Not To Be Incredibly Vulgar And Nasty Or Anything, But I’d Like To Close My Eyes And Rest My Head In

I guess there’s comfort in the fact that no one will ever hate me as much as I hate myself

I just don't want to exist anymore. I'm just so very lonely. I am so fucking lonely.

I ruin everything, I'm a failure, I'm annoying.

I wonder if someone would miss me if I vanished.

I can’t explain what goes on in my head anymore

Awwwww :))

Vent since I'm pissed

Tw sh

My one friend is pissing me off so bad she told me something and I said ok and then said "don't go telling anyone I know you like to do that" and all I think is how she told me a week ago that are whole friendship was built off her using me for homework and I'm the backstaber. Like I feel like she's a bad friend cause she made me so upset I relapsed and I can't even say anything cause she will make it about herself and I know she will cause when I told her I self harm the next day she came to school waving her arm in my face showing me her cuts like were twins now and it makes me feel like I'm the asshole for self harming in the first place.

If anyone actually read this thank you for listening and if you have any advice please share if you want I honestly don't no what to do

I was telling you about how school is so draining that I dread getting up in the morning but you yelling at me to "clean my room"and"try harder"

What if the next time you see me I'm covered I'm my own blood with pills all around me would you tell me to "clean my room: