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you need to respect that your sibling has new priorities, and are likely trying their best! Be patient

That's what I wanna hear..

I can always come to her

But never cry leaning on her shoulder

Because we don't do that

We don't show emotions mutually

I'll never do that

Because I can control

I come first, alwaysssssssssssssssss

I don't need your advice,

just a shoulder to cry on,

a silent soul to lean on,

a bucket to catch my tears,

a fluffy pillow to soak them in,

a heavy rain to wash away

my fears, my pain & worries.

I choose not to keep up the illusion of a bond that doesn't exist

Can't stand people who go silent just because they're having a mood swing.

Absolutely immature and infuriating.

“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.”

— Albert Einstein

You know, there are some people you meet in life…

You feel like they’re such a cool person. You try talking to them, but there’s this feeling deep down that you could never really be their friend or even an acquaintance even though you’d love to be a part of their life.

You try reaching out often. And though you try, somewhere in your heart, you feel like a real connection is impossible… because they’re totally out of your league.

There’s love from them, yes but it’s so far from you that it’s hard to even notice it, let alone feel it.

It’s like the universe placed them just close enough for you to admire, but never close enough to hold.

This is exactly how I feel about you.

It’s what I felt after one failed video call with you.

No matter how much I try or don’t

the bond... will it ever be something I can truly call a bond?

There’s no blame on anyone.

This is just how it is.

And it hurts.

Because I feel like a sister that is foriegn to you.

Everyone you love, or are close to even in terms of friendship

stays a stranger to me.

They talk to me just for the sake of basic courtesy. This is how I feel. Maybe it’s not the truth.

But the feeling is real.

And sometimes, I wonder

after mom and dad...

do I really have anyone in this life I can lean on?

And that thought… it makes me really sad.

Time(Zorvan) is the ultimate force.

Zorvanism

It teaches that destiny is fixed, and humans can’t change what’s fated.

So, enjoying life through love, wine, nature, and poetry is a rational way to cope with life’s uncertainties

Or a lesson

—Fyodor Dostoevsky

“I missed you until I realized there was never really anything to miss but the peace I felt before I knew you.”

— Unknown

laying below the lights

2024/11/09

April

(n.) The Month in which all cute, drop dead gorgeous women are born.

I love talking nonsense with you and I hope that we can talk nonsense with each other for the rest of our lives.

“Just keep showing up. Most people quit.”

— Unknown

“It had been a long day, and I don’t mind saying that I cried a little bit. There is nothing wrong with crying at the end of a long day.”

— Lemony Snicket

Mantra.

“Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time.”

— Maya Angelou

Not anymore:)

abandonment issues make you crave the chase. you wanna feel fought for as if it proves someone’s care for you. and if they don’t chase, you tell yourself it wasn’t real, they left you anyway.. even if you’re the one who pushed or left. it’s a unhealthy cycle to break for sure.

Unheard

I went home, hoping to spill my sorrows,

to let the weight pour out in tears,

but silence sat heavy in my chest,

and not a single drop fell.

I tried to tell my father,

whispered the sadness I carried,

but he just left,

not out of cruelty, but out of not knowing

how to hold what he’s never learned to carry.

And my mother,

so close, yet distant,

sees only the shadows of her own thoughts,

never the truth in my eyes.

So I leave again,

back to where I came from,

carrying the ache of words unspoken,

of comfort unfound,

of a heart still waiting—

yearning to be held.

When you step into the zone of love , language as we know it becomes obsolete. That which cannot be put into words can only be grasped through silence.

Maybe thts y I'm attracted to emotionally unavailable men

abandonment issues make you crave the chase. you wanna feel fought for as if it proves someone’s care for you. and if they don’t chase, you tell yourself it wasn’t real, they left you anyway.. even if you’re the one who pushed or left. it’s a unhealthy cycle to break for sure.

I really wanna get out of this kurti version of me

The more I started engaging with ppl ..The more I began craving for solitude..

How strange is that?

I don't feel like I deserve love because I haven't done anything to earn it. I believe there must be a reason for someone to love you, and I don't see any reason for anyone to love me. Even if someone did, I would still feel like I don't deserve it. So, there's no point in being in love or in a relationship. I'm flawed, and I don't think anyone should be with someone as flawed as me. That's why I don't want to fall in love or be in a relationship right now.

I'm not really looking to be loved nor to feel how it feels to fall in love

I'm glad that I'm not a person who acts impulsively

I'm glad that I'm not "go getter person "

Cuz if i was, there wud have been nothing in this world to stop me from banging my head against the wall so damn hard that i could witness the bloodiest self murder

Have the freedom to fail bbg

I became happier with the relationship with him when i fixed the relationship with me