are mostly just good fic recs with brief descriptions, title, author, & word count guestimations.
I typically read longer, multi chapter works, but there are a few on here that are one shots, or are so close to being one shots that I consider them that in my head. for the most part (in this fandom at least) I don't read anything that's below 5k unless someone really twists my arm into it, so these are mostly going to be decently large time commitments but very, very good stories.
this is mullet stan & old ford, but also old stan & nearly-paranoid ford pines: (Stan Overboard, itS_JuSt_a_thought, approaching 100k I think?) https://archiveofourown.org/works/59722483/chapters/152329459
sea grunks, absolutely gut wrenching. I've gone back and reread the end a minimum of four times: (Fisherman's Knot, scribefindegil, just over 100k) https://archiveofourown.org/works/6179098/chapters/14157307
gravity falls retelling but the best version of it I've ever seen. this fic is a commitment, but this fic is worth it. it will take up more space in your head than you're likely going to want to give it: (Knowing Me, Knowing You, f_imaginings, hit 1,000,000+ words the day after christmas. I would know, I was there. wonderful little (Big) christmas gift.) https://archiveofourown.org/works/9529949/chapters/21548483
paranoid ford & mullet stan. what could go wrong? (so, so much.): (Monster Hearts, gen_is_gone, 50k~ & there's another part when you finish getting destroyed by this one) https://archiveofourown.org/works/61267219/chapters/156583162
am obligatory jersey boy by fordtato mention: https://archiveofourown.org/works/6885211/chapters/15708244
mullet stan & paranoid ford battling the devil (their communication issuses) this is also the best time loop fic I've ever read, and I read Knowing Me, Knowing You, in a week. that is to say I read a lot and I read often. so to be the best time loop fic I've ever read, is really, really hard feat to accomplish. that being said, this fic did do that so: (Déjà Vu, interlude, I don't remember this one being very long, but it is a gut punch) https://archiveofourown.org/works/27586903/chapters/67484779
actually destructive I'll just let you know that now: (Bait & Switch, underwater_owl, multi chapter, there's a series for it on AO3 with NSFW sections that aren't in the work & an additional part that is in progress) https://archiveofourown.org/works/58728250/chapters/149654767
baby stan twins. they make me want to bawl so hard: (The Effigy and the Inferno, Pokimoko, multi chapter, not super long) https://archiveofourown.org/works/60958624/chapters/155724274
have you ever considered the ship of theseus. what if the ship of theseus was a man. does that idea make you want to hurl? I'm a big fan of when people drive a stake right through the heart of stanford pines. really big fan of that: (To Make This Man of Me, mikripetra, one shot) https://archiveofourown.org/works/62754457
what if the stan twins met in the multiverse and shared a drink? surely that wouldn't hurt. surely not: (What's Almost Familiar, Fangirlwriting, one shot) https://archiveofourown.org/works/58904062
I know a lot of these are not mullet stan & old ford (there's one! please don't kill me! if you know of any others PLEASE let me know I would love to see them.) but these are some of my personal favourites. I'm a sucker for a story with a good sibling dynamic in it, so buckle up, grab your tissues and settle in for probably over a weeks worth of fic recs, if you read anything like I do.
also I am so sorry if I've managed to screw up the formating on this, I am on my phone OR if the captions contain a level of inaccuracy to them, this is a collection I have curated since the start of august and I've never compiled them like this before so I am working on some moderately old memories. forgive me in advance for any errors.
anyway, please take these, share them with your friends, leave the authors a whole hell of a lot of love because they are fantastic and I don't think they'll ever know just how much time I spend thinking about their fics.
part one
font credit :3
Yes. Yes I would.
They, in fact, can also take my whole Inheritance. at this point.
would you accept them into your heart and home and also your wallet?
This is actually the advice I am subconciousely following since 2020, and ykw? It works.
Well. Somewhat...?
BUT!!!! I make them get good happy pleasant experiences instead of therapy since i got bad experiences with therapists myself (I've been to 4 different therapists. They would either say that it's all my fault and I deserve it, or just suck it up, or that "I don't try hard enough", they ruined my understanding of therapy. Mother only dragged me there with the intention to "fix whatever is wrong with me", not help.)
