Mari-0910 - Mari☆

How do i die in my sleep?

Is it possible to feel so lonely despite being around people?

having access to things that can kill me is so comforting

The feeling of emptiness when you're with people.

The gut wrenching feeling when people are happy.

The feeling when people ask the heart pounding question "Are you okay?".

The feeling someone is looking at you even at your own home.

The feeling when someone ask what's wrong with you.

The feeling of waking up.

The feeling you'll never recover.

Apparently this needs to be said so

Forgetting things is morally neutral! Memory issues are morally neutral!

You're not a bad person if you...

forget things quickly

forget people

can't remember entire stages of your life

can't remember important things

can remember some things very well and forget other things all the time

can't remember things (or anything!) about your interests

forget to eat, sleep, go to the bathroom, etc

forget to reply to texts

remember things and immediately forget them again

can't remember birthdays, events, etc

frequently answer 'I forgot' to questions

can't retain new information

forget things you used to know

only remember things when it's too late

have vague, distorted and/or unreliable memories

depend on others to know how an event you were in played out

have other symptoms that are worsened by memory issues and vice versa

... and anything else I might have missed!

“Where do you see yourself in the future”

Bb I don’t. I do not. I do not see myself. There is no future.

I don’t want to be another mistake in someones live.

I thought that everything was going great and i was getting better, then everything started to go downhill again.

Mental health getting so bad, I'm self sabotaging and ending all of my remaining friendships.