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I will be deleting this app in pursuit of recovery.

Imma see yall next week

My mom: you have such a nice figure, don't lose it. Becouse you'll be unhappy

Me trying Realy fucking hard to recover from an ed: it's free relapse

But no joking, I was doing so well, trying to get rid of the idea that skinny equals happy and now this.

Other people here who just get angry when someone mentions they're dieting.

Not becouse im anti losing weight but becouse I Realy don't want them to think they need to lose weight to be pretty. And I don't want them to develop a ed

Or am I just overreacting

My internal dialogue when I'm eating be like: okay okay I can do this. First bite, hell yea, oh shit this is tasty, nom nom nom. Oh no am 8 eating too much? Am I losing controle? I need to stop eating now, but I don't want to waste food, but I'll be fat, what do I do. I feel stuffed, but it's so good. AAAAAAAAJAJJERRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH*internal screaming*

Throwback to my old therapist who told me I shouldn't kill myself, becouse she'd get in trouble with her boss.

Hope she's doing okay

Hi, I lost my last save food and am trying to find new ones, can some of you maybe comment yours below? Or send me a message?

I would really appreciate that

My Ed Realy be out here making me pretend like off of low kcal drinks and a occasional hot choclate milk and a small snack is in fact enough.

I be telling myself I feel completly fine only to completly collapse 5 sec later

compare.

This close to taking all of my mom's diet books and burn them.

Anyone wanna join

Me: *watching my body slowly waste away and break apart knowing damn well I could fix it all if I'd just start eating healthy* what's all this then

pink in the night

Only bad bitches cry after eating a meal

School: go write an essay about your perfect Day in 10 years

Me: ma'am I start crying when I have to think of the next week

To my lovely people who are trying to recover from eating disorders.

Allow me to share a tip that helps me.

So I have issues with eating whole meals (don't ask me why, my brain sucks) and I feel extra bad when I finish it all. So I always leave food on my plate.

So here is my tip, put more food on your plate, that way you'll eat more but still don't feel bad for finishing it all.

Maybe you'll feel bad for "wasting" food but right now your health is more important.

This advice might not work for everyone, but feel free to dm me if you want me to help you find tricks that do work.

My family: *calls me lazy for not doing anything all day*

Me who has been putting all energy in not Kermitting the self deletus:

Corona and quarantine have taken a huge toll on all of us and a lot of people have developed depression becouse of this.

The first year of a depression disorder is the most Chaotic and scary, that Is why I want to give you all some advice on how to deal with it.

Extra note, these are things that work for me, everyone is different and experiences depression different so it is possible that my ways may not work for you, and that is okay, well find something that does work.

1. Get enough rest. You are going through a fucking pandemic while dealing with a mental disorder That is from itself already draining your energy. So please make sure to get that extra nap when you need it.

2. Stay active. Maybe a weird one to come after I said to get rest but it's important. When you feel depressed you probably want to stay in bed all day, however this will just make you feel worse. You don't have to walk a marathon everyday, even just sitting outside for a bit can be enough.

3. Hygiëne. Taking care of your hygiene while being depressed is a literal pain in the ass, so don't feel bad if taking a shower or brushing your teeth is too much, go ahead and wear the same depression hoodie for a month. But quickly rinsing your teeth with a wet toothbrush is better than nothing, just plashing water on your face and armpits is beter than nothing. I do Realy recommend trying to wear clean underwear everyday, believe me you don't want to go there.

4. Eat. For most people depression takes away their appetite, that's completely understandable, however you do need food to survive, I recommend that when you manage to go to the grocery store you get some easy meals and snacks. It might not be the most "healthy" but you're focusing on surviving. You also deserve your favorite treat so go get that as well.

5. Also eat. For others depression makes them eat even more. That is completly understandable, you are surviving, so please do not feel bad about the vew pounds you may have gained. You're doing the best you can, you can focus on eating more "healthy" when you feel better.

6. Reflecting moments. Take time out of everyday to reflect on your day and how you're feeling, when you become more aware of your feelings and possible triggers.

7. Keep a journal. To get back to the last one, writing down how you feel is a great way to keep track of your emotions, it's also a amazing way to let go of those thoughts. You don't have to write in it every day, just when you feel like you need to write stuff down.

8. Don't feel bad. Please please please try not to talk yourself down. I know it's easier said than done but it is so important. You are dealing with a mental illness, which is a actual illness. You are doing the best you can. If you can only lay in bed for a week that's totaly okay, if you can only sit and play games, that's great. As long as you're getting through the days you're already doinh amazing and I am so proud of you. Just focus on surviving for now, you'll get to live again one day. I promise.