Basically, running the character through similar horrible experiences to yours and making them heal. Feeling like you're part of it. and if they healed - so can you.
I know I began talking about a bit of a different topic but I still wanted to express my opinion, so I hope that it's fine(I hope so?)
I've been doing this similiar thing for.... 4-5 years now? I'm definitely better than I used to be.
Put a bullet in my head but I'm not going back to whatever 2015-2020 was. I don't even remember most of it but I'm not going back. No.
If you can't get any help, or don't want any help - working on yourself BY yourself WITH yourself is the best thing that can be done. It's hard but don't lose hope!
Whatever I get horribly flashbacked to everything traumatic that ever happened in my life - my mind just refuses to accept it, like no, that's not me, that must have been someone else, I POSSIBLY couldn't be fine after [REDACTED] but, I'm fine, right? so it means that [REDACTED] never happened and I'm just lying to myself and making shit up, I just gotta suck it up and be tougher.
and if you ask me that's very fucking Stanley Pines core.
Tumblr is like a death sentence, love it here tho
Rb if you were/are a gifted kid I wanna see how many of us ended up here
This just made me cry dude what ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️
Did you at least kiss the brick before throwing it at me like that?
Siblings are always like "I can't let him know that I love him!"
And then doing shit like this:
Whatever I get horribly flashbacked to everything traumatic that ever happened in my life - my mind just refuses to accept it, like no, that's not me, that must have been someone else, I POSSIBLY couldn't be fine after [REDACTED] but, I'm fine, right? so it means that [REDACTED] never happened and I'm just lying to myself and making shit up, I just gotta suck it up and be tougher.
and if you ask me that's very fucking Stanley Pines core.
This aboutta turn into
"You're holding the flashlight wrong"
"Shine it HERE and not in my fucking face ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING TO ME"
"Can't even do that right can you"
It's an average experience of trying to help fathers fix something I'm afraid
"ты что, фанатик с жопы держишь?!?!"
Me and bro against the world. Also. Normalize drawing yourself in your fav characters clothes - it's literally so much fun
Love him for that tho
This is one of the most insane shit I have seen I am in awe
Are you having trouble following the AU/alternate lines? i've created additional resources that explain and provide credits for each one!
Aus:
MrBillPines: @honeqq
StaticFord: @void-dude
UniversalVirusAu: @kittygirl2210
DosmeticatedFord: @jellyskink
MM!Ford: @orxinus DreamcaptorAu: @neonross
Handyman!Bill: @handymanbill
(#waty_mot #LosanPostle)
Alternate plot lines within the canon(maybe):
Canon character desings:
I spent three months working on this drawing: two months on the first two parts and one month on the extras. It was a real challenge, but I had fun trying to match the original Gravity Falls style. Here's a little behind-the-scenes!
The plan was to post it by the end of December, then by the first two weeks of January, and well... It's already February 3rd. I would have posted it much earlier, I was really eager to share it, but I wanted to add the extra drawings!
Mental note: never do giant drawings again because they lose quality when compressed 😞oh man
i feel so proud <3
Anyways, i'm still learing English, so please tell me if i say something weird or incorrect.
(if it's this, i going to die of shame).
One thing I truly love about Mabel is that she is completely genuine and sincere weird little girl representation. She has a morbid sense of humour. She grew up with a horrifying plush bear called Bear-O and literally everybody hated him. Her prized possession is a pig whom she won at a carnival, claiming to be a witch while doing so. Her initial design for a wax figure was a fairy princess horse fairy princess. She punched a unicorn. She draws portraits of her friends on cats and sells them for a profit. Her dream boyfriend is a Bill and Ted clone who has a masters in law. She's scared of stop motion. Her uncle didn't like colours so she hatched a plan with her friends to blind him. When her uncle offered her a free gift from his shop, she took a grappling hook without even considering any other option. One time she said the sentence "it's covered in my blood, sweat, tears, and other fluids." No one is doing it like her
What a Stellar, don't you agree?
have you ever eaten a live insect on purpose
Yes. Unfortunately.
I was dared to put sugar (infected with ants) in my tea by my cousins while staying at grandma's house. we were just 10.
I downed that shit with such pride and joy which I think I'll never experience again