Parihere - I Study And Stuff.

jimin riding the struggle bus all over connecticut feat. jungkook sometimes helping and sometimes not helping

28.12.2024, Saturday

finally... tomorrow is my last exam of this year...

putting an end to this chapter and this year so we can finally move on to a better (academic) year hopefully <3

tomorrow is my math exam, and it is my last pre board , and as I say this I'm hoping that I have passed in all of them and god forbid I don't have to retake them :"")

I've revised all that I know already and I'm gonna just go over calculus again

uhhhhhhh I'm so done with this already I'll wrap it up by 3:30-4 am and sleep

here's all that I'll do before my "last" pre-exam nap (of this year lmao) :-

differential equations important questions

linear programming important questions

integral important questions

yep, that's it , cuz it's already pretty late already and I need sleep to function in a fkn maths exam

wish me luckkk!!!! (pray for me y'all 🩷)

thankyouuuuu 🩷🩷🫂🫂

22.12.2024 , Sunday

my physics exam didn't go well at all , actually yesterday sucked , the teachers didn't let us leave after our exams and we had to wait a long time, there were other things as well, just a bad day

Well tomorrow is my English exam!! I'm usually very excited for english because it's a relatively easy subject and actually quite interesting

It's just very..very lengthy.. literally.. I'm usually writing until the last second and my hands are cramping

I hope I'm able to manage the time well :))

I have gone over the writing format and I have to read a few chapters

Here's all that I need to do

the rattrap - selma lagerlöf

The interview - Christopher Silvester and Umberto Eco

Indigo - Louis Fischer

Poets and pancakes - asokamittran

Memories of childhood - zitkala-sa , bama

Tiger king - kalki

Journey to the end of the earth - tishani doshi

Aunt Jennifer's tigers - Adrienne rich

whew , I hope tomorrow doesn't suck , I'm able to finish all the questions and they let me leave after the exam!!!!!

Wish me luck!! (pray for me y'all) 🩷🩷🐝

FINALLY GOT EM AFTER A WEEK OF SEARCHING!!! 😭😭

I WANT HARRY POTTER KINDERJOY

Hey cloud , you remind me of someone today <3

I finally got my hands on the harry potter x kinder joy!!!! AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I've been trying to find them but they were sold out everywhere so I gave up...

Until my bestfriend called and told me she found it in a shop nearby AND.I.FUCKING.BOLTED.

Ik it's just a bit of momentary joy and I'll have to get back to studying chemistry in minutes cuz it's exam week BUT boi do i feel happy!!!!

My bsf is more sensible and responsible so she bought only two and got Hermione and draco pin

And cuz I'm insane and bought like 14 of them I have an extra pair of the big three ,so I'm giving a ron and harry figurine to her 🤎

I didn't get hedwig so I'm a bit disappointed (cuz another friend of mine teased me about it uh -_-)

BUT totally worth it.yipeeeeee

I need to find my way back

15.12.2024 , sunday

I have my pre boards from 18th and I'm just cramming up all year's syllabus right now...whew

gotta finish entire physics tonight so that I can do maths tomorrow, I'm gonna be more active over here cuz i am in desperate need of inspo

prolly gonna stay up till 4:30 or 5 am

no way out , gotta lock in 🗣️

to be done -

electric charges & field

electrostatics

current electricity

moving charges

magnetism

emi

AC

if I'll be able to finish this by 5 somehow then I'll also complete electromagnetic waves

Unloved

As I sit in my room with

books scattered in front of me

My blankets bundled up because I don't bother to fold them

i wonder

What is so inherently unlovable about me

I'm just 17

nobody stays forever ,I know that

but with the fast moving lives everyone from my generation around me is living

I fail

I fail to make my parents proud

I fail to make my friends be there for me whenever I actually need them

heck , I fail to even get a boyfriend

I don't have one

never had one

every boy I have ever talked to has at one point just given up

they do call me beautiful

they do say they like me

but like everything and everyone around me they don't want anything "more" from me

with nothing in my hands

I often believe not even my parents love me

but maybe that's an exaggeration yk

they do stay unlike everyone else who just walks away

But

They don't help either

They do love me I know

They do support me I know

But it's just a rarity for us to just sit and talk

without fights

without my self esteem down the drain

I can't remember the last time I sat with my dad and discussed the latest Bollywood movies

I can't remember the last time I gossiped with my mom about our relatives

it's so funny that even for a family of three lovi under the same roof

we have managed to distance ourselves

so

If even the people i live with don't stay with me

who will?

and As I lay on my bed with

books scattered in front of me

My blankets covering up my face because I fear someone will see the tears swelled up

i wonder

What is so inherently unlovable about me

and i drift off to sleep

hoping to find the answers in my dream

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