9. Find stuff that helps you cope. Finding healthy coping meganisms is one of the most important things to do. It will help you through the hard days, I know it's tempting to go for the unhealthy coping meganisms and if thats the only thing helping right now then no one will blame you. But please do try to go for the healthy ones, the unhealthy ones will only course more problems later in life. (believe me, I know)

10. Get therapy. If you have acces to therapy please do seek it. I know it sounds scary and maybe you feel like you can do it on your own but please do find a therapist. Also important to note, find a therapist you like and who actualy helps you. Don't feel bad if you have to send a therapist away, they're here to help you get better and if one of them does not fit you it's in both your best interest to go look for a other one.

I hope this will help, if you have questions or you want extra help do not be afraid to send me a message.

I am in no way a licensed therapist, I am not trained to deal with triggering content or dangerous situations, so if you do want to talk aboht that kind of stuff please put a trigger warning at the beginning so I know what I can expect. Also please do not take my words as the only truth, I'm only human and as I said before, what helps for others might not help for you.

I love you all, I am so proud of you all, I hope we'll all be able to return to our lives soon

*sees a decapitated body* so no head?

Me: I wished I was never born

My mom: I wished you were never born

Me: >:0

Me: Im not that traumatised

Also me when I have to call in sick for internship even tho I know damn well they are all nice people: they're gonna hate me. I am going to fail. I have to rehearse what I am going to say 493910393929 times or I'll die. Okay so I know I can barely stand up but do I Realy need to stay home? This is it, I might as well drop out of school. They're gonna tell me I'm a disappointment and they never want to see me again.

Internship: oh yea, sorry to hear that, get well soon!

Me: *confused* where is the hate

Me: *leaving internship for the day* see ya tomorrow bestie

Also me 5 minutes later sending them a text where I explain I am completely burned out and can't come for a while: goodnight bestie but I'm about to tell you something that you might just not like.

My teacher: *trynna chill and enjoy her evening*

Me: *about to send her a whole ass vent email* hello bestie

Me: why am I so tired and weak, how do I feel better.

My malnourished, dehydrated and burned out body: I have a vew suggestions

People Realy be treating me as if I'm mentally stable.

Like, no. I will end myself if you keep giving me that tone

Being a neurodivergent person living with or just being around neurotypicals means you need to compromise a lot.

The compromises being you finding ways to cope with your shit without being a burden to the neurotypicals.

Becouse God forbids they show basic human compassion.

So anyway people are being loud again and now I'm a bitch

Having mental illness or mental disabilities culture is knowing exactly what you need to cope but not being able to tell others becouse you know you won't get that support.

What my family thinks i think when I'm in my room: boy I sure love being surrounded by trash, no tidy life for this kid!

How my acrualy goes: I can't fucking believe this fucking mess, is it that hard to keep my room clean for once?? The laundry basket is literially a vew steps away, this stuff can be put back in their place within second, so why can't I keep it fucking clean. I literially am the most worthless person ever

If you say my name 3 times in a mirror I appear and steal your chairs

Reminder that being an ally doesn’t have to mean that you provide lengthy speeches or put on an elaborate display of your support if that’s not your thing.

Being an ally means standing up to bigotry and discrimination in your everyday life and taking small actions to make our world more equal.

hi im a black lesbian in need of help. my father was arrested on tuesday december 15th. he was the sole breadwinner for the family, so now my stepmom (who has been unemployed since march due to COVID) needs help supporting herself and my two young siblings, as well as covering legal fees for my father.

my dad is immunocompromised and at high risk for COVID complications, so we are extremely worried about him being in jail. i dont want my siblings to grow up without their dad. i dont want to lose him. please consider donating if you can, and if you cant, please please share!! thank you for reading ❤️

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Hi everyone. My name is Nabilah. I’m 23 years old and I am in my second year of veterinary schoo… Nabilah Curtis needs your support for Plea

Black Lives Matter Resources

https://blacklivesmatter.com/search/petition

https://blacklivesmatter.carrd.co/# - Works on moblie

https://www.timeout.com/newyork/news/how-you-can-help-the-black-lives-matter-movement-and-protesters-in-nyc-right-now-060220

https://blacklivesmatterhelpus.org/contact-us/

https://blacklivesmatternyc.wordpress.com/

https://www.blacklivesmatter.uk/

https://www.webmd.com/story/black-lives-matter

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YG8GjlLbbvs

https://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/black-lives-matter-children-parents-how-teach-anti-racism-education-white-privilege-a9569001.html

https://blacklivesmatter.com/resources/

https://creative-capital.org/2020/06/03/resources-ways-to-support-black-lives-matter/

https://www.redcross.org.uk/get-involved/teaching-resources/black-lives-matter-resources-for-young-people

https://www.itsnicethat.com/news/resources-supporting-black-lives-matter-movement-creative-industry-010620