Sorry about the clothes on my back being in the way when you stabbed me
“Even in my dreams, I run to you”
LOVE, DEAR ABBY
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first
second
third — one, two
fourth
sixth — one, two, three
eleventh
twelfth — one, two
fourteenth
fifteenth
twenty-first — one, two
twenty-eighth
twenty-ninth
LOVE, DEAR ABBY
“I will never regret you”
“I miss the person I used to be when I had you.”
“I saw the back of someone who looked like you and my heart skipped a beat.”
LOVE, DEAR ABBY
I look back now and know that younger me is so proud
Let go of what doesn’t bring you happiness: feelings, objects, people…
“I live for you more than I live for myself.”
“You are the most beautiful place I’ve ever been.”
“…and it was that day I realized it was hopeless; for I was simply a mosaic of everyone I’d ever loved.”
“And like the moon, I have gone through countless phases of emptiness before feeling whole again.”
For so long I only cried tears of sadness, that it feels magical to shed tears of joy.
I would rather be hated for who I am than be loved for who I’m not.
I want a relationship where they don’t just scratch my back, but massage and draw on it softly giving me tingles as I fall asleep.
Closing the chapter with someone doesn’t make you cruel; it simply means they aren’t a part of the next one.
“can we go back to normal?”
considering my normal has been fainting in the shower, not being able to breathe, a heart rate of 190, social avoidance, and feelings of hopelessness,
no. no, we can not go ‘back to normal’.
i was a lover, you were a lesson.
“i dream for the day you give me your heart, because i will hold it closer than i hold my own.”
- abby
i was only a sentence in the book of your life.
but you were the main character in mine.
- abby
I hope that years from now I run into you on the street.
I hope you remember everything the way that I do.
I hope it stings at you the way it stung me.
I hope regret haunts you like an ache.
I hope running into me makes you happy whilst simultaneously hurting you.
I hope you register that I’m doing well without you.
Because I know that when you look in the mirror, it’s my face that you see.
And you will never be able to run away from your inward reflection.
“I wish I could tell you I miss you, but you aren’t that person anymore.”
- abby
she was the kind of girl who quietly looked at the people around her and missed them in this moment before it even ended.
“without your looming shadow, i can finally shine.”
- abby
“i gave the clothes off my back, just for you to stab me.”
- abby
“i remember you often so that the colors won’t fade.”
“fool me once: shame on you.
“fool me twice: well, now you can’t since i have trust issues.”
- abby