Inspiredtrans - Naamloos

Only clowns would pay for therapy out of pocket only to not be 100% honest with their therapist (it's me)

how do i open up to my therapist about my therapist (i don’t want to go to therapy anymore) (i don’t feel valid enough) (i just wanna end it fam 😓) (give me back my psych meds please im tired 💔) (or maybe don’t they make me dizzy ❤️)

I want to be supportive of women and girls getting to be their masculine self nowadays but it's really hard because I'll always be a bit resentful and salty about the fact I wasn't even allowed stuff like the Cars movies and playing with hotwheels. Telling my family I wanted to shave my head partially is probably my first gender related traumatic event.

Maybe I'm wrong for feeling that way, but I can't help but feel a lot of mixed emotions when seeing women, and especially little girls nowadays, get to be happily masculine as kids/teens or even young adults.

"there were no signs" as if they didn't solely buy you dresses, pink shirts, and girl toys even if you asked for something else

Being forcefully raised as a woman is not any less traumatic and emotionally repressive as being forcefully raised as a man. Femininity is not inherently pure and safe. Coercing someone to perform femininity is not any less toxic than coerced masculinity. Being dysphoric around femininity or having trauma from women doesn’t make you a misogynist.

Once again fell for the trap known as "assuming that someone isn't a homophobic asshole"

forever torn on "I need God" and my sheer inability to believe in a literal, physical God.

I hate how my biggest goals in life rn are to have a steady 9-5 that doesn't completely mentally drain me, and allows me to have an actual life work balance, live in my own 1 bedroom apartment with no roommates, where I can eat healthy homecooked food and actually own a functioning car I can drive. Why the fuck is that considered a wild dream nowadays? This was literally the standard/minimum like 20 years ago. Wtf. I don't want to do this anymore this whole world is bullshit why are human dignity(and rights) becoming a pipedream

I fucking hate tech corporations so fucking much. Literally not a single big tech company has reliable customer support, if they have one at all.

Like what I wouldn't give to just be able to make a phone call to some of these companies. So many problems could be solved in 10-30 minutes instead of hours, if not days searching for a solution on the internet only for it to still not work and just giving up, and just being made fun of by tech bros if you dare to ask online by making your own post, and *still* not being provided with a solution

I don't need things to be perfect. I just need someone to pretend things are perfect with me for a bit.

Trans & disabled community: "you shouldn't have to proof to anyone you're valid! Fuck the medical system and doctors mistreating us! You don't need proof of your suffering, only you know your true pain!"

Me: "Well puberty blockers caused me to severely suffer, cause issues I still suffer from years later, and nobody ever beliefs me and sweeps my issues under the rug despite having suffered a great number, and still am." Trans & disabled community: "Okay but like, where's the proof? Why didn't you ever tell that to the doctors?* Actually research proofs that is literally impossible. Have you ever considered you might be the issue here? Like did you even listen to your doctors? Maybe you had some underlying condition?" Me: *stares into the camera as if it's the office* * I did alert the doctors to this, but they either refused to examine me, or also told me that what I was suffering from was simply impossible according to research.

''trans men wont suffer as much if you forcefully out them'' could you say that to an actual trans mans face though or can you only say it online? could you say any of this hateful shit if you had to actually articulate it face to face with a real person or are you only comfortable when its wrapped up in comfy internet discourse buzzwords